not in Hiatus mode anymore... :) happy for that!
anyweiz... I'm here at Leo's place using his cuz's PC.. a very nice PC... :) and my friends are cooking! Yes! cooking coz it's Kim's 18th birthday!!! Happy birthday kimpoy!!
We went to DFA today and guess what? My application has been rejected becoz of wrong middle name on my birth certificate... (tanglib, not tangib!!!.. grrr..) I will go to Manila City Hall tomorrow to get it right. I hope that won't cost too much..
Haay... pasukan na naman... :) alive once again/.
on hiatus...
I'm on HIATUS... this means I'll be uncivilized for awhile and know nothing about the internet or computers for a short/long period of time... depends on how long my brother will be angry at me for the printer I just messed up and is not working anymore (coz he won't let me use the PC.. that's the punishment for my every mistakes... how shallow.) Leave messages in the shoutbox... sympathetic messages maybe? I love u all. I always do.
:)
:)
grades
Ok. I already got my 1st sem grades... and guess what? I almost flunked my English subject!! Grrr... That's the price I have to pay for not attending my 7:30 AM class every tuesday and friday! I did not get any flat 1 or even 1.25.. but I was elated when I saw my grade in my favorite subject, Political Science 2... it's my highest!!! haha! 1.5!! If you're interested in viewing my 1st sem grades, then CLICK HERE!
I'm banning myself from creating negative entries for an indefinite period of time. No rants and criticisms for now. So I'ma start posting entries that concerns the topic of Philippine culture and politics (how interesting... duh.) I'm serious. This may seem a bit boring but can be a real mind-opener. :)
"We seem to inspire other nations with an irresistible urge to save us, civilize us, liberate us. The Spaniards believed they were rescuing us from the Mohammedans and other agents of Satan. The Americans proclaimed their purpose to civilize us, Christianize us, and liberate us from the Spaniards and the "Tagalog Republic". The Japanese in their turn assumed, like excellent mimics, the classic posture of saviors, and announced that they were come to free us from the Americans in particular, and white men in general. No one bothered to consult us, and many Filipinos were killed by these favors. By an amazing stroke of luck, we have managed to survive the solicitude, and to learn that in the end we must save ourselves."
- an excerpt from "What Are Filipinos Like?"
an essay by Leon Ma. Guerrero
I've already read this essay twice, today dates the third time. This is an old essay, but the lessons here can still be applied to the current dilemmas our country is facing right now. I recommend this essay to be read by everyone who wants to know what Filipinos are really like and those who are in question of what are the possible reasons why and how did we manage to become who we are right now.
I'm banning myself from creating negative entries for an indefinite period of time. No rants and criticisms for now. So I'ma start posting entries that concerns the topic of Philippine culture and politics (how interesting... duh.) I'm serious. This may seem a bit boring but can be a real mind-opener. :)
"We seem to inspire other nations with an irresistible urge to save us, civilize us, liberate us. The Spaniards believed they were rescuing us from the Mohammedans and other agents of Satan. The Americans proclaimed their purpose to civilize us, Christianize us, and liberate us from the Spaniards and the "Tagalog Republic". The Japanese in their turn assumed, like excellent mimics, the classic posture of saviors, and announced that they were come to free us from the Americans in particular, and white men in general. No one bothered to consult us, and many Filipinos were killed by these favors. By an amazing stroke of luck, we have managed to survive the solicitude, and to learn that in the end we must save ourselves."
- an excerpt from "What Are Filipinos Like?"
an essay by Leon Ma. Guerrero
I've already read this essay twice, today dates the third time. This is an old essay, but the lessons here can still be applied to the current dilemmas our country is facing right now. I recommend this essay to be read by everyone who wants to know what Filipinos are really like and those who are in question of what are the possible reasons why and how did we manage to become who we are right now.
grades?!?!
ahhhhh!!! kuhaan ng grades ngayon! I'm so nervous! I know I haven't done my best this sem... wish me luck!
Ok... I'm so tired of myself for writing rants, criticisms and oh so negative things. For a change, let's just not write anything today... hahaha! nah! just kidding... :)
Enrollment on Oct. 27... hmm.. hoholdapin na naman ako ng FEU.. hehe.
My head's empty today, I can't think of anything nice to post aside from pure negativities, so here, I'll just post a wonderful poem I got from http://www.creative-poems.com:
Junk
She stood quietly on the edge,
Looking at the waves crashing below.
Knowing nobody would miss her,
Doubting anyone would even know.
