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An Open Letter to One Pathetic Bitch


Truthfully, this is an edited version of a blog entry from Theena's friendster blog (I don't know her personally but.. yeah, she's a ka-friendster. hehe). These are the exact words I've been wanting to tell to some fucktard (fuckin' retard) who had the nerve to stab me on the back though I've been so nice to her. Read on:

what makes ur life so perfect that u get to question mine?

between the 2 of us ,i am proud 2 say that I AM the lesser evil. You need to open ur eyes pare.. uv been hurting a lot of people unconsciously and u r puttin up a front na kawawa ka and peeps need to sympathize. Grow uP! i know wut uv been saying behind my back, "si rakel ay ganyan at ganito..." that i accept. thats fine with me, i never denied the fact that some peopLE dont like me, cant blame 'em, do i luk like a freakin people person? nah. pro wut if i spill out ur own beans, and tell everyone wut type of person u r huh? why dont we do that, lets clean each other's closet huh? I am not afraid.. and ul be surprised how much i am willing to spill... since pinocchio wud hav been embarrsed with ur fascinating lying capabilities.. haha! hmmm...tempting.

u know what i cud not take? its the fact that i was somehow nice to u. and ur aware of it. ang bait ko sayo, bigla kang naging monster. d ko lam kung ano reason..

u know wut? u brought back d old me. Ok naman tayo, bigla kang nagpalutang ng mga isyu tungkol sa'kin... naghanap ka pa ng karamay! tang-ina mo, nasira pa pagkakaibigan nila rhiane and her barkada dahil lang sa namamalimos ka ng atensyon. nanggamit ka ng mga nananahimik na tao para lang makamot mo yang nangangati mong dila! wala na akong magagawa sayo, patay na konsensya mo. Hayaan mo, Karma is doing her rounds na, baka malapit na sya sayo. I dont hav 2 roll out d red c for anyone anymore. i dont care if people wont like me. u made me numb and i am feeling fabulous about it.

remember, i WAS NICE TO U. past tense.

Underscores Mine.

hippity hip hip hop

Men are respectable only as they respect.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson (American Poet, Lecturer and Essayist, 1803-1882)

1. Watching young people talk like as if they'll be part of the same banana electorate that we have today really saddens and frustrates me. I thought our generation is different. I thought our minds are far more resistant to brainwashing and corruption. I hope my presumptions are not true...

2. I think you would agree with me if I say that a lot of young people today have bright minds and deep sense of understanding of things around him. I even chose to look up to a few of them, admiring them for having a different kind of maturity and higher level of thinking unlike most of the people at their age. But those who are worthy of my admiration are only those who have the right kind of attitude. Your intelligence is futile if you don't have the right kind of attitude.

3. Two things I hate the most: one, injustice. two, lack of respect. Injustice, I can tolerate because I've seen enough of it already and all I could do about it is to try to be someone who will never be part of it. Lack of respect is something I can't, and won't, be able to stand. Everytime I see someone being disrespectful to another, whoever he/she is, there's this burning need inside of me to insult and belittle that person head to feet and point out to him that he/she is nothing but a disgusting, pathetic piece of garbage.

...hmm, let's see, I think there's a very unfortunate person here on earth who is: 1) stupid 2) doesn't have the right kind of attitude and 3) disrespectful

... sayang, gwapo ka pa naman.

Hehe, backstabbed someone again on this entry.. ang mag-react, sapul! hahaha!! anyweiz, me and some of my classmates will be on Y Speak tomorrow... audience lang naman. Heck, I don't even know what's the topic so I guess I'll just be there to take pictures of ryan and bianca... kidding!

Humbling Experiences:

I was elated when Dave told me that Mr. Mortel, the DEAN of the PolSci Department, was looking for me and was planning to give me the project of designing something... "WHOA...!!" Kilala ako ng Dean? CooL. =D (mapag-uusapan naman ang talent fee eh. juk. =D)

I was chosen to be one of the three adjudicators in a debate in our ParlPrac class. Heck, I wasn't even aware that they just did kasi may nakasalpak na earphones sa tenga ko coz I was listening to some music during that time with tin. Well, hindi yun ang ikinatuwa ko. What counted as a humbling experience is when it was my time to state my opinions and judgements on the debate that just took place, the room got really quiet and they were actually wanting to hear what I've got to say... and that's not just it! I even noticed a few people on the far side standing up and looking to where I was sitting! Wow! I'm extremely flattered! Haha! Nakakatawa din at the same time kasi hindi naman talaga ako marunong mag-adjudicate eh... buti na lang nagkaron ako ng konting experience nung high-school. Haayy.. thank you my high school Alma Mater! I even remembered the debate legendaries Prince Boeck and the guy from section B (I forgot his name)... those assholes and how they pissed the hell out of me during debates way back in high school! haha!

