good wednesday...

just wanna share this funny photo taken last june 26, Julianna's 1st birthday:


franz, rakel, jean and some obnoxious guy at the back.. kidding. hehe

grrr.. damn! on my way home from school, I've decided to stop-by at BookSale (Taft branch) just to look and see if there are some on sale, low priced books that are somehow related to what I'm studying right now. Upon entering, the first thing that caught my sight were the paperback novels or pocketbooks that are neatly placed upward so as to show that they are new arrivals with titles worth buying. You know what? I just saw 6 titles by Mary Higgins Clark and 4 titles by Agatha Christie! Magkakatabi at magkakasunod pa! The only money left in my wallet is 60 pesos, and I still need to secure the 10 pesos out of that 60 pesos for my jeepney fare. Agatha Christie's novels have the lower price of 60 while CLark's ranges from 70 - 95 pesos. I went out of that store feeling sorry for myself because those are the titles I've been planning to collect ever since I became addicted to Christie and Clark. I just wished that by Friday, at least two titles will left unsold for me to take home and read.

I've enjoyed this day, the good times were brought by the unexpected people. I think I need not to drop off their names here anymore since I've already thanked them personally for the things they've done for me. Y'know what? I think it'll be already hard for me to choose between P1 and P2 as my section for next sem, especially now that I've managed to make friends with some of the P1 people. Haayy.. sabagay, malayo pa naman yung enrolment for next sem, marami pang mangyayari.

If you wanted to be updated on the current political issues here in the Philippines, I recommend visiting this site: houseonahill.net, the sassy lawyer's journals where there are good commentaries on the different political issues of today. (Uhmm, this is not some sort of advertisement, isn't it? I hope so.. hehe)

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story of a badly beaten president

Thanks Bobbie, for the reminder for me to update.

Lately, I've been running out of good things to share here...

As a political science student, I'm very much careful of what I say when asked about my political views and opinions on current events, especially on Philippine setting. So I was really disgusted of people who speak of their opinions as if it's already a known proved fact or the whole, stripped to the bone truth. What upsets me more is the manner they present it to us, as if we can not rebutt their damn fabricated "truth" at all, that counter-atack would be oh so useless because of how highly they think of themselves as the most credible intellectuals that they already knew the truth even before the real truth comes out. These are not wise people, not even knowledgeable ones, these are people who have plentiful shit inside their mouth who are willing to spit those shit right on to your face and make you believe it's the most wonderful thing on earth... like the truth. The truth you've created within the faculty of your own mind is not necessarily the real truth of the matter.

Really, if you're considered not to be a professional on a thing, don't act as if you're already a professional on that thing. Or at least have the professionalism to tell things. If you have an opinion, state it as an opinion and don't misled weak and vulnerable minds of some people.

[ ok tapos na yan.. let's MOVE ON... ]

I have received more than my required daily allowance of politics yesterday in our class. People can't stop talking about Gloria Arroyo that instead of trying to begin with that we're supposed to tackle in our International Relations, we've just had stories from past and conclusions from the present, useless debates. See? That's what happening right now. We can't move on in transacting businesses with far more great deal of importance because we're wasting too much time talking about useless exposes and trying to hear everybody's side. Seems like everybody's got something to say, how about someone who has got something to do? Geez, how pathetic these people are.

[ thankful ]

I wanna thank some people for the little but deeply appreciated things I've received yesterday:

1. Kristin for the candy
2. Vhan for the Kit Kat
3. Rhiane for letting me borrow her GelPen
4. Karl for the Mango Shake
5. Paul for the candies (ulet)
6. Abi for letting me borrow her Civil Code of the Phil.

That's it.

bad day...

this is such bad day for me... a bad day indeed.

well, except for the good grade I received from Ms. Cadiz for my drawing in our speech class, everything that happened today is, if not miserable, really bad.

I forgot about our assignment on Technical Writing, so almost an hour off my break was spent in front of the PC, what was left wasn't enough for me to review articles 1-36 of the civil code so I just went straight to the room for our Intro to law class after I've managed to have my assignment printed, closed my eyes and prayed. I guess prayers aren't really enough because I almost fell out of my seat after seeing the questions for the exam. Geez, should I continue to tell you about it? Maybe I shouldn't anymore... tapos na yun, bawi na lang ulet next time.