Alone in a sea of people,
That is the way the world made her feel.
No purpose to her existence,
Trapped in a nightmare that wasn’t real.
There were never any answers,
No one there to see her through the strife.
Just a piece of cosmic garbage,
Clinging to a lonely, useless life.
She wondered if the fall would hurt.
What if she didn’t die right away?
Knowing her luck, she might survive,
Crippled by the choice she made today.
Maybe then people would notice.
Of course, many would try not to stare.
She wouldn’t be invisible,
At least, people would notice the chair.
As she stood there in reflection,
She heard a strangely familiar voice.
She turned to see a little girl,
Begging her not to make the wrong choice.
“Mommy, you don’t want to do this.
You don’t know how important you are.
Who is going to be my Mother,
If your light flickers out like a star?”
The child became a teenager,
As she addressed the woman once more.
“Who will pick me up when I fall,
If your advice, I choose to ignore?”
And then the vision changed again,
A young woman was standing there now.
She asked: “Who will plan my wedding,
When I’ve chosen to make such a vow?”
Again the apparition changed,
An elderly woman took her hand.
“There is something I must show you,
I think it will help you understand.”
Then suddenly, all around her,
Stood a crowd of people, young and old.
“Each of these are your descendants.”
It was truly a sight to behold.
Then the vision began to fade,
And only the little girl remained.
“Mommy I’m depending on you,
Do you understand what I’ve explained?”
“Every person has a purpose,
Some will pass life’s tests, others will flunk.
But every soul is important.
God is not the creator of junk.”
With that, the vision disappeared.
And life’s meaning came into view.
All have a reason for living,
There’s a plan and a purpose for you.
Ok... I'm so tired of myself for writing rants, criticisms and oh so negative things. For a change, let's just not write anything today... hahaha! nah! just kidding... :)
Enrollment on Oct. 27... hmm.. hoholdapin na naman ako ng FEU.. hehe.
My head's empty today, I can't think of anything nice to post aside from pure negativities, so here, I'll just post a wonderful poem I got from http://www.creative-poems.com:
Junk
She stood quietly on the edge,
Looking at the waves crashing below.
Knowing nobody would miss her,
Doubting anyone would even know.
Alone in a sea of people,
That is the way the world made her feel.
No purpose to her existence,
Trapped in a nightmare that wasn’t real.
There were never any answers,
No one there to see her through the strife.
Just a piece of cosmic garbage,
Clinging to a lonely, useless life.
She wondered if the fall would hurt.
What if she didn’t die right away?
Knowing her luck, she might survive,
Crippled by the choice she made today.
Maybe then people would notice.
Of course, many would try not to stare.
She wouldn’t be invisible,
At least, people would notice the chair.
As she stood there in reflection,
She heard a strangely familiar voice.
She turned to see a little girl,
Begging her not to make the wrong choice.
“Mommy, you don’t want to do this.
You don’t know how important you are.
Who is going to be my Mother,
If your light flickers out like a star?”
The child became a teenager,
As she addressed the woman once more.
“Who will pick me up when I fall,
If your advice, I choose to ignore?”
And then the vision changed again,
A young woman was standing there now.
She asked: “Who will plan my wedding,
When I’ve chosen to make such a vow?”
Again the apparition changed,
An elderly woman took her hand.
“There is something I must show you,
I think it will help you understand.”
Then suddenly, all around her,
Stood a crowd of people, young and old.
“Each of these are your descendants.”
It was truly a sight to behold.
Then the vision began to fade,
And only the little girl remained.
“Mommy I’m depending on you,
Do you understand what I’ve explained?”
“Every person has a purpose,
Some will pass life’s tests, others will flunk.
But every soul is important.
God is not the creator of junk.”
With that, the vision disappeared.
And life’s meaning came into view.
All have a reason for living,
There’s a plan and a purpose for you.
sembreak
Sembreak!
Sembreak sucks! When I was younger, being on vacation was a lot of fun! But now, being on vacation is sooo borriiinnnggg!! I'm stuck in this house doing nothing! I can't even go out coz I'm so broke! And the worst part of being on vacation is missing your friends so badly! Abi is in Isabela. Doms is... well, in their house. Ang mga 4a naman, d nagpaparamdam. Thank God for internet and landline.
I'll be getting my class card this coming friday... Our plan is to watch a movie after getting our grades. Pero... parang ayoko na. Kasi naman!!!! Ang bitter ko pa rin hanggang ngayon!! Gusto ko na talagang lumipat ng skul!