I hope Your blessings will keep on coming... =D

the looking glass self

[ the looking glas self ]

we had an activity in our speech class, about the looking glass self, which is, knowing your identity from other people. we were asked to place a paper at our back where everybody can write and tell how he or she sees you. I wasn't really expecting a positive and deep appreciation of who I am in reality neither did I expect something negative because I know I'm new in P1. If you're interested in viewing my paper, click the thumbnail below for larger view


[ the forum ]
right after the speech class, we eagerly went to the FEU auditorium to attend a forum conducted by the Institute of Law Student Council with the theme, "CROSSROADS: Road Map, Please!". I was thinking of missing the said forum and eat instead because it's already 3pm and I still haven't eaten anything. But upon hearing the presence of Congressman Cheese Escudero and DENR Sec. Mike Defensor as 2 of the 3 guest speakers, I knew I had to postpone my plan of killing my hunger.

This forum HAD the purpose of answering inquiries regarding the current political situation of our country; "Where do we go from here?" is the question, as suggested by the theme itself. The forum started with the 3 politicians stating, and presenting to us, each other's "truths". Cong. Sandoval's presence as one of the 3 speakers was, if not totally ignored, barely even noticed, because the forum became the arena of Escudero (the ONLY guy from the opposition I really admire) and Defensor (a known "sugo" of the administration). Escudero, as usual, managed to impress the entirety of his audience with his "intellectually charismatic" way of speaking, mixing his statements with humor (i.e. "magsasalita na lang po ako sa tagalog, I don't enlish very well..") that totally appealed to most of the FEU students. I believe I can't, and won't, be able to share to you in details what exactly happened in that forum nor can I share with you the same ideas that filled the auditorium. All I can give are my mere opinions:

First, I find Escudero's statements contradictory. I can't mention all but I can give you one: A super hot babe, a future lawyer maybe, had been given the privilege of asking Cheese, starting her inquiry with sentiments telling that she was saddened by the fact that such a fine man like Escudero have chosen to collaborate with known TRAPOS (or people with questionable integrity, as she puts it) in the opposition. Escudero's answer is something to this effect: "malay mo, ayaw ko rin sa kanila... tigilan na natin ang paglalagay ng tatak sa noo ng mga tao, na maka-marcos yan, maka-erap yan, trapo yan... etc.... let's start something anew.. etc." just to conradict it later when some other person asked about the wiretapped tape. He said that there's a plausible theory that the wiretap wasn't intended for PGMA, but instead, for Garcillano, because he was "kilalang magaling mandaya" in elections. See? he totally forgot about his lectures of not marking someone on the forehead.

As for Defensor, I think he's no equal to the competence of Escudero, and I believe he has the same idea about it. But still, I liked him. He presented his arguments clearly, but not entirely completely. The questions thrown at him were not directly answered... and I guess that's the problem of that forum - questions were left unanswered, instead, even more piled up on our minds.

... I went out of the auditorium hungry for food and hungry for solutions that were not adequately provided by our guests.

got 88/100

weee!! got 88 out of 100 in my ParlPrac exam! well, as for for POLS7 and POLS9, no results up to this moment.

[erm. ur not interested with this, right?]
He made me a complete stranger to myself. That guy, he didn't just give a new meaning to happiness as I've known it, but he also showed me the way to it. If I were to describe him in just one word, the word would be great... great in a sense that he possessed every components of the ideal man I've imagined within the faculty of my mind - smart yet not too pa-epal, funny, witty, assertive, good conversationalist, into music like me, spiritual, creative and other adjectives that I've failed to mention, which I'm still not familiar of, but could've been the better terms to use so as to describe him more precisely. But, yea, it's such a pity that he owned the bigger brain to contain all the vocabulary terms that my mind can't store anymore... mental overload, maybe? or mental incapacity? I don't know. Hell, I don't even care. For now, I'm not wanting to learn anything more than finding the way to his heart.

It's not the looks, for I find his features ordinary. I think it's the attitude and personality that made me fall like this, or maybe it's just the way he talks... grrr... I can't get him off my mind.. this feeling is alienating, weakening. I'm like an 8 year old girl having a first crush, only this time, not with the campus heartrob, for I've never fell for those who are equipped with only nice eyes and smile, nor the tall, dark and handsome ones, who dig and dream of hot heart evangelista look-alike chinitas, but never had the capability of changing the world, too much time being wasted on hailing the god he sees everytime he faces the mirror.

