mama's arrival and vida's birthday

My mama arrived today from Saudi, so our house was jampacked with people, mostly relatives, who were more interested with the pasalubongs rather than with the actual presence of their balikbayan family member. I received new shoes... and a chicken siopao.. haha! and clothes. I just found out that my mom is a fanatic of channel 2's Search for a Star singing contest.. wala lang, I just wanted to share.

birthday nga rin pala ni Vida ngaun! Happy Birthday Vida!

Anyweiz, I have only 3 things to do for the finals, namely read, write and memorize. But I think I don't have sufficient time to do these 3 things, mainly because what I'll be reading includes, uhmm, wait, 2 chapters of a book, 4 chapters of another book, the revised penal code and countless photocopied reading materials; what I'll be writing includes summaries of all what I've read (not just for review purposes, for I need to pass 'em all), my research proposal (I don't know if I'd still be including Cid as a group member because obviously it was I who is doing ALL the necessary work) and my privilege speech; what I'll be memorizing includes a speech for my speech class, the privilege speech for my parlprac class and all the notes jotted down for my written exams on major subjects. haaayy... iniisip ko pa lang, napapagod nako.

[birthdays of 4A's]

Medyo nagtatampo ako ngayon sa 4A.. wala kasing nagpaparamdam, knowing that September has a lot of birthday celebrants. It's not about the foods and the inuman, it's about the togetherness and the kwentuhan pag nagkasama-sama na. Maybe that's one of the reasons why I didn't hesitate to agree to my mom's proposal of not to celebrate anymore my birthday by throwing a party but simply let it pass and go to my cousin's fiesta celeb and my nephew's christening on the next day, October 2. I'm sorry guys, I'm really sorry but I think the bond is getting weaker. I hated to say that, but I think college life had either made others forgetful or it offered them a happier moments and memories than that of our highscool life, so maybe, in their minds, why bother to go back? and it's really saddening because I was one of those who are trying to call people who are just not there anymore. Truthfully, this post is miles away from being negative, although it may sound like one. So busy with studies? I can't help but smile bitterly when I remember those letters containing these words: "just call me and I'll be there...".. those words are now already lost in oblivion.

That was dramatic. Oh, I'm such a drama queen. Where's my tiara?

Political Science 2005 General Assembly

After depriving myself a great deal of sleeping hours yesterday and exposing myself to the cold rain, I didn't feel well when I woke up this morning. My head and body are aching like hell. To sum up in 3 words, I am sick. But I knew I couldn't afford to miss this year's Political Science General Assembly and the mock job interview on my TechWrite class, so I gathered myself up at about 12 noon (the G.A was supposed to start at that time too.. hehe) and readied my wardrobe (while everybody else was wearing some kickass outfits, racquel was in her P.E uniform.. hehe) for the interview.

I arrived late (what's new?). I arrived at 4:00 PM, but somebody told me that they weren't that punctual also because they've only managed to start at around 2:30. When I got there, the last game was just ending (i missed the fun part, right?). What I've witnessed are the performances of the talented polsci students that includes the rock chic Nesrin who rocked with Ma'am Gemzon, a couple of guys who sang an originally composed song of their band and a girl quartet who sang an acapella version of torete. While the performances were on-going, I was taking pictures of the P1 class while they were goofing around. I did enjoy today's event even though I feel sick.

The mock interview was postponed, thanks to Dwight and Czar who talked it out with Mr. Villanueva.

Well, here's a few shots: To view more photos, go to my gallery section, thanks.





penshoppe.. anybody?