Sembreak sucks! When I was younger, being on vacation was a lot of fun! But now, being on vacation is sooo borriiinnnggg!! I'm stuck in this house doing nothing! I can't even go out coz I'm so broke! And the worst part of being on vacation is missing your friends so badly! Abi is in Isabela. Doms is... well, in their house. Ang mga 4a naman, d nagpaparamdam. Thank God for internet and landline.
I'll be getting my class card this coming friday... Our plan is to watch a movie after getting our grades. Pero... parang ayoko na. Kasi naman!!!! Ang bitter ko pa rin hanggang ngayon!! Gusto ko na talagang lumipat ng skul!
in deep
(Rants & Rants)
I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one to notice?
I can't be the only one who's learned
True. This world is full of pretenders, liars, wanna-be's and imposters. They don't know who they are; all they know is who they want to be in other people's eyes. I hate people like that! They even look so sane when you see them but actually, they are not! Some are afraid to be true to their selves because they think they'll look outrageous or out of this world while some act so outrageous or crazy or weird because they think it's so cool and they want people to think they are cool when in reality, they are nothing but pathetic inferior losers. But yeah, people are so gullible... they can be easily tricked. I'm not one of them and I think it's not entirely a good thing, right? coz It means I don't trust people too easily, and that's sick. Why? coz I have so many friends, but only few of them are quite deserving of my trust and I think I'm being unfair to them.
I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
-Gavin Degraw "i don't wanna be"
I want to be like many other people. Coz sometimes, they have something I want to have or they are something I want to be. I always feel I lack something and they have it. Imagine this: A thing I have dreamt of all my life - and someone already owns it!!! What the fuck is that?! But hey... maybe I just have to be me. If people can't like or accept me for who I am, then the fuck with them! I'm not willing to change.
Don't try to be everything. Just try to be something.
I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one to notice?
I can't be the only one who's learned
True. This world is full of pretenders, liars, wanna-be's and imposters. They don't know who they are; all they know is who they want to be in other people's eyes. I hate people like that! They even look so sane when you see them but actually, they are not! Some are afraid to be true to their selves because they think they'll look outrageous or out of this world while some act so outrageous or crazy or weird because they think it's so cool and they want people to think they are cool when in reality, they are nothing but pathetic inferior losers. But yeah, people are so gullible... they can be easily tricked. I'm not one of them and I think it's not entirely a good thing, right? coz It means I don't trust people too easily, and that's sick. Why? coz I have so many friends, but only few of them are quite deserving of my trust and I think I'm being unfair to them.
I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
-Gavin Degraw "i don't wanna be"
I want to be like many other people. Coz sometimes, they have something I want to have or they are something I want to be. I always feel I lack something and they have it. Imagine this: A thing I have dreamt of all my life - and someone already owns it!!! What the fuck is that?! But hey... maybe I just have to be me. If people can't like or accept me for who I am, then the fuck with them! I'm not willing to change.
Don't try to be everything. Just try to be something.
hay nako...
"Whoever said nothing is impossible never tried slamming a revolving door."-Unknown
Yes, it is true. Not everything is possible. You can never get everything you want in life.
Na-realized ko yan nung kasama ko xa nung isang gabi. Kahit ang lapit lapit nyo na sa isa't-isa, di mo xa mahawakan, di mo maipadama ang nararamdaman mo. Bakit? kasi alam mong wala kang karapatan at hindi nya rin gustong ipadama mo pa. Samantalang sa taong gusto nya, handa xang magmukang tanga para hingin ung mga bagay na kaya mo namang ibigay kahit buong puso pa, kahit hindi nya hingin. Ang irony ng buhay, bow.
Nasa harapan ko na xa. Gusto ko na xang yakapin, pero tumalikod na lang ako. Wag na lang...
Does reincarnation really exists? If it does, I'd be willing to give everything just to be that person who is destined na mapasakanya hanggang kamatayan. Hay nako... wishful thinking na naman po ako.
"Whenever I feel blue, I start breathing again."-Larry Baum
Abi just told us a very weird and somewhat scary story... about a supernatural being she spotted in front of our house about past 4am of october 14, 2004. She said it was dancing. I got frightened, but only for awhile. I have spent 18 years living in our house, but nothing really bad happened to us... so I guess that supernatural being is there to be our guardian. I think we just need to respect that being and his/her territory, treat him/her as if he/she is a friend. Does he/she have a friendster account? :)
Yes, it is true. Not everything is possible. You can never get everything you want in life.