I don't just admire him... I worship him. But worship and love are two different things, the former having a temporary status in my mind while the latter having an eternal status in my heart. I don't love him... but I feel my heart is driving its way to a place where flowers bloom and sun shines brighter than before... a place where all those cheesy, mushy, icky stuff belonged that I used to laugh at before.

damned

[damned]
I was reading a paperback awhile ago, the one I bought at BookSale Taft. It is a collection of horror short stories from various writers... but hell, buying and reading that book wasn't exactly the story I've planned to write about... it's about the song that had been played on the background whilst I was reading my book... damned by shimoli. That wasn't the first time I've heard that song, but it was only then that I've been able to appreciate its lyrics... I find it funny, and kinda related to my current feelings about someone. So, ayun, I had to put down the book and went back to reading it again only when the song managed to end.

[sana naman]
... nakapasa ako sa exams. may results na kaya by tomorrow?
... gusto kong matutong magluto ng ibang foods... i want to unleash the cook in me!! naksss!!

hmm.. don't be surprised if you see a bigger me in the coming days... it's just that I've been killing boredom with foods right now... especially junk foods.. which I'm not a fan of naman dati.. wanna pig-out with me? hehe

I did a little experiment on Adobe Photoshop... I've tried to find a way to merge my face with that of urumi's... and here's what I've got, a picture of someone who is neither urumi-like or racquel-like...

free at last...!

yey! tapos na ang paghihirap! tapos na ang prelim exams! at... gusto kong mag-celebrate! ngayon ko lang naranasan na mag-review nang parang finals na, e prelims pa lang naman! pero promise, sarap nang feeling... kasi, una, kahit ang hihirap ng mga tests, nasagutan ko... well, except for SPEECH! ang dami kong di nasagutan, kasi naman, ang daming kailangan i-memorize. pangalawa... I love my section right now! Kasi, although may mga pasaway dun, wala namang mga grade conscious assholes na nakakaubos ng pasensya... at saka, they have this grim humor which I really adore.. hehehe. kaya lang, may mga tao dun na hindi ko pa rin pinapansin kasi... mukha silang pusod.. nyaknyaknyak! hindi naman ako mahilig manlait, pero sana lang, mabait siya... kahit mukha siyang pusod. BUT, there are those guys in P2 who deserve to be admired... actually, marami sila.

I feel like bringing back the E-BOOKS download area on this site.. check out the available titles, baka may magustuhan ka, but not now, maybe later.

[ What Happened on JULY 17 on year: ]

1815 - Napoleonic Wars: Napoléon surrendered to British forces at Rochefort, France, ending the Hundred Days.
1945 - Winston Churchill, Joseph Stalin and Harry S. Truman met at the Potsdam Conference to decide how to administer post-World War II Germany.
1975 - History of East Timor: East Timor was annexed and became the 27th province of Indonesia.
1996 - Paris-bound TWA Flight 800 exploded off the coast of Long Island, New York, killing all 230 on board.
1998 - Biologists reported in the journal Science how they sequenced the genome of the bacterium that causes syphilis, Treponema pallidum.

the longest day of my life...

I'm really tired... so tired that I don't even wanna eat dinner... oh, I forgot, there's no dinner coz kuya didn't cook.. but he left Country Style donuts (the long ones, dunno what they are called eh...) for me.. e hindi naman ako mahilig sa donuts. Anyweiz, the exams are so freakin' hard! Especially the essay part!! grrr! nakakainis kasi hindi ako makapag-concentrate kasi ansakit ng ulo ko.. hindi pako natutulog.. kahit isang panandaliang idlip lang, wala. Nope, I'm not saying these para may excuse ako if ever I flunk the tests.. coz somehow, I feel confident about my answers naman, it's just that I believe I could've answered more intelligently if I had adequate sleep.

ahh... I really need to sleep now.. not because I'm sleepy but because I still need to finish those cases I keep on telling here about... bye.

[ lesson leaarn.... zzzzzz ]

bulleted ramblings

• prelim exam tomorrow, wish me luck.


• can't post much now, too busy with digesting the 10 cases... have managed to digest 5 already, still haven't read the other 5 though. hope I will be able to finish them all on friday night


• need to review on Interel, ParlPrac and POLS9... unfortunately, can't find my Orendain book... tsk.


• gotta go now... bye

[ lesson learned for today ]

Ayn Rand (February 2, 1905 – March 6, 1982; first name pronounced (IPA) /aIn/ (rhymes with 'mine')), born Alissa "Alice" Zinovievna Rosenbaum, was a popular and controversial American philosopher and novelist, best known for her philosophy of Objectivism and her novels The Fountainhead and Atlas Shrugged. Her philosophy and her fiction both emphasize, above all, her concepts of individualism, egoism, "rational self-interest", and capitalism. Her novels were based upon the archetype of the Randian hero, a man whose ability and independence leads others to reject him, but who perseveres nevertheless to achieve his values. Rand viewed this hero as the ideal and made it the express goal of her literature to showcase such heroes. She believed:

1. That man must choose his values and actions by reason;
2. That the individual has a right to exist for his own sake, neither sacrificing self to others nor others to self; and
3. That no one has the right to seek values from others by physical force, or impose ideas on others by physical force.

from mountainwings

Sailing Through Life
=====================

Some things cannot be spoken
or discovered until we have been

stuck,

incapacitated,

or blown off course for awhile.

Plain sailing is pleasant,
but you are not going to explore many unknown realms that way.

~David Whyte~

There are some posters posted (of course) on the walls of FEU (did not come from the school administration) telling us to join the call for PGMA's resignation by walking out of our classes and go with the rent-a-mobs in their pathetic rally tomorrow against Arroyo. Duh... if you'd be having an exam on Intro to Law, are you going? Kayo na lang no!!

The Folks Who Know
==================

The folks who know the truth aren't talking.

The ones who don't have a clue,
...you can't shut them up.

~Tom Waits~

can't post something long for today, sooo busy with studies.. or just pretending being busy.. whatever. have a nice day!

yey! new bag!

yey! got a new bag! that Accel bag I was talking about.. guess what? It was on-sale, so 20% off php450, php360 lang ang price nya.. me and my kuya are drooling over those cool Acupuncture shoes... kasi naman, konti lang pera namin.. buti pa ung kapatid naming isa, nabili nya ung gusto nyang Kickers shoes.. that fits well on me.. *grin*

omg! didn't manage to digest any case today dahil sa malalang sakit ko na... katamaran. I'm getting kinda nervous na about that ah... maybe I should really start working on it and maybe this time, I should really mean what I'm saying.. right?

Need to drop off something at Leo's tomorrow.. stuff that Kim needs.. a copy of a case and the Phil. Consti. by H. De Leon.. wala lang, baka makalimutan ko na naman... I'm so forgetful kasi. =D

[ lesson learned for today ]

A weasel word is a word that is intended to, or has the effect of, softening the force of a potentially controversial statement, or avoids forming a clear position on a particular issue. Weasel words can be readily identified in a large amount of corporate correspondence, and are frequently used by politicians. A weasel word can be compared with, but is distinct from a euphemism.

Though the imagery of the term suggests that it implies the concept of a weasel as being sneaky and able to wiggle out of a tight spot, The American Heritage Dictionary of the English Language says that the term actually comes from the weasel's ability to suck the contents out of an egg without breaking the shell; thus, weasel words suck the meaning out of a statement while seeming to keep the idea intact.

Weasel words are almost always intended to deceive or draw attention from something the speaker doesn't want emphasized, rather than being the inadvertent result of the speaker's or writer's poor but honest attempt at description.

practicing laziness on sundays...

Awhile ago, I began working on the 10 cases (actually, I only have 5 cases with me because I refused to photocopy my other classmate's copy of all 10 cases thay have, because it is so costly to do so.. nagprint na lang ako from the internet) that are needed to be passed this coming Saturday. I've started with the Sy Joc Lieng Vs. Syquia case and uhmm.. yea, after reading it, I put my pen down and daydreamt instead. Haha! Life is easier this way, no thinking about some deceased chinese merchant whose supposed descendants were suing one another for their right to inheritance. Don't worry, I've promised myself to digest at least 5 cases tomorrow... wish me luck. =D

[ fine dining @ market! market! ]

arrgh!! we (kuya Hermes, Ate Ivay, Tanya and of course, me) are supposed to shop today at Why Pay More? (a sportswear store near Uniwide, Crossing) but due to some unknown reason, it isn't open for business as usual. I'm really wanting a new bag pa naman!! I think I'm buying that black and white Accel messenger bag worth 450php.. hmm.. naiisip ko pa lang, naglalaway nako.. ewww... hehehe!! ay oo nga pala, nagpunta na lang kami agad sa Market! Market! to check out if there's anything worth buying there. Ayun, naglakad-lakad sandali, tumingin-tingin na rin sa mga stores then nung nakaramdam na ng gutom, we went outside (yes, outside) to hunt for the perfect place to eat. After a long discussion about where we should dine, we all agreed on Blackbeard's Seafood Island resto, although I'm a bit hesitant coz I find it impractical to eat at such a fine (aka expensive) diner. But yeah, since hindi naman ako ang magbabayad, go lang nang go. We ordered Dapitan's Pride, a 3-4 food combo, includes: tilapia, squid, pork, shrimp, ginataang gabi (yata, di ko na matandaan!), clam shells, crab, etc. na hindi ko alam kung anong tawag sa luto nila). Ang pinakanagustuhan ko sa lahat ay yung kanin! I don't know what they did with the rice but it really tasted good, no, I think the word to describe it should be "superb". I recommend it because the place is cozy and the ambiance, accomodating. Seafood Island is located near the Jeepney Terminal of Market! Market! Mall.

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I never considered myself as someone who is pro-Gloria, but I guess as a concerned citizen, I know I need to make a stand. I want PRESIDENT Gloria Arroyo to stay in power. If I have to bring this fight on the streets, I'll gladly do so. Even if it takes having to leave my classroom for days, I'll make the sacrifice of doing so. Why? Truthfully? I don't know. It may seem not to be the right thing to do, to continue giving your trust to someone who have lied before, but it feels like the good thing to do, believing that what she did could be regarded as necessary evil.

Everybody else now is calling for her resignation... are you going to join the bandwagon? If you're planning to, please consider analyzing about the possible consequences once she tendered her resignation. Think, people... think.

[lessons learned for today]

Famous Serial Killers

Yoo Young-Chul (born 1970) is a self-confessed South Korean serial killer and cannibal. Although he admitted to murdering 21 people, mostly prostitutes and rich old men, the Seoul Central District Court convicted him of 20 murders (one case was dismissed on a technicality). Yoo burned 3 and mutilated at least 11 of his victims, admitting he ate the livers of some of them. He committed his crimes between September 2003 and July 2004. He was sentenced to death on 13 December 2004.

Born in Tolima, Colombia, in 1949 Pedro Lopez became notorious as the Monster of the Andes. According to Lopez, his prostitute mother kicked him out of their home at age eight for fondling his younger sister. He was then picked up by a pedophile and was sodomized. He was taken in by an American family, but later ran away with a teacher from his school. When he was eighteen he was gang-raped in prison and retaliated by killing three of his assailants.

Upon his release he started killing young girls with glee and impunity. By 1978 he claimed to have killed more than 100 girls in Peru. After a brush with an angry village mob he moved his activities to Colombia and then Ecuador where his bloodlust averaged about three kills a week. He found killing Ecuadorian girls enjoyable because they were "more gentle and trusting, more innocent." It is widely believed that three hundred is a low estimate.

Haha! ang saya nung Speech class namin kanina! May group presentation kasi kami today. through acting, we are to show situations wherein these 3 non-directive responses would occur: Uh-huh, reflective content and open question. I was not able to prepare a script last night so I've only managed to come up with a script during our Stats class together with Angela. We've been able to come up with one crazy kick-ass story that is really unique coz it showcases talking fishes.. hehe.. ( Paul even referred to it as Finding Nemo-like.. nyeks! ) There were 8 groups in all and it elated us in great measure to have achieved the fourth place... achieving it with less effort on our part. But of course, I know it could've been better if only we had the time to make it even better.

[ free burger king meal courtesy of rhiane ]

Rhiane asked me to accompany her in buying a small Sto. Nino figurine... unfortunately, we didn't spot a store offering that kind of goods so we just spent the remaining of our breaktime in BK. Of course, having only 100 bucks as my baon for today, 60% of which is allotted already for my transpo fare back and forth, I couldn't afford anymore to buy myself a meal because I've already bought a hotdog sandwich in 7 Eleven earlier. Well... nalibre na naman ako. I want to thank Rhia whole heartedly for the delicious Chicken Steak that filled up my tummy. =D

While and after chomping the BK goodies, we talked about a lot of things (in short, nagtsismisan) related to people, especially our classmates. She also shared family life and love life stories. She told me something that made my heart jumped for joy.. he told me about what Dave told her... that they will prioritize (I don't know if this is the right term to use) keeping me as their company during breaks because.. uhmm.. yeah, they like me. =D Naks... nakakatuwa naman. I feel so appreciated. Thanks guys.

