Images: My Excuse for Not Writing Blog Entries

There had been interesting happenings in my life these past few days. I've won the 3rd prize in the on-the-spot essay writing contest, I lost in the quiz bowl challenge, went to Mark's place, gave Sarah an artwork for her birthday and so on... I'm going to include details regarding these happenings, but not now. That essay writing contest drained my brain and now I can't squeeze out proper words so as to create a detailed and accurate account of this week's experiences.

Ok, I'll just show you the drawing I've made for Sarah and the logo I've just finished for the Rotaract Club of Sampaloc. Yeah, yeah, yeah.. they're not created using Adobe Photoshop so forgive me for the low image quality. These are manually drawn and scanned then printed. The photoshop wasn't installed and I believe our hard disk doesn't have enough space to accommodate the large file size of the Adobe program, so, yeah, no Photoshop exercises for me! No photoshop edited photos too! hehe! Well anyweiz, here are the images I was talking about, Enjoy!



from blogthings...

You Should Get a JD (Juris Doctor)

You're logical, driven, and ruthless.
You'd make a mighty fine lawyer.

Love is A Force of Nature



Cast:
Jake Gyllenhaal, Heath Ledger, Michelle Williams. Anne Hathaway


MY REVIEW:

At first thought, who would ever enjoy a film about two gay cowboys claiming they had fallen in love with each other just because they've been together for about a month in a place called Brokeback Mountain? People I knew, some straight men, conservatives and the closed-minded, admitted that they didn't find the story appealing to their morally upright tastes.

Honestly speaking, upon hearing about the story line of the controversial movie, I also found it ridiculous. But when I finisehd watching the movie, I knew right then that this is one of those movies which weren't exactly made to please people. What's ridiculous for you may just be the noblest thing to do or have for others, even if it would tantamount to a life-long misery. Hey, honestly, I don't have a wide scope of vocabulary so I'll just give you this helpful review from Entertainment Weekly, ENJOY! :

Brokeback Mountain is that rare thing, a big Hollywood weeper with a beautiful ache at its center. It's a modern-age Western that turns into a quietly revolutionary love story. In 1963, Ennis Del Mar (Heath Ledger) and Jack Twist (Jake Gyllenhaal), a couple of dirt-poor ranch hands, take a job guarding a flock of sheep on Brokeback Mountain, a pristine jutting vista nestled in the lush Wyoming wilderness. Ennis, a crusty, taciturn loner with a scowl that might have been carved into his pale face, and Jack, an amateur rodeo rider who has held on to his optimistic boyishness, are youthful anachronisms, relics of the fading days of the Great Plains culture. But they're still cowboys to the core; they've fallen into this life because it feeds something in them.

To keep the coyotes away, Jack is assigned to sleep near the flock, but mostly the two men have hours, days, and weeks on their hands. They jump on horses to guide the sheep across meadows and rivers; they sit around a campfire, heating canned beans and swapping stories and a bottle of whiskey. Then, one night, when it's too cold for either one of them to sleep outside, they do something that the old movie cowboys never did: They wrap their bodies in a rough embrace and, without a hint of seduction, they have sex, an act that's as shocking to them as it is to us.

Because it feels right, they do it again as the days go by. Yet what is it, exactly, they're feeling, this urgent seizure of loneliness and affection and desire? Ennis and Jack, who've been raised in a world where to be ''queer'' is not to be a man (and is therefore unthinkable), can't grasp the feeling that's come over them because they literally don't have the words for it. In their very innocence, they are, in an odd way, a bit like the ancient Greeks, who saw homosexuality as an exalted expression of male friendship. Ennis and Jack call each other ''friend,'' and they mean it, but their bond evolves into a delicate, suspended romance, and Brokeback Mountain becomes their Eden, the craggy cowboy paradise from which they are destined to fall.

Adapted from Annie Proulx's brilliant 1997 short story, Brokeback Mountain was directed by Ang Lee (Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon) from a script by the venerable Western novelist and screenwriter Larry McMurtry (Lonesome Dove) and Diana Ossana, and together they have coaxed Proulx's anecdotal, through-the-years narrative into a wistful epic of longing and loss. Lee stages the picture with an enraptured tranquillity that lets each emotion shine through. At times, it's a bit too tranquil, especially in the episodic second half, but when Brokeback Mountain takes off, it soars.

Ennis and Jack drift into their separate lives, each caught in a fractured marriage with children, but they reunite over the years, going on fishing trips where no fishing gets done, sharing, however fleetingly, the connection they can barely speak of. They're products — victims — of a closeted culture, yet secrecy and repression work on them in a special way. They're men who have fallen in love without quite realizing that's what's happened to them, and the glory of Brokeback Mountain is that in tracing their fates, treating their passion as something unprecedented — a force so powerful it can scarcely be named — the movie makes love seem as ineffable as it really is.