Na-realized ko yan nung kasama ko xa nung isang gabi. Kahit ang lapit lapit nyo na sa isa't-isa, di mo xa mahawakan, di mo maipadama ang nararamdaman mo. Bakit? kasi alam mong wala kang karapatan at hindi nya rin gustong ipadama mo pa. Samantalang sa taong gusto nya, handa xang magmukang tanga para hingin ung mga bagay na kaya mo namang ibigay kahit buong puso pa, kahit hindi nya hingin. Ang irony ng buhay, bow.
Nasa harapan ko na xa. Gusto ko na xang yakapin, pero tumalikod na lang ako. Wag na lang...
Does reincarnation really exists? If it does, I'd be willing to give everything just to be that person who is destined na mapasakanya hanggang kamatayan. Hay nako... wishful thinking na naman po ako.
"Whenever I feel blue, I start breathing again."-Larry Baum
Abi just told us a very weird and somewhat scary story... about a supernatural being she spotted in front of our house about past 4am of october 14, 2004. She said it was dancing. I got frightened, but only for awhile. I have spent 18 years living in our house, but nothing really bad happened to us... so I guess that supernatural being is there to be our guardian. I think we just need to respect that being and his/her territory, treat him/her as if he/she is a friend. Does he/she have a friendster account? :)
finals na!
tangna! finals na sa retorika at math!! wahhhhh!!! matthhhh!!! tago nyoko!!
...and why am is till here in front of this freakin' computer?! with marilyn manson's "beautiful people" song playing on the background?!
wish me luck na lang!! :)
...and why am is till here in front of this freakin' computer?! with marilyn manson's "beautiful people" song playing on the background?!
wish me luck na lang!! :)
ayun
Lumilipas ang mga araw na walang nangyayari
tanging itong nararamdaman ko sayo ang lumalaki
sumisikip na paghinga,
kapag naiisip na wala naman talagang pag-asa
hanggang saan, hanggang kailan
magiging isang kaibigang napag-iwanan?
pilitin ko mang pumikit para hindi makita
binubulong naman ng hangin na ikaw nga
kailan ba ako mapapagod sa katatakbo at katatago
ng mga bagay na maganda man at totoo,
wala naman akong karapatang ibigay sayo.
I did a great job on my NSTP final exam! 77/100 isn't bad at all, right? and add 5 points to that because of my complete uniform! haha!
it's jo's bday... she's a friend of doms. Happy bday Jo! (though i know you'll never be able to view this site of mine anyway.. lolz)
I truly love OPMs at this moment! Pinoy music is not dead! thanks to the effort of our indie bands and other really kewl artists like kitchie nadal and session road (i gotta admit this, I'm totally bored of parokya ni edgar and rivermaya, not because they produce bad music, it's because i want to have more choices and it feels like they're the only ones out there i'm allowed to choose from) and sorry if i will say this: I hate (hate=i don't like) those noisy pinoy rock bands like slapshock or cheese or chicosci... please forgive the way I tell my preferences.
I hate (hate = i don't like) some other TV network(s?)! i think (my opinion) what they're doing up there are exploitation of talents (need a good example? think of kris aquino) & fabrication of lies (the myx daily top ten... jerry yan is at the top today. how about tomorrow? oh yeah, christian bautista or sheryn regis or worst, even sandara park! what happened to good music?!) and promotion of things that are so naive and superficial like that "born diva" thingy... if you're truly a born diva, why should you change some of your physicalities to be able to be a singer (duh) and even broadcast how the surgeons faked the parts that made you who you are, or televise how they stole from you the identity that God gave you that made you unique from others...
I'm not a kapuso or GMA fan, but I think GMA is really number 1. I'm a cable channels fan, a very opinionated cable channels fan, that is. :)
tanging itong nararamdaman ko sayo ang lumalaki
sumisikip na paghinga,
kapag naiisip na wala naman talagang pag-asa
hanggang saan, hanggang kailan
magiging isang kaibigang napag-iwanan?
pilitin ko mang pumikit para hindi makita
binubulong naman ng hangin na ikaw nga
kailan ba ako mapapagod sa katatakbo at katatago
ng mga bagay na maganda man at totoo,
wala naman akong karapatang ibigay sayo.