Yeah, I did mention something like "no name bashing at all", I just can't help this one thing!! it's just so puzzling and funny and scary, all at the same time. read on...

meet ms. penshoppe, she's a classmate of mine. she said she owns panties similar to those penshoppe panties, but they weren't from penshoppe though, she said, because her panties came from abroad, because they are rich, so rich. anyweiz, maybe there's just a need for her to emphasize that there were resemblances with her panties and penshoppe panties. that, I can take for granted.

but... look at her friendster photos, you'll find there photos captioned with "I am in penshoppe"... in addition to that, she's always mentioning about "penshoppe"

mann!! why is she so fascinated with penshoppe? I just don't get it!! oh my.. I'm really starting to believe that she already has a few loose screws. i wanted to laugh about it, only to realize in the end that it wasn't funny at all, but scary... real scary.

hey karma, ang bilis mo na ah! pati ba ikaw, computerized na rin?

sick in the stomach...

[ o n e ]
this day is sooo tiring, not physically though, because I've always believed that you can always just rest and get some sleep after you've done physically challenging jobs. I feel wasted, because of the dramas some people are bringing into my life. I've always believe that I'm somehow a happy person, having an imagination that is not self-limiting. But people, and dealing with them, can take all your energy from you because you've always got to understand them, and at the same time, keep your sanity, try not to lose it even if it feels like it's already getting out of your hand. what I've realized from my 18 years of living is that most people, no matter how much they try to say and show that they love you or no matter how much they love you in reality, the love for their selves is always greater than the kind of love they could offer to anybody. And I think it's unfair.... so unfair. It's always about self-preservation, survivability over goodwill. "me first" and the "give me more" mentality.

I'm beginning to believe an idea stated before by a blogger like me that I've read somewhere in the past, that only a very few number of people in this world is still worth loving. You know what I'll wish on the first star that will appear tomorrow on the night skies? I'll wish that before my life becomes life no more, I've already managed to have shared a love that is self-less and unconditional.

[ t w o ]
We'll be having our debate on our ParlPrac class this coming Friday, and I was appointed secretary to the presiding officer, who happened to be Czar. I'm a bit nervous about it because I was the one who provided the class the set of by-laws that must be observed and exercised in the debate. Lord, can u make this debate a success for me, please? thank u.

[ t h r e e ]
van, I told myself before that I wouldn't waste another minute of my precious time trying to write something about you here on my blog. Yes, I consider being involved in a cold war against you already a sickening situation... sickening and tiring. You will never hear a thing from me again... You failed to make me witness your good side, maybe simply because it's non-existing. I'm sorry but I'm already one of those so many people around you who've already chosen to see through you, as if you're not there at all. You are now... invisible in my eyes. How pitiful.

P.S.
Please try to keep Kristin, she's the only one left who can tolerate your appalling uniqueness. I just wish she's at least trying to change you... and also your other friend whose pretentious kindness towards me I so greatly admire - flawless and discreet. Did I just say discreet? Oh... I didn't mean to.

[ f o u r ]
promise, no name bashing anymore in the coming entries.

"what makes you unique?"

[ tsk tsk ]
ahhh.. the latest poem sucks, I know!! just felt like going a bit mushy last night, didn't know the result would be that bad.. haha!! anyweiz, I wonder why my friendster blog refuses to open.. hmm. maybe because I've posted there something like this: "blogger is much better than friendster blogs..." HAHA!

[ kim, kim, kim ]
ate kim!! thanks for the free meal ulet!! don't worry about josh, I'm not really that into him.. nyehehehe!! just kidding!

[ yipee!! ]
We did our impromptu speech today in our speech 2 class, and though I felt like I've been through hell standing in front of the class for two minutes finding words that would best tell my ideas about the topic given exclusively for me, "what makes you unique?", I should say that I really enjoyed the experience. Just as not to let the precious seconds pass by without me telling a thing, a factor not beneficial on my grade, I tried to focus, and mann was it hard!! I felt like I suddenly forgot all of the words and I couldn't form even just a single sentence. But after bluffing a few greetings and two sentences without substance, I began to say something nice and good. What happened next had been graded 94. I should say that that grade was already satisfying knowing that the highest is 96. I want to thank God for the flow of ideas, He did not fail to guide me once again.