Jack, a shade more comfortable with his nature, talks of getting a ranch together, but Ennis will have none of it: Stung by childhood memories of a rancher who lived with a man and got bashed for it, he fears — he knows — that exposure could kill them. In the classic Westerns, the cowboys were often men of few words, but Heath Ledger speaks in tones so low and gruff and raspy his words just about scrape ground, and he doesn't string a whole lot of those words together. Ennis' inexpressiveness is truly ...inexpressive, yet ironically eloquent for that very reason, as tiny glimmers of soul escape his rigid facade. Ennis says nothing he doesn't mean; he's incapable of guile, yet he erupts in tantrums — the anger of a man who can't be what he is and doesn't realize the quandary is eating him alive. Ledger, with beady eyes and pursed lips, gives a performance of extraordinary, gnarled tenderness. Gyllenhaal is touching in a different way, his puppy eyes widening with hope, then turning inward and forlorn.

As the movie goes on, Ennis, penniless and alone, becomes a shard of a man, nurturing a lost dream. Brokeback Mountain has a luscious doomed tenor that, at times, makes it feel like Edith Wharton with Stetsons. It's far from being a message movie, yet if you tear up in the magnificent final scene, with its haunting slow waltz of comfort and regret, it's worth noting what, exactly, you're reacting to: a love that has been made to knuckle under to society's design. In an age when the fight over gay marriage still rages, Brokeback Mountain, the tale of two men who are scarcely even allowed to imagine being together, asks, through the very purity with which it touches us: When it comes to love, what sort of world do we really want?

Expectations... BIG Expectations

Another Political Science Quiz Bowl... hmm, I wonder if God will perform the same miracle He did for me last year.. yes, I'm the other half of the Quiz Bowl champions last year, with Paul Avecilla as my partner. This time, I don't have Paul beside me, but I believe Herbert Ikan can do something so we wouldn't look like fools tis coming Wednesday, February 15.

Last year, when I joined in the Quiz Bowl, I was just there to have some fun and challenge myself with the questions they'll be asking. I wasn't expecting to win. I did not bother to review at all. I put no pressure on myself. Fortunately, we did it. We emerged as champions in that quiz bowl, me and paul.

But the upcoming quiz bowl stresses me out. I can sense something from other people again\ - expectations. What if I lost the title? I'll be such a big disappointment to them. They'll think I just got lucky the last time. They'll think it was really Paul who worked hard to make our tandem the champions. They'll think that way and I don't want to tire myself out by explaining. I feel like if I lose in this quiz bee, I also lose the crown and if I simply will not join, then I'll get to keep my glory. But I realized, that was a defeatist attitude, a very cowardly act. Maybe I'm just paranoid. People's big expectaions are bringing me the paranoia.

Just do what you have to do. Get there and kick people's asses. If you failed to keep the crown, malapit lang ang Recto, pagawa ka na lang ulet ng para sayo. hahaha! Yeah! I think I need to get back to my old self again... not thinking too much of what others have to say, no worries about expectations, having the ability to laugh at my foolishness. I just wish God will be there to take away the pressures and to support me.

Atchara was right, I don't need any other people to act as my star. I already have one.

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Sometimes, I Write, in Solitude



All days are ordinary. My life is already made up of series of routines. Eat, sleep, bleed.

Sometimes, you would call. It still amazed me to see colors turn lively, far from the usual sickly pale during ordinary days where you choose to deprive me of a need. Your voice.

Sometimes, you will let me see you. You would prove to me for awhile that you are not a mere imagination, or a product of my mind whose specialty is creating perfect illusions. But then you'll disappear again. And I will go back to my other belief that you're really just an illusion, made to play tricks on my mind. Sometimes, the latter belief seems more believable.

Sometimes, you'll hold me. Sometimes I like it, at other times, I don't. I like it because I feel a different kind of warmth, the kind of warmth that makes me want to sleep and never to wake up again. Just like heaven. I don't like it because I long for it too badly when it's already gone. The painful kind of longing, like being undressed in a cold winter night.

Sometimes, I die. Because waiting is a form of suicide. Although you never promised to go back, you never told me about being us together, I still hoped and waited. You never promise nor tell anything, because you never had plans that involve me. I wish you knew that you shaped my every plans. I have no plans for myself, I only have plans for you, or for both of us. When you chose to ran away, my dreams in life have ran away with you. Now I'm dead.

Sometimes, I breathe again. Thanks to the memories you've left. They were the ones that keep me alive. Your memories revive me. Because in those memories, there were only us in the picture. It reminds me that true love doesn't always have a happy ending, because true love can be tragic, can be so miserable. Simply because true love doesn't have an ending. It's a happiness/sadness cycle.