this poem was taken from ate vanna's 100bottles site: I so love this poem.. nakaka-relate kasi ang inyong lingkod. read on:
You still invade my thoughts like no one else can
i loved you far longer than what is healthy
and this is where my assumptions took me
to a merry chase going nowhere
these lines...
a token of a long lost hope and faith
to a man
who would love no other
but his music
from a girl
who would love no other
man.
...
hmm.. nakakainis nang konti, hindi nya ko masyado naalayan ng atensyon. sabagay, hindi ko rin naman sya madalas pansinin e.. kasi naman, bakit ba kailangan ko kaagad mailang? e friendship pa lang naman ang dapat habulin... o baka naman friendship lang talaga ang kaya kong abutan...
wowowee!!
New MP3s on the Download Area:
Shake it Off- Mariah Carey
Dirty Little Secrets - All American Rejects
Stay (acoustic) - Cueshe
All the Way - Craig David
Speed of Sound - Coldplay
I'm feeling generous!! So here, I've uploaded the latest full album of 3 Doors Down "Seventeen Days" for all of you 3DD fanatics out there! CLiCK HERE! I just wanna remind you that the filesize of this album is 71 MB so expect a your download to last up to 3 hours or more... enjoy!
Did you know that Avril Lavigne has B-sides album (scraps that didn't make it to the released album, alanis a. has the same album, "feast on scraps") album that had been put up on sale at e-bay? the last bid was a whopping $355.. wow, that's a lot of money for a single cd, don't you think? the album consists of unreleased tracks including a demo versions.. well, I've already downloaded that 355 dollar worth album and currently, the songs are on my musicmatch player, sounds filling up my brother's room... hehe.. 17 tracks are all good baby!! thank God for internet.
I'm supposed to be reviewing for the midterm exams now, or at least reading and digesting even a single case out of the 25 cases that must be passed on wednesday next week, but hey, here I am, downloading full albums of my favorite artists and, burning them on cd, googling and reading writings of Kahlil Gibran. I don't feel like doing scholastic activities for now... I'm down with a sickness, not laziness this time, but sipon .. hmm.. sorry, I forgot what's the english term for that.. maybe you can offer some help? hehe.. anyweiz... I want to review for my POLS9 but I forgot to get my book from Rhiane.. so, yea, no review for today!! yey! even if the exams are tomorrow already, well, I'm not even sure if they'll gonna let me take the exams, so why bother to study? what for?
[ monkey business and chaotic resolve ]
I love the latest albums of Black Eyed Peas and PLUMB... I'm recommending them.
[ Google Print Beta ]
When Google offers something new, it is always, at the same time, something great. The same company who offered 2GB space for a free email service are offering Google Print, still on its Beta phase.
The 411: (source: http://print.google.com/googleprint/about.html)
What is Google Print?
Google's mission is to organize the world's information, but much of that information isn't yet online. Google Print aims to get it there by putting book content where you can find it most easily – right in your Google search results.
How does Google Print work?
Just do a search on the Google Print homepage. When we find a book whose content contains a match for your search terms, we'll link to it in your search results. Click a book title and you'll see the page of the book that has your search terms, along with other information about the book and "Buy this Book" links to online bookstores (you can view the entirety of public domain books or, for books under copyright, just a few pages or in some cases, only the title’s bibliographic data and brief snippets). You can also search for more information within that specific book and find nearby libraries that have it.
Where do these books come from?
The book content in Google Print comes from two sources: publishers and libraries.
Shake it Off- Mariah Carey
Dirty Little Secrets - All American Rejects
Stay (acoustic) - Cueshe
All the Way - Craig David
Speed of Sound - Coldplay
I'm feeling generous!! So here, I've uploaded the latest full album of 3 Doors Down "Seventeen Days" for all of you 3DD fanatics out there! CLiCK HERE! I just wanna remind you that the filesize of this album is 71 MB so expect a your download to last up to 3 hours or more... enjoy!
Did you know that Avril Lavigne has B-sides album (scraps that didn't make it to the released album, alanis a. has the same album, "feast on scraps") album that had been put up on sale at e-bay? the last bid was a whopping $355.. wow, that's a lot of money for a single cd, don't you think? the album consists of unreleased tracks including a demo versions.. well, I've already downloaded that 355 dollar worth album and currently, the songs are on my musicmatch player, sounds filling up my brother's room... hehe.. 17 tracks are all good baby!! thank God for internet.
