what I really want...

"i think ur not bein true to urself...is that what you really want or is it what you think is right for you to want??? take that mask off..come out of the closet"

ugh!

Are you saying that I'm making things up when I say that I like a man now?

Unfortunately, I really like one now.

I'm not hiding my true color... yes, I fall for women more often but I'm proud to say that I've never established an intimate relationship with anyone from the female gender.

Someone changed my point of view that all men are the same and that they all stink.

If I ignore that special feeling I felt for him, then that's self-denial.

But I still believe that men in general stink.
And that some pretty ladies deserves a space in my heart... lolz.

Not a lot of cooL people surrounds me as for the moment...

I can't understand why some people are fond of creating things which are of mediocre quality. I can't understand why they can't make things more fun...

We had a pre-valentine "party" (which is really lame and dull) in our P.E class..

Ms. Gemzon asked me if I could build a site for the FEU Alumni Association... which is cool coz I really love designing sites.

For my class for DOcPed, nothing new. The same old thing that happened last meetings happened again today and will probably be happening this whole sem.


I still don't like some people even if they're the coolest or the hippest as long as I can see that they're doing bad things to others.

hmm.. don't read this one.

I know now, why I don't like men or why I find it hard to like men... I have my standards, they are high, but still, attainable. I want a man who is smart, preferably smarter than I amso that he will not look stupid if he's with me. I'm not belittling men , it's just that I know my worth as a woman and what I deserve for being such.

I already met him. He's smart, nice and good-mannered (although I'm a bit taller than he is) and I like him. He's a friend to me and I am likewise to him (hopefully, lolz). But sometimes, I get intimidated by his intellectual might. He makes me feel less by doing more in studies. I abhor the emotions I feel when situations like him being credited for something arose. Me and my lousy insecurity...

I don't like stupid guys and now, smart guys are stressing me out... can I just be a bubble? So I can float up in the air and just... "plop!"

...vanish into thin air.

Joy's Debut...

"Friendship: a building contract you sign with laughter and break with tears."

January 9, 2005
Aberdeen Court, Quezon City

I was reluctant to attend joy's birthday bash coz, first, i don't even know where the hell that Great Eastern Hotel is located! (joy called me PromDi for not knowing where aberdeen court is.. hehe).. but due to her constant pangungulit, I finally agreed, birthday nya naman eh.

So, ayun, feeling amag na naman ako sa suot ko... I wonder, when will I start to get used to in wearing formal clothings? hehehe... Anyweiz, buti na lang sinundo ako ni jane sa may lobby kasi hindi ko naman alam kung anong floor and room ang pagdadausan nung party eh.

Well, unfortunately, Joy's 10N other buddies didn't manage to attend. Life's really ironic. Why? Ako nga tong tanging hindi nabigyan ng invitation kasi hindi kami nagkikita ni Joy sa school tapos ako pa ung tanging naka-attend. It's really disappointing for me and Joy as well.

Enjoy naman. I met a lot a of new friends and even given the chance to bond with them. Haha! yeah! So many pretty ladies! AS for guys... uhmm... average lang. hehehe...

Thanks Joy! I enjoyed your party! I love you my one of my bestest friend!