[ whooo-hoo!! ]
While doing a seatwork in our Intro to Law class, someone announced that the winner of this year's UAAP cheering competition, according to text message, was National University (N.U) and Adamson got the 2nd, FEU, 3rd. Of course, we were doubtful about it, considering it just one freakin' joke that wasn't funny at all (or was it?). We were right, it was indeed just a joke because the winners are as follows: 1st - UST, 2nd - UP, 3rd - FEU. WHoa.. another year on the third spot! I'm thankful to God for letting us bag the third place but let us not stop there, fellow tamaraws! Let's get the crown from UST next year!!!

[ september 17 is... ]
ROBERTO MACATONGTONG JR.'s Birthday!! Happy birthday Hero!! Wish ko sana you'll gain some weight.. haha!! and lovelife of course...

[ speaking of lovelife ]

tsk, there are rumors that the new-found love of my life is GAY!! what the fu*ck was that!? minsan na nga lang akong makadama nang ganitong pakiramdam.. tapos ganon pa. Pero I refuse to believe the rumors.. kasi I really like him. I just wish that he could lessen all those constant starings on me during class hours, hindi kasi ako sanay. I hate the feeling of being conscious about my looks! Kailangan ko tuloy ayusin ang sarili ko every now and then.. Haha! weird, he's making me feel like there was something in me that is worth staring at... well, I'm still on the process of figuring out what it is about me that he liked.

I'm not assuming, I'm just being positive. *winks*
I've seen it coming
so I've put on my helmet
a sword on my one hand
a shield on the other

It's already here
and though equipped,
I've been unable to fight it
my knees got weak...

I hate the feeling
of being defeated
by love once again,
not until you stretched out your hand...

our stares met somewhere in between
then I tried to consider your offer,
love and affection -
I reconsidered and considered again.

When I look up
to finally grab the gift
of my dream knight in shining armor,
he's already far from me.

beside him, is the girl
who didn't bother to consider,
reconsider and consider again
about the love and affection he offered.

This,
is a battle
not well fought.

about pinoy big brother



Big Brother Philippines Facts

The house was built in the country's largest city, Quezon City, at a cost of around 18 million pesos (£180,000) and features two living rooms, a garden and swimming pool.

Around 35,000 hopefuls had applied to be on the show. "It was not people with good looks, gorgeous bodies, or fantastic talents that we were looking for," said director Laurenti Dyogi of the selection process. "It was people with very interesting and expressive personalities-and the more unique, the better. For as long as they can pass a series of tests that would show that they have no violent and suicidal tendencies, we were willing to consider them to be in the final 12. And that's regardless of their profession, educational background and religion."

The winner will take home one million pesos (£10,000), a new house and a brand new Nissan Frontier Titanium 3.

[ My Opinion: called for, so don't argue ]

Pinoy Big Brother is the latest craze today on Philippine television, I guess. I've been able to watch a few number of episodes, and really, I'm entertained. But let me ask you one question, are you really interested in those lame challenges that Pinoy Big Brother is asking the housemaids to do? C'mon, let's just be true to ourselves here, No is your answer. How come that suddenly, we've become too curious of those people who probably we've already rub shoulders with in the past, the time when they're not on TV and we don't give a damn? Is it because there's a need for us to be on top of everybody else's business? Or is it because there's this longing inside us for the same fifteen minute of fame they're all experiencing now? We want to know what's happening to the housemaids as they put on their show and sell us the tasteless dramas we're all craving for.

I cannot blame you if you'll be fired up in disgust as an avid fan of PBB once you've read this, but I think the show is sooo pointless. Pointless because it is heartless. Heartless because it feels like we're being fed a piece of human misery, and not know it consciously, because we're so preoccupied with the kind of enjoyment that is selfish and inconsiderate.

how sad, it makes you happy.

sleepful... ?? nyahaha!!

ahh.. nakakatamad talaga gumawa ng kahit ano pag umuulan. tulad ngayon, natulog lang ako maghapon. kung di pa tumawag si dave, siguro, mas mahaba-haba pa ang naging pag-stay ko sa dreamland. tagal ko na rin palang di nakapag-update.. hmm.. kasi naman, wala akong maisip ilagay na kwento, kahit marami namang nangyayari sa buhay ko.. ayun, tinatamad lang pala talaga akong magkwento. pero ngayon, o cge na nga, magkukuwento na ko.. nyehehe.