Next on the list is the freakin' rain! Suddenly, AB building became an island! An island surrounded by flood! I had no choice but to walk through that horrendous flood and let my foot experience the unknown tiny objects entering my shoes. I could even feel movements of some unknown organisms enjoying moisture under my feet! Yuck! Hahaha! Weird din! Eto pa, I didn't bring with me an umbrella, so I'm soo soaked up! (haha! I don't wanna use the word wet, Vhan used it and it didn't sound so pleasing to the ears.. ehehehe) Ei wait up, before I rant more, I wanna thank VHAN for sharing with me her umbrella, and of course, KRISTIN for the same reason, done in a different day nga lang.

Ok, back to my rants, can you believe this? There's no public vehicle passing by in front of P. Campa anymore because of the flood! Can you just imagine the pain I've been through, together with the other students? I'm so tired already I've even prayed for a rescue team to arrive, courtesy of the Manila city government or some other non-profit organizations.. hehe.. I don't wanna lose my cool because of the bad things that took place.. haayy nako.

oo nga pala, nasira rin ung bag ko... oo, habang naglalakad sa baha! hahaha! sobrang ang gago ng araw nato, hindi ko na nagawang magalit, nakakatawa na kasi.

conversations made out of pizza and bottomless drinks...

[ conversations made out of pizza and bottomless drinks... ]

I went to Valero Plaza today to fix some documents regarding my educational plan. I was hoping that, since I finally completed collecting the required papers they asked me to bring to their office, I could already get the check I needed to pay my tuition fees. But yeah, they said my mother still needs to sign this and that and I may not be able to encash the damn check because it was my mother's name which was imprinted on that thing.. so, ayun, wala rin kaming napala ni Kim.

I asked Kim to accompany me there because I've only been there once. Of course, we can't just go home and call it a day for us since my agenda only lasted for a couple of minutes. He's starving and although I'm not, we agreed to go to Greenbelt to feed ourselves. Undecided on where to spend our money on to buy foods, we tired our legs out first to look for that perfect place to satisfy our hunger. Tokyo Tokyo seemed not a good choice so we end up eating at Shakey's. I think we've spent an hour or so in that place, if I'm not mistaken. No, we did not plan to have our glasses refilled endlessly by pretending to be slow pizza-eaters (we've just thought about that slightly, I swear!), we stayed that long because we've talked about a lot of things, mostly my stories because Kim is one of the few people who can tolerate my burdensome stories.. hehe. I want to thank Kim for the time used up in accompanying me to Provident Plans office and another big thanks for the delicious pizza and bottomless iced tea that filled up my tummy. thanks kim.. sa uulitin.. hehe. see yah tomorrow!

[ confidence is courage at ease ]

I'm starting to believe now that I am somewhat an attractive being. hahaha! Right now, I feel being so appreciated. Somehow, the thought made me gain some confidence - the thing I believe I'm lacking of. I feel ashamed to admit this, but yea, it's true, I lack self-confidence. I'm not the kind of person who can stand up in front of the class and speak as spontanenously as others do. The thought of committing a mistake petrifies me. I'm also afraid that they might think I'm pasikat or something like that. I hate being judged. I think people are not confident enough because they hate being judged. I guess being not confident enough also tantamounts to not having enough courage. Example is a poor man; he is afraid to go to a fine restaurant which has a snob effect on people even if he only wants to look around or check out the goods being sold there. He fears to be judged in case he did something stupid. I was like that before. Now, I think I'm improving. If you think you are like the old me, someone who is not confident enough, just remember these words of wisdom:

If you think you are beaten, you are; If you think that you dare not, you don't; If you'd like to win and you think you can't, It's almost certain that you won't. If you think you'll lose, you've lost; For out in the world you'll find Success begins with a fellows will- It's all in the state of mind. If you think that you are out-classed, you are; You've got to think high to rise; You've got to be sure of yourself before You can ever win a prize. Life's battles don't always go To the stronger or faster man; But sooner or later the man who wins Is the man who thinks he can. - Author Unknown

hello and goodbye...

Dan's Request: Angels - Jessica Simpson

[ Angels ]

I'm so blessed. I know I've never ever felt miserable because of love. I can be sad, I can be bitter, in an indefinite period of time, but I was never miserable. I may feel left-out but I know I've never been abandoned by anyone I fell for. The thought of being single since birth can really be depressing at times, but the realization that at the very least, I believe, that I'm one of those few who really know how to love compensated for that depressing thought. I want to thank that Being who allowed me to meet all those wonderful persons I fell for... angels who keep on inspiring me to do my best in everything that I do in life.

I haven't said this sentence to anyone of you, because I didn't have enough courage to.. but since I didn't name names here, I might as well shout it out to the whole wide web.... I LOVE YOU!!!! =D

[ New Bag from Market! Market! ]

After tiring my legs out walking endlessly to and from the different shops in Market! Market! at the Fort, I finally found the perfect bag for me!! Haha! It costs 430php... which I already considered to be EXPENSIVE since it wasn't a signature brand ( get 1020 is the bag's brand.. probably from China ]. It is dark green and has a funky lock or something with it. Did you know that I'm a sucker for bags? I want more bags!!

[ A Song Still Worth Listening To ]

If I could reach the stars I'd pull one down for you
Shine it on my heart so you could see the truth
That this love I have inside is everything it seems
But for now I find it's only in my dreams

CHORUS:
That I can change the world
I would be the sunlight in your universe
You will think my love was really something good
Baby if I could change the world

If I could be king even for a day
I'd take you as my queen I'd have it no other way
And our love will rule in this kingdom we have made
Till then I'd be a fool wishin' for the day

CHORUS:
That I can change the world
I would be the sunlight in your universe
You will think my love was really something good
Baby if I could change the world
Baby if I could change the world

- Change the World by Eric Clapton


[ this entry has been edited on July 29, 2005 ]

gloriagate scandal

the wiretapped coversations.

I've already completed the download of the gloriagate scandal. ANG HABA PALA! 3 HOURS????!! bad news, guys, it was really gloria macapagal arroyo's voice there. well, the file is too large to share so you just have to satisfy yourself with the PDF copy and read what's you're supposed to listen to. hehe.. :)

Right Click here and Save Target As..


the gloriagate scandal, bow.


a badly beaten president

I don't care if President Gloria Macapagal Arroyo had really cheated. If I'm the one who was in her place during the election, I would actually do the same thing. I will cheat, yes, I will cheat, but not because I want power for myself, but because I know for a fact that majority of the Filipinos will do the the most ridiculous thing of voting FPJ for president. I will use cheating to safeguard and secure the next six years of my country. I will cheat so that I can make positive changes in the government. I will fool the people, I will lie to them and I will be willing to pay ANY amount just to prevent FPJ from acquiring the highest position in the Philippine government. But all of these, I will do in silence. Scheme and plot for the common good... haha! I wrote this as a joke, but I'm beginning to feel that it's not like that anymore. You can call me stupid, birdbrain or kupal (hehe.. wag naman) but that's my OPINION and I guess everybody is entitled to give some.

But again, my opinions were based on the pressumption that PGMA is a good president only willing to do bad things for the just, right and good reasons.

And I've just heard that Erap is offering himself to replace PGMA if ever she'll be ousted... the mere imaginations in my head are already scaring the hell out of me, what if it's already a reality? Renounce my citizenship and go to the mountains of Timbuktu? I know that it's not impossible for him to be president again... why? remember the record-breaking landslide victory with 11 million plus votes? He's the man who got that, right?

Really, I'm tired of all these efforts to destabilize the government. Please people, please, get enough education for yourself so you can't be easily brainwashed or misinformed. If you want the truth, there's no shortcut to get there.

I'm in no way a pro-GMA, an anti-ERAP nor an anti-FPJ. I know there's a better leader than PGMA but she's the best who's already there, so why not just be civilized enough to support not her but the government she's running?

Ooops... I forgot my readers are just of my own age.. hehe.. =D I can imagine now how some people will react to this post... "politics again, racquel? boring. i think I'll answer that less boring survey in friendster,.. geez racquel, politics again..."

yeah bobbie.. I'm soo busy right now. so busy, can't even afford to use my breaktime to go out and eat. huhuhu.. oras ng pag-kain ko, napupunta pa sa pagbabasa.. last tuesday nga eh, 10am ako kumain sa bahay, then off to school na, ung 3-4:30 kong breaktime, I've spent entirely reading and writing something in the library.. 7:30pm, uwian na, while on the road, I felt so weak, tapos nanginginig na yung kamay ko.. grabe.. pahirap talaga yang pag-aaral na yan.. hehe.

well, I have no choice but to read and study, because I can feel their presence again - people who are expecting something from me. But it's ok, it's just one proof that somehow, I have the capability to actually play the game well... hehe. good luck na lang sakin.

Buti na lang, somehow, I'm inspired to do good in my studies. Sana, wag mawala ang aking mga inspirasyon sa buhay - Thanks and I hope you'll forever stay.. naks, andrama ko na naman. hoy rakel, tama na yang kakornihan mo't mag-search ka na ng ire-report nyo sa Speech2 class nyo, ituloy mo na ang pagbabasa ng civil code of the phil, at basahin mo na ang hiniram na libro ni Karl para sayo. OO nga pala, thanks kay Karl for the book he recommended me to read para sa Political Theories subject ko. Ang bait talaga ng mga guys ng P2. Thanks talaga.

Pinuyat ako ni Blanche kagabi sa phone.. 3AM na kami nakapag-hang up. Ang daldal kasi eh.. daming kwento about his suitors.. hehe. pero ok lang , nakaka-tanggal ng stress ung mga patawa nya.

no title again...

YOU AND ME and UNTITLED @ sendmefile.com [up for 14 days only!]
Go to this pages:
You and Me - Lifehouse
Untitled - Simple Plan
password: rakelrules

Sorry guys but I've already deleted these mp3 files:
Avril Lavigne's Fall to Pieces
Incomplete by the BSB
Bamboo's Hallelujah

Just bought a new notebook! I liked it coz it's green... but what I loved about it is the quote printed on the cover about music:

music is the fiercest grief can charm,
And fate's severest rage disarm;
music can soften pain to ease,
And make despair and madness please.
- Beethoven

hahaha! nakakatawa naman toh! the same old question! "rakel, guy ka ba or girl?".. dati, mejo naiirita pa ko kasi RACQUEL nga d ba? may RACQUEL bang GUY? pero nung nagtagal naman, nasanay nako.. what can I do? e muka talaga siguro kong lalake... hahaha!! to nechi: BABAE PO AKO. =D

[ from ripway to sendmefile ]

I wanna keep on giving you the MP3s you want, but I think other people are abusing my kindness and generosity.. ehem. I think other sites are linking to my files!! those Leeches!!. Today, I checked my bandwidth usage and record shows that I've already used up 17MB of bandwidth! And do you know how much bandwidth I'm only allowed to consume being a non-paying member of RIPWAY? 10 MB! Baka pagbayarin nila ko no, takot ako... hehe. so please, if you're interested in more MP3s here in my site, tell me of some sites where I could host the files for free. If you're already comfortable with sendmefile.com (can store files up to 14 days only and does not support download accelerators) then I'll use it. Haayy, yaan nyo, pagka-graduate ko, I'll buy my own domain and a lot of webspace so I could give you all the files you want! LOLZ... tagal pa nun. hehe... =D

So from now on, I'm not going to use my ripway account anymore as storage for the free stuff... sendmefile na lang.

[ about studies ]

I've got no classes every sunday and monday, pero feeling ko, kulang na kulang pa rin yung 48 oras na makukuha ko sa mga araw na un para magawa ung mga dapat kong gawin. Ay oo, hindi lang pala oras ang kapos, kundi pati pera. grabe, ang dami kong dapat bilhin na books! na kailangan kong basahin lahat! sa INTRO to LAW pa lang, isang araw lang, nasa article 4 na kami ng civil code of the phil. at hindi lang yun, sampung cases kagad ang kailangan naming basahin at gawan ng notes, facts etc. tapos may pagkahaba-habang assignment sa International Relations at Modern Political Science.. nakakapagod na, pang-apat na araw ko pa lang, sawa na ko. pede ba bakasyon na lang ulet? kasi lahat ng subjects namin next week may quiz kagad.. 4A! Help! Inuman na lang ulet! wehehe.buti na lang I won't have to go to the library at makipag-agawan sa mga law books dun that contain the 10 cases na kailangan namin sa Intro 2 law. Kasi nakahanp ako sa internet courtesy of Chan Robles Site. Thanks.

the ps0231 experience

I miss my chums in PS0232. I miss na rin my 4A friends.

I'm kinda liking sum1 AGAIN right now.. hehe. A GUY. corny. haha! kaya lang, I think he's a BOLERO. haayy nako, I should know, I'm a BOLERA myself... haha!

PS0231 - I wanted to describe them as a whole, but doing such will only show unfairness on my part. I've only spent 3 days with them, and although I did not have one enjoyable moment with them, I did not have a miserable one either, so I think I'll just have to wait before I post an entry about them containing what are they really like.

Well, one thing is for sure, I don't like SOME of the boys there. I don't like noisy BOYS, never did like. To think that they are already 18 or 19, they should already be acting like MEN. I don't care how big your brains are, I don't care if you know every single word in the dictionary, you are still nothing to me if you don't know how to respect people.

The THING that happened at a friend's house last SUNDAY made me realized quite a lot of things. I'm keeping those realizations to myself..

First Day Funk?!

More MP3 Downloads.

HAIL HALE for 14 DAYS. some HALE album tracks.

KAHIT PA

RUNAWAY

WISHING

I've hosted these files on SENDMEFILE.com and these will be hosted for just 14 DAYS so please download them ASAP. Please get rid of your download accelerators first, sendmefile.com won't allow you to use that! =D

[ First Day Report ]

OK. eto ang nagyari ngayon. pumasok ako, magugulat ka, HINDI AKO LATE! wahaha! syempre naman, 1:30PM na yun, sobra naman kung male-late pa ko. so ayun, pumasok sa isang room na dadalawa lang ang kakilala samantalang lahat sila, magkakakilala na... imagine the horror I've been through. meron pang nagtanong kung transferee daw ba ko, VAN yata pangalan nun. syempre, pinagmalaki ko na I CAME FROM THE OTHER SECTION.

[ first impression ]

it's really hard to tell the difference between p1 and p2. una, unang araw ko pa lang sa p1 so it will be unfair to both parties kung ikukumpara ko kagad. eto lang ang masasabi ko, sana hindi nila masamain - MAS MAINGAY ANG P1.. grabe. I don't know if it's something negative or positive.. saka na lang ang further details.

[ one prof, two subjects & 1 parl prac dude ]

MRS. REYES is p1's prof for two major subjects - political theories and international relations [although she's KINDA old having the age of 75 YRS OLD, i think she can still handle us well.. sana lang, walang PRO-ERAP sa p1, kasi SHE's AN ANTI. hehe, you should've listened to her stories, she just made ERAP looked more obnoxious to me.. haha! ]

MR. MANLAPAZ is our Parliamentary Practice prof, a LAWYER. Nag botohan kami sa klase nya kanina.. at syempre, nag-usap lang kami ni ELCID, ung classmate ko sa humanities dati.. buti n lang nandun sya, nakabawas ng stress. hehe. uy, GWAPO un si ELCID.. nakikita ko nga sa gilid ng mga mata ko the staring made by the p1 girls on her.. oi ELCID, gusto ko ng ponkan. =D

jenee's request...

ang weird. nauubos ung bandwidth ko na 10MB sa RIPWAY na hindi ko man lang alam kung sino na ang mga nagdownload.. kasi walang nag-THANK YOU.. oo, kahit isa! haayy.. buti n lang bait ako.

[ lagot ako ]

nakalimutan kong tawagan si Joy nang friday night para itanong kung tuloy ba ung lakad namin ngaung saturday... 3am nako dumating dito sa bahay at 5am nako natulog, kaya 12nn na rin ako gumising. tiningnan ko ung mga numbers na nakarecord sa phone namin n equipped w/ caller I.D (naks!).. nagulat ako kasi tumawag pala si Joy nang Friday night sa bahay, kaso na kina Leo naman ako.. tsk,tsk.. patay. di lang yon, tumawag din siya as early as 7:30am, 8:30am and 9:30 am ngaun.. kaso nga tulog naman ako!! waaaahhh!! JOY AND JANE!! Sorry po!! We're supposed to watch a movie kasi ngayon! Pero siguro, sinadya ng tadhana kasi wala din naman akong pera eh.. kung nakatawag man ako, yun ay para sabihin lang na next time na lang kami manood ng sine kasi nasa gitna ako ngaun ng isang krisis na pang-pinansyal. hehe.. sori po tlaga!! Bawi na lang ako.. miss you both! =D

[ my "renovated" room ]

yey! natapos ko nang ayusing muli ang aking mahal na kwarto! wehehe..

[ PASUKAN NAHHH!!! ]

I'm ready, so.... BRING IT ON!!! =D

uhmm.. sleepy..

I'm tired.. wow.. feels like my head is spinning.. uh, effect of Red Horse? or the walking I did from Guadalupe to my house just to save 20php for the tricyle fare? aaahhh!! My head is really aching and I feel like throwing up! My typing is kinda slow now..

Oh ok, I just managed to retrieve photos from the 4A yahoogroups uploaded by Rio from her digicam.. it's already 4am.. got home at 3AM already. ahh.. post ko n lang ang isa sa mga magagandang pix namin:



bukas n lang ang iba pang kwento.. antok na talaga ko.. buhbye!! =D

a date with joy and jane...

New MP3s:

We Belong Together - Mariah Carey [filesize: 1.92 MB]
Good Foot - Justin Timberlake feat. Timbaland [filesize: 2.26 MB]
Especially for You - MYMP [filesize: 2.13 MB]
Behind These Hazel Eyes - Kelly Clarkson [filesize: 1.90 MB]
Signs - Snoop Dogg feat. Justin Tmberlake [filesize: 2.44 MB]

I just wanna share some of my music files to my visitors, well there's only a few and my hosting account got bandwidth limit so download now and try your luck. Look for 'em at the sidebar.. they're just lurking there somewhere.. =D

[a date with Joy and Jane]

I phoned Joy last night at sobrang kinulit nya ko na pumunta sa school so we can have lunch together with her new friends whom I have never met before na gusto nya namang ipakilala.

So kanina, pinilit kong bumangon nang mga 9:30 AM kasi gusto nya 12nn, andun na ko. dahil alam kong hindi ako pwedeng ma-late this time kasi sandali lang ang break nya, 10:30 AM pa lang, wala nako sa bahay. Salamat at nakrating naman ako before mag-12.. 11:45 AM lang nun kaya I've decided to munch something inside 7 Eleven just to kill 15 minutes of my time. Dumating sila ni Jane sa Jollibee mga 12:15.. not bad. We ate lunch together na feeling namin ay nahold-up kami kasi ang mahal ng food tapos hindi naman masarap... well, no choice, nagmamadali na kami dahil gusto naming i-maximize ang maikli nilang breaktime.

As usual, nakakatawa na naman tong si Jane. Nagkwento about her 25 yr. old BF na sundalo. Si Joy, hindi matuloy ung kwento nya about Oscar, her current crushie, dahil laging si Jane ang dumadaldal. haha! Y'know what? I don't care how many stories they tell and how much time will it take for them to finish as long as they're with me.. sarap kasi nilang kasama. OO nga pala, kapag pinayagan si Jane, we'll be watching a movie on Saturday. Nakakainis nga lang kasi gusto kong manood ng Madagascar but Jane already saw the movie, ung House Of Wax naman, napanood na daw ni Joy, kaya yun, klangan pa naming maghanap ng movie na pareho-pareho naming di pa napapanood.

[another short story.. somethin' different, I guess...]

I've started my fourth short story last night.. I think I will make this longer than the 3 stories I've written before. Well, wish me luck on my fourth work... lots of it. =D I believe it will take me almost a month to finish it, and 1 week for the editing and further polishing... wow, I'm a writer wannabe. hahaha!

Post ko dito ung nasimulan ko pero di pa ngayon... next week cguro. =D