I'm supposed to be reviewing for the midterm exams now, or at least reading and digesting even a single case out of the 25 cases that must be passed on wednesday next week, but hey, here I am, downloading full albums of my favorite artists and, burning them on cd, googling and reading writings of Kahlil Gibran. I don't feel like doing scholastic activities for now... I'm down with a sickness, not laziness this time, but sipon .. hmm.. sorry, I forgot what's the english term for that.. maybe you can offer some help? hehe.. anyweiz... I want to review for my POLS9 but I forgot to get my book from Rhiane.. so, yea, no review for today!! yey! even if the exams are tomorrow already, well, I'm not even sure if they'll gonna let me take the exams, so why bother to study? what for?
[ monkey business and chaotic resolve ]
I love the latest albums of Black Eyed Peas and PLUMB... I'm recommending them.
[ Google Print Beta ]
When Google offers something new, it is always, at the same time, something great. The same company who offered 2GB space for a free email service are offering Google Print, still on its Beta phase.
The 411: (source: http://print.google.com/googleprint/about.html)
What is Google Print?
Google's mission is to organize the world's information, but much of that information isn't yet online. Google Print aims to get it there by putting book content where you can find it most easily – right in your Google search results.
How does Google Print work?
Just do a search on the Google Print homepage. When we find a book whose content contains a match for your search terms, we'll link to it in your search results. Click a book title and you'll see the page of the book that has your search terms, along with other information about the book and "Buy this Book" links to online bookstores (you can view the entirety of public domain books or, for books under copyright, just a few pages or in some cases, only the title’s bibliographic data and brief snippets). You can also search for more information within that specific book and find nearby libraries that have it.
Where do these books come from?
The book content in Google Print comes from two sources: publishers and libraries.
pieces of paper
[ no exams for me ]
oh my, i think i will not be able to take up my midterm exam on friday and saturday because I still haven't paid my balance approximately amounting to 13,000 pesos.. wow, it's only now that I truly realize how expensive education is. It's no surprise that my name yet appeared again on the negative list, the list of people who won't be allowed to step a foot on the classroom on examination day unless they go to the cashier first and pay the necassary amount for the continuation of their education... paper paper, money money, baby...
the greatest irony is, some of the people who were able to pay on time and in full are the not so bright students who don't even bother to touch their books. Hmm... I so envy their kind, the part only of being able to pay on time and in full. hehe...
so, where will I go on Friday and Saturday, knowing that my professors are not going to hand in the questionnaires to me because of my unpaid dues? I don't know. Any suggestion?
[ Eeepp!! ]
I still haven't worked on the logo I promised I'll be creating for our Rotaract Club.. hmm.. I think I should first work on this getting uglier attitude of mine of making promises that couldn't be kept. well anyweiz, I guess I need to seek help from artists like me (ehem.. speaking too highly of yourself again, ms. balao-as?) to be able to produce a kick-ass design. hehe.
eeep!! (again...) I still haven't reviewed for that long quiz tomorrow in our speech class. I know I need to study and I believe that I must study but whenever I remember the kind of rampant cheating that proliferates in the room during exams, it makes me wanna let go of my study material, close my eyes and lose myself to dreamland...
oh my, i think i will not be able to take up my midterm exam on friday and saturday because I still haven't paid my balance approximately amounting to 13,000 pesos.. wow, it's only now that I truly realize how expensive education is. It's no surprise that my name yet appeared again on the negative list, the list of people who won't be allowed to step a foot on the classroom on examination day unless they go to the cashier first and pay the necassary amount for the continuation of their education... paper paper, money money, baby...
the greatest irony is, some of the people who were able to pay on time and in full are the not so bright students who don't even bother to touch their books. Hmm... I so envy their kind, the part only of being able to pay on time and in full. hehe...
so, where will I go on Friday and Saturday, knowing that my professors are not going to hand in the questionnaires to me because of my unpaid dues? I don't know. Any suggestion?