Before I proceed to my storytelling, I would like to show off first some of the photos taken with the P1 class, so go now to the kel's photos section of this site located at the left side..

Updates:

I haven't attended the fumigation project last Sunday, so I wasn't surprise when Ma'am Gemzon kinda like snobbed me when Monday came and I needed to see her for me to be able to take my midterm exam on Intro to Law. But I guess the disappointment was short term when came Wednesday and she greeted me with a smile... and news that I need to work on a new logo because our club is not anymore Rotaract Club of FEU but is now ROTARACT club of Sampaloc, community based instead of school-based. Funny thing is, I still feel elated whenever somebody entrusts me to do something like that. I feel that my modicum amount of talent is being appreciated. Thanks for your trust, I promise to always give my best.

Oh, I'm also planning to submit a design proposal for the PolSci shirt. I hope they'll at least take a look at it... kahit hindi na mapili. hehe.

[ currently... ]

I'm reviewing the latest album of Toni Braxton, "Libra". Consists only of 10 tracks, the first single is already out now but is not being played on Philippine radios..hhmm, I wonder why.. not a hit? No. "Please", the first single released, have been able to fill a spot in the Billboard 100... sayang, I really like that track pa naman, kasi may rhytmn and beat that only Toni Braxton can deliver.

[ emotions ]

You're still occupying a piece of my mind and a part in my heart, nakakainis ka!! sisingilin na kita!! When will you tell me that you're planning to stay for good, and that I somehow occupy a piece of your mind and a part in your heart? willing naman akong magbayad kung sakaling sisingilin mo ako... and I'm not talking about money. Ang corny ko na... ikaw kasi eh.

will blog, will blog...

thanks to kuya mark, I will now write something about Sunday's alay-lakad from PICC to Quirino grand stand. I will present it in some sort of a timeline:

9:00 - 10:30 PM, Saturday

got home from school, eaten dinner, took a bath, prepared things, talked with some family members.

11:00 PM

arrived at Leo's place, watched TV for awhile, discussed with Gwen, Leo and Kim where we'll be going because gwen is gustong gumala.. hehe.. ei gwen, thanks again for everything.. will never forget you... *sniff, sniff* huhuhu..

12 - 3:30 AM, Sunday

Boysie's Bar, watched naughty things, admired someone who happened to be uhmm..never mind.., danced for awhile, sipped mango shake, changed black shirt to clue shirt

4:00 AM - 6:00 AM

in front of Aliw Theatre, waited for the VIP's to arrive, a few showed up, many got lost (note: aliw theatre daw ang meeting place, at EXACTLY 4AM daw), hurried to go to our line

6:00 - 9:00 AM

walked from PICC to Quirino Grand Stand, talked to friends to help endure the long walk, observed, listened, then talked again. when we reached the final destination, sat at some rock to rest the aching legs and feet.

9:00 - 10:00 AM

mark, I and dave agreed to eat somewhere, found greenwich, ate there. talked about a lot of things...

10:00 AM - 5:00 PM

after we ate, we've decided to go malling, picked SM Megamall then watched an Indian film titled "Evil Eyes", a movie that has the same plot as that of "the eye" from Japan... or korea, I really don't know. moving on, we also window shopped, drooled over magazines with Angelina Jolie on its front covers, walked again (alay lakad part 2), went to Shang, walked again to hunt down a cozy place where foods are offered cheap (sadly, there were none), found a chair where we rest our exhausted feet, legs, mind and mouth... ahhh, serenity at last...