[ lessons learned for today ]
Did you know that...
1. Today, July 9, Argentina is celebrating their Independence Day?
2. Charles Darwin's illness, which afflicted him for 40 years, could have been Chagas disease, an exotic South American parasitic infection transmitted by the bite of the assassin bug, a hematophagous insect, while he was exploring the Andes during the famed voyage of the Beagle?

ano bang dapat i-post...

para naman may maganda akong i-post dito sa site ko, may naisip na naman akong pakulo. every post, may ilalagay akong "lesson learned for today..". O d ba, another kalokohan?! pwedeng trivia, o kahit ung mga mumunting bagay lang na natutunan ko tungkol sa buhay. hehe.. gagamit na nga rin pala ako ng avatar from now on.

[ one ]
habang nagkaklase kanina, ang daming newsflash through text na nai-share sa amin. nandun ung bumaligtad na raw si Cory Aquino at ang Makati Business clubs, now they are calling for GMA's resignation na rin. andun din ung sigaw na charter change ni FVR. and I've just read about JV Ejercito telling joyously: "We Won!" or something to that effect. naks, para na namang karnibal ang politika sa Pilipinas. dinaig pa ang drama ng mga imported chinovelas ah! but the sad thing here is, there are REAL people who were adversely affected by these careless actions done by those people who are supposed to sacrifice their own interests for the achievement of the interests which are beneficial to all.

[ two ]
International Relations class namin, biglang kumatok ang aming mahal na Department Head na si Ginoong Mortel. Taimtim na nagpasalamat sa kanya ang buong klase dahil saglit nyang mauudlot ang isang scheduled exam. Ang isyu na naman ay ang improper conduct namin sa klase ni Mr. Villanueva, sa Technical Writing. Sorry, sir, sorry. Props go to Prof. Reyes for somehow backing us up by saying that even if we're unexplainably exuberant at times, she won't deny that our class is composed of bright students.. naks na naman.. kasali bako dun? again, Sir Bong, sorry.

[ lesson learned for today ]
Hitler and his propaganda minister, Goebbels, brought forth the big lie theory of propaganda: say it loud enough, boldly enough, often enough, and the people will believe it. - source here

lazy ass in the morning, crazy crammer at night...

thursday, have no class today. pahinga. kahit marami talaga akong dapat gawin.. at basahin, gusto ko lang magpahinga. kahit may ipapasang mahabang assignment tomorrow sa POLS9, eto ko, kaharap ang pyuter kahit alas-tres na ng umaga. kasi nga, gusto kong magpahinga. ni hindi ko nga nagawang walisan ang kwarto ko kahit isang beses lang, tapos hihiga ako sa sahig na hindi nawalisan maya-maya lang. (yup! wala akong kama! ganyan po ako kadukha.. tumatanggap po ako ng donasyon.. nyehehe). ipapasa na ang sampung cases, digested na, sa saturday, pero ni wala pa kong nababasa kahit isa. naks, good luck na lang sa Intro to Law.. facts, issue, held. isang kaso = 80 pages. 10 kaso = 800 pages. ano ko? henyo?

kanina, nagmuni-muni na naman ako mag-isa. ang weird, wala kasi akong ngayong gustong tao. wala akong crush... naks. wala na pala akong crush. naisip ko nga bigla - "hala! masyado nang malala ang katamaran ko! kahit magka-crush, kinakatamaran ko na rin!".. nyehehe, corny. at saka naisip ko rin na parang.. basta, kay KIM ko lang sasabihin. Kim, tanong mo sakin ha?

ay teka, congratulate me for I have managed to finish my assignment on POLS9 just awhile ago... galing ko no? grabe, pinasakit ni Rousseau ang ulo ko.

isa na namang walang kakwenta-kwentang entry para sa araw ng Huwebes.

the value of values...

muntik nang masira ang araw ko habang pauwi ako galing school.. e kasi naman, marami akong nakitang mga katibayan na hindi na natin pinapahalagahan ang ating values. Una: nasa jeep ako, nakaupo malayo sa jeepney driver, tapos may sumakay na tatlong estudyanteng babae. Grabe, alam mo ba ang ginawa? Pinag-abot ako ng bayad kahit ang layo ko sa driver!! Maayos naman ang pagkakasabi nya, ganito: "paki-abot ng bayad." so, kahit parang naging basahan ang palda ko para lang maiabot ang kanilang bayad, inabot ko na rin nang buong puso (naks). Nung naiabot ko na, dun nako nabuwisit... ang tapang ng hiya! Hindi sila nag thank you. Pag sinabi mo bang "paki", may naka-attach na dun na isang invisible na "thank you"? Eto pa, pagka-baba ko ng jeep, may nakita akong lalaki na may bike, hinarap nya sa kabilang side ung bike nya. natamaan ng gulong ung babae na nandon malapit sa kanya (sakit non). you know what he did? wala. tiningnan nya lang yung girl na hinahawakan ung bodypart na natamaan nung bike. walang sorry, umalis siya.