I did a great job on my NSTP final exam! 77/100 isn't bad at all, right? and add 5 points to that because of my complete uniform! haha!
it's jo's bday... she's a friend of doms. Happy bday Jo! (though i know you'll never be able to view this site of mine anyway.. lolz)
I truly love OPMs at this moment! Pinoy music is not dead! thanks to the effort of our indie bands and other really kewl artists like kitchie nadal and session road (i gotta admit this, I'm totally bored of parokya ni edgar and rivermaya, not because they produce bad music, it's because i want to have more choices and it feels like they're the only ones out there i'm allowed to choose from) and sorry if i will say this: I hate (hate=i don't like) those noisy pinoy rock bands like slapshock or cheese or chicosci... please forgive the way I tell my preferences.
I hate (hate = i don't like) some other TV network(s?)! i think (my opinion) what they're doing up there are exploitation of talents (need a good example? think of kris aquino) & fabrication of lies (the myx daily top ten... jerry yan is at the top today. how about tomorrow? oh yeah, christian bautista or sheryn regis or worst, even sandara park! what happened to good music?!) and promotion of things that are so naive and superficial like that "born diva" thingy... if you're truly a born diva, why should you change some of your physicalities to be able to be a singer (duh) and even broadcast how the surgeons faked the parts that made you who you are, or televise how they stole from you the identity that God gave you that made you unique from others...
I'm not a kapuso or GMA fan, but I think GMA is really number 1. I'm a cable channels fan, a very opinionated cable channels fan, that is. :)
haynako
anong gagawin mo kung ang taong gusto mo at gusto ka rin ay may commitment na sa iba pero parang kayo, feeling nyo kayo, tapos ayaw naman nya humiwalay dun sa taong committed na xa?
ang labo. oo, ang labo talaga. bakit kasi may mga bagay tayong takot tayong bitawan? para pag iniwan tayo sa ere nung isa, may pupuntahan pa tayong isa pa. sakripisyo - yan ang laging dahilan ng mga taong ang pinaiiral lang naman talaga ay katangahan.
we spent some hours at the freedom park - abi, doms and me. some people we know dropped by to share some thoughts with us. its just a simple place, a bench under a tree in front of the school church, but we made extraordinary memories in that simple place. we didn't even have to bother putting out any amount to be happy. all we ever have to show and give is everything we truly are - no more, no less.
makes me really want to believe in that old saying - "the best things in life are free"
ang labo. oo, ang labo talaga. bakit kasi may mga bagay tayong takot tayong bitawan? para pag iniwan tayo sa ere nung isa, may pupuntahan pa tayong isa pa. sakripisyo - yan ang laging dahilan ng mga taong ang pinaiiral lang naman talaga ay katangahan.
we spent some hours at the freedom park - abi, doms and me. some people we know dropped by to share some thoughts with us. its just a simple place, a bench under a tree in front of the school church, but we made extraordinary memories in that simple place. we didn't even have to bother putting out any amount to be happy. all we ever have to show and give is everything we truly are - no more, no less.
makes me really want to believe in that old saying - "the best things in life are free"
why i changed my lay-out...
why i changed my lay-out?
because the lay-out reminds me of something... something i want to put na lang in the past, the only reason why I became bitter on the exact day of the celebration of my birthday.
It's so easy to despise what you can't get... I can now apply that in this fuckin' situation I'm into... stupid me! Why do I have to fall so deep? when i know that what I have to give will never be reciprocated. (ang drama! parang hindi ako toh ah?!)
pagkatapos, sasabihin na ganun... ah ewan... nalilito lang daw... ah ewan ko sayo! basta ako, kahit anong sabihin mo, mahal pa rin kta! wag ka nang dumada! kahit mahuli ko pa kayong nagse-sex na, ok lang! cge! pero sana maisip mo na pag-uwi nya sa bahay nila, may asawa syang dadatnan... at hindi ikaw yon...
sabagay... kung kayo naman talaga.. e di kayo..
because the lay-out reminds me of something... something i want to put na lang in the past, the only reason why I became bitter on the exact day of the celebration of my birthday.
It's so easy to despise what you can't get... I can now apply that in this fuckin' situation I'm into... stupid me! Why do I have to fall so deep? when i know that what I have to give will never be reciprocated. (ang drama! parang hindi ako toh ah?!)
pagkatapos, sasabihin na ganun... ah ewan... nalilito lang daw... ah ewan ko sayo! basta ako, kahit anong sabihin mo, mahal pa rin kta! wag ka nang dumada! kahit mahuli ko pa kayong nagse-sex na, ok lang! cge! pero sana maisip mo na pag-uwi nya sa bahay nila, may asawa syang dadatnan... at hindi ikaw yon...
sabagay... kung kayo naman talaga.. e di kayo..