5:00 - 6:00 PM

we parted ways, I waited for the rain to subside even just a lttle coz I don't have an umbrella with me and I don't wanna go home wet. rain subsided, so I ran to reach the jeep terminal from crossing to guadalupe

6:30 PM

got home, didn't feel like eating so I went straight to bed.

2:00 PM, Monday

finally, racquel woke up... coz guianne called.

the end.

trashtalk on trashes

trashtalk on trashes

I know, I find imperfections and weaknesses on my old friends, because there are indeed, because imperfection exists. But if I'm going to compare them to the bunch of pretenders that I've managed to meet in college, too confident about themselves though in reality, living a miserable life, my old friends would undeniably stand-out, inspite of them having achiless' heels.

OO, kilala ko na kayo, nakita ko na ang mga totoong kulay nyo. May kinang kayo sa kaanyuang panlabas lamang, pero ang parte ng pagkatao nyo na kayang itago, nabubulok, namamaho. Kayo-kayo, nagsasaksakan habang nakatalikod ang isa, naghahanap ng lalaitin dahil mga Diyos kayong walang dungis - isang maling akala. Pinagtatawanan nyo ang may kaunting dumi sa mukha, habang kayo, may mga malalang sakit na nakakahawa - insecurities na kinakain kayo nang buhay.

It's such a pity, you were blessed with beautiful faces, only to arm it with an attitude that will not bring you somewhere good. I wish you could stop with all those backstabbing and pin-pointing of other people's faults and instead, decide to clean up first your own messes.
well, too much poems already. sorry, been busy. had to deal with the daily hazards of studies. need to keep up with the "competition".. hehe.

anyweiz, I'm currently watching the current number 1 movie in US, the "the 40 year old virgin". you should see it... ahh!! kelly clarkson!! wahaha! bleh, you can only laugh with me after you see the movie.

okei.. i believe my extracurriculars are going to take up so much of my time in the coming days, like the alay lakad and our fumigation project, so I guess I still don't have the time to clean my room.. grabe, sobrang naaawa na ako sa itsura at kalagayan ng room ko.. it honestly looks like little payatas right now, so please don't visit me anytime soon.

speaking of alay lakad, i wanna thank my fellow 4A buddies KIM, GWEN and DAX for doing me a great favor of getting up early or not sleeping anymore just to go with me and the rest of the members and officers of FEU Rotaract club in the alay lakad that will take place this coming sunday morning, 4am to be more specific, from PICC to Quirino Grandstand. thank you guys! thank you so much!

hmm.. expect more poems to be posted here in the coming days.. some people just can't refrain from fueling me with inspiration.. lolz.

have a great weekend ahead! or... have a great head this weekend.. peace out!

tell it to the whole wide world!

you can tell all the lies
all the lies
you've woven so well...
lies you thought
are flawless.

a crowd claps.
bravo, bravo, they say.

i applaud your being persistent
in dragging me down to your level,
keep trying,
so I'll keep on laughing,
at a free comedy marathon.

audience was astonished.
such a great performance from their favorite clown.

i never even thought
you've chosen acting
as your hobby.
a blockbuster
a two thumbs up play,
titled
"the pathetic pretender"

congratulations,
your award is a trip to hell.

for you, DO!

why did you even bother to begin
when suddenly,
you'll just stop
dropped me
like I wasn't capable
of breaking
taken for granted
like I was
that tough

instead of just
listening to you heart,
you judged,
i thought
you are different
thanks for showing
that you have a streak
of an ordinary
boy...

ordinary means
nothing really special.

hurray for red-eye!

been waiting for this... a real good movie at last.

Usually, critic's and moviegoer's reviews on one movie vary, the former saying a flick sucks while the latter showing two thumbs up, or vice versa. Well, seems like RED EYE managed to gather rave reviews from both, giving average ratings of B and B*

I don't know if the movie is already showing on Philippine movie houses, but I strongly recommend that if it is or it will be, spend some of your hard earned dough on it by going to a theatre instead of grabbing a DVD copy in Quiapo or elsewhere, because it's really worth your time and money.