thank you at sorry. hindi naman mahahabang salita di ba? so bakit parang napakahirap sabihin? bakit parang mahirap pa rin maalala? nakakainis.

still haven't reviewed...

I have a quiz scheduled tomorrow on International Relations and I still haven't touched any of the review materials I have. I'm so lazy. I just want to face the computer monitor and forget about my studies... for how long? I dunno.

My kuya made me watch one of his latest movie downloads, he said t'was some teen flick na may pagka-Charlie's Angels.. when Kuya left to head who-knows-where, I've watched it with full enthusiasm... hehe, ewan ko ba, I miss watching movies na kasi. The movie was entitled D.E.B.S, stands for Discipline, Energy, Beauty, and Strength. Comedy and Romance na hindi pambata. Uhmm.. I really don't know how am I going to present to you my own synopsis of the movie, so why don't you just go to this site and read it there. Thanks.



From what I've read, t'was a film showed last 2004 at Sundance Film Festival and re-released in selected U.S Cities last March, 2005... DVD was made available last June 7, 2005. I guess now you have to borrow my CD if you're interested in watching it, unless of course someone will bring it here. I've also read that the movie was included in the Chicago Gay and Lesbian Film Festival... wonder why? For you to know and for me not to let you know... haha! Hey Evita! I'm recommending this movie to you! Go watch it with your special someone. *wink* *wink*

Haayy.. need to get up early tomorrow, para magbasa ng Philippine Star, Basic Rules of IHL at magbasa din ng buhay ni Kant.

an odd mix of songs...

I've already removed the songs on the featured songs area. I've replaced them with something not too mainstream and are neither too new nor too old, I'm talking about the following songs:

Inside Your Heaven - Bo Bice (CD VERSION)
Inside Your Heaven - Carrie Underwood (CD VERSION)
The Scientist (ACOUSTIC) - Coldplay
Mad World - Gary Jules
How To Deal - Frankie J
Going Crazy Remix _ Natalie

If you don't know any of these songs, then forget about downloading any of 'em. =D

That song Mad World, I know it is an old song, but I kept on hearing a new version done by a girl on Home Radio and I believe her revival can't be tagged as mediocre. Unfortunately, can't find a girl version of the song on the net, the only available dl aside from Tears for Fears (original) is the revival by Gary Jules for the movie soundtrack of Donnie Darko.

The song is so beautiful, yet haunting. It was solemnly sang yet I find it so frightening.. I dunno. I brings unwanted chills yet I'm craving for it. Weird.

[Mad World]

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places
Worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going no where
Going no where
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression
No expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow
No tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad world
Mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday
Happy birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen
Sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me
No one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me
Look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Enlarging your world
Mad world

What dya think?

[ backstabbed someone. called him names. ]

a letter to someone.

you. yeah, you. you are a disease in the society I'm currently living. you don't deserve to exist in my world, so why not consider committing suicide and go to hell, where you truly belong? you know how I see you right now? nothing but a beautifully crafted gift box filled with all things obnoxious inside... trash, junk, poop, vomit.. you make me wanna puke. I want you to know that many people are already sick of your arrogance... a**hole.

Wow, I've managed to give some of my precious time to write somethin' bout you? When you don't deserve even a split second of anybody's time. Lucky for you, we don't see each other too often anymore, because if we do, consider yourself already ruined. Don't you know that we're so into backstabbing you? And we don't even regret doing such because you're the most deserving person of those stabs... bleed, a**hole, bleeeedd! ha-ha!!

Alam mo bang mas may silbi pa sayo ang isang basahan?

[ sunday katamaran ]

tinatamad na naman akong gumawa ng kahit ano. oi, bad ung pinagsasabi ko, wag nyo kong gagayahin ha? bad ako.

bwahaha.

different thoughts...

[ studies first ]

statistics, first subject... ho-hum. next! Quiz in Speech 2, got 19/20, watched a copycat presentation of a report. BREAK for one and half hour, used the hour on E-Lib while the remaining 30 minutes were spent in the library. Shitty FEU library, I had to throw away my bottled drink just to be able to get inside.. don't they know I've spent 19pesos for that 500ml Mountain Dew? Konti pa lang naiinom ko dun no... shitty talaga. After doing the pretentious act of literally just flipping the photocopied pages of the Family Code of the Phil., I've headed for AB 308, and rejoiced with the whole class after finding out that Ms. Gemzon wasn't around.

[ Happy Birhday Leo ]

Nagmamadali akong umuwi kanina para marami pa akong maabutang peeps sa birthday party ni Leiz. Umuwi muna ako ng bahay para magpalit ng damit from school uniform to casual wear, then off to Pasong Tirad na. Luckily, but still a little bit unfortunate for me, naabutan ko pa sa kanto si Franz, kasama sina Dan and Ferwen na naghatid sa kanya. Ayun, umuwi na sya, kami namang tatlo, bumalik sa selebrasyong idinaraos sa Primo Rivera St. Marami palang dumating na bisita, kasama na ang *bestfriend* (hehe. jwk lng.) ni Leiz na si Zyrinne... she's more beautiful pala in person, good choice leiz.. hehe. Andun din sina Reylyn & Xyza. Ang kulet ni Bert, sayaw ng sayaw, a bit tipsy na kasi eh. May model pa-epek pa with matching pakikipag-asaran with Jake. Andun din si Aaron. sayang, sana mas napaaga pa ko, I could've witnessed some more action siguro... actions of what sort? ewan. nyahaha, nah, just kiddin'! Conversations habang hinihintay dumating sina Kim and Leo na nanggaling pa palang Bulacan para lang ihatid si Zyrinne! All in the name of love... love for a bestfriend! naks. =D Had a serious and personal conversation with Dan while with Bert, more on politics and studies. Pinagtripan pa si Oria! Abangan ang kanyang scandal! wahaha! Ayun, umuwi na kami ni Bert nang 2:30 AM, ung iba, naiwan at dun daw sila matutulog. Gusto ko sanang mag-stay pa but Bert is really sleepy na ata, e sya lang ang pwede kong kasabay at ayokong umuwing mag-isa, so, ayun, umuwi na kami.

wow, detalyado kwento ko di ba? antok na ko. bukas na lang ulet...

Exerpts from: The Manila Times:

FORMER President Joseph Estrada will head a national council that will take over the reins of government after President Arroyo is ousted, Sen. Jinggoy Estrada said Thursday.

I know that could be possible, Jinggoy, but is it LEGAL? I don't think so. This is not movie world Jinggoy, welcome to the real world. We don't need such ridiculous suggestions or ideas and we won't even bother to reconsider.

Asked who would head the council, he replied: "Erap."

Aha! I knew it! A horror flick for a change. Now I know who are the actors, I wonder who's the director...

"Congress will be abolished, the Supreme Court will be revamped, and charges will be filed against Mrs. Arroyo and members of her family," he said. "I don't know what role Susan will play, but she will remain our inspiration."

Translation: There will be no rule anymore. Representatives of the people will be moved out of our way. We will kill democracy. That's how much we love power and money. And oh, we will revive guillotine for the execution of the Arroyo's. Susan? Who's Susan?

"We were jailed although there was no evidence against us and the only witness was a confessed jueteng operator," Jinggoy said, alluding to Ilocos Sur Gov. Luis Singson.

Translation: We don't deserve jailtime! Ask the 11 million strong supporters of my father about it, for they are the real source of power, aren't they? Even if in reality, we're just using them to feed our greed. Stupid people. They will stay as poor as they are and we won't even try to educate them, it's they're down right stupidity who had brought us here, so why cure it? Anyway, about our plunder case, we will insist that there's no strong evidence against us besides from that balimbing Singson... we've kept it all well hidden, we're just so good at deceiving people, don't you think? That Singson is shit, we shouldn't have made a deal with him. Well, yun lang naman ang mali namin eh..

He said the revolutionary government would rule for about a year, before allowing democratic elections to take place.

About a year? No definite time, Jinggoy? That's way too scary.

Several leaders from Cebu, Pampanga, Mindanao and the Ilocos region, however, have warned that they would not obey any government installed through extraconstitutional means. They said they would not allow "imperial Manila" to dictate what should be followed in the entire country, arguing that Manila is not the Philippines.

At last, our people are beginning to think. Let us unite to revive our country. Let us not contribute anymore for the further downfall of our country, our beloved country.

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