[ Eeepp!! ]
I still haven't worked on the logo I promised I'll be creating for our Rotaract Club.. hmm.. I think I should first work on this getting uglier attitude of mine of making promises that couldn't be kept. well anyweiz, I guess I need to seek help from artists like me (ehem.. speaking too highly of yourself again, ms. balao-as?) to be able to produce a kick-ass design. hehe.
eeep!! (again...) I still haven't reviewed for that long quiz tomorrow in our speech class. I know I need to study and I believe that I must study but whenever I remember the kind of rampant cheating that proliferates in the room during exams, it makes me wanna let go of my study material, close my eyes and lose myself to dreamland...
enjoy at boring...
saya nung birthday party ni bobbie sa laguna! langoy-langoy! may nangyari pa ngang kakaiba eh.. kaya lang, nahihiya akong ikwento. baka walang maniwala.. haha! anyweiz, a few of my friends already knew about it, you might as well just ask them if you're really interested.. well anyweiz, sana pala hindi na ako pumasok ngayon sa school.. wala pa akong tulog dahil galing pa ngang laguna.. kasi naman, wala pala si ma'em gemzon, so wala ring intro to law, tapos wala ding ginawa sa techwrite, nag brainstorming lang ang mga magkaka-grupo to produce a topic for their research.
Some of our photos from laguna:
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and here are proofs that wala kaming ginawa sa school ngayon:
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Call me conceited, but I think someone is kinda liking me... no problem for me coz I've already fallen for him.. hehe. Kaya lang may problema...
Some of our photos from laguna:
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and here are proofs that wala kaming ginawa sa school ngayon:
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Call me conceited, but I think someone is kinda liking me... no problem for me coz I've already fallen for him.. hehe. Kaya lang may problema...
rants again, I guess...
still can't decide what I'm gonna do!! it's bobbie's birthday bash tomorrow, she invited us to join in the celebration at a private resort in Laguna... the problem is, the call time is 4pm and I've got classes up to 7:30pm! Hay nako.. hindi na lang ako papasok.. dadalhin ko na lang ung books ko dun sa swimming pool at dun ko na lang babasahin sina Fichte at Hegel. hay nako, mami-miss ko si.. si..., si DO! ay teka, hindi ba masyadong halata? hehe... waiittt!! may pag-uusapan pala kami ni Doms tomorrow... sorry doms, our chikahan is postponed.
anyweiz, marami naman kaming napag-usapan sa meeting namin sa Rotaract.. kaka-excite nga ang mga lined-up activities eh - Alay Lakad kaagad sa September 4, call time is 4AM! good luck naman sa akin. the logo making had been assigned to me and to julius rafanan (we have to make our own designs and the club will choose between our logos) I'm not expecting na mapipili ang aking logo, kasi rafanan's friend who will help him out is a FINE ARTS student. But hey! No competition, ayt? I'll contribute everything for the club to reach its goal, and according to ms. gemzon, the goals for now are for our club to be recognized by the university and to be able to achieve the prestigious "Rookie Rotary CLub of the Year" Award. Well, with the type of members and officers we have as of now, I know that somehow, nothing is impossible and those goals are just within reach.
[ rants again... ]
Ayaw nila akong tigilan. Nakakainis talaga. At ito pa ang nakakagalit talaga, pina-plastic nila ako!! gawd! pero y'know what? hindi na siguro talaga ako galit, the best word to describe what I'm feeling right now is irritation. nakaka-irita. some people just won't shut up. they are provoking a fight! as if they can handle me when I start to entertain. Ayoko lang talagang bumaba sa level nila, but they are trying to show me na I'm a weakling and can be easily stepped on pag hindi ko sila pinatulan... oh please, don't kid yourselves too much. once my anger becomes obvious, I'm telling you, you wouldn't find reasons to laugh or even just smile. besides, why should I waste my time on you, pantayan mo muna ako academically at baka maisipan pa kitang paglaanan kahit man lang konting panahon. haha!!
anyweiz, marami naman kaming napag-usapan sa meeting namin sa Rotaract.. kaka-excite nga ang mga lined-up activities eh - Alay Lakad kaagad sa September 4, call time is 4AM! good luck naman sa akin. the logo making had been assigned to me and to julius rafanan (we have to make our own designs and the club will choose between our logos) I'm not expecting na mapipili ang aking logo, kasi rafanan's friend who will help him out is a FINE ARTS student. But hey! No competition, ayt? I'll contribute everything for the club to reach its goal, and according to ms. gemzon, the goals for now are for our club to be recognized by the university and to be able to achieve the prestigious "Rookie Rotary CLub of the Year" Award. Well, with the type of members and officers we have as of now, I know that somehow, nothing is impossible and those goals are just within reach.
[ rants again... ]
Ayaw nila akong tigilan. Nakakainis talaga. At ito pa ang nakakagalit talaga, pina-plastic nila ako!! gawd! pero y'know what? hindi na siguro talaga ako galit, the best word to describe what I'm feeling right now is irritation. nakaka-irita. some people just won't shut up. they are provoking a fight! as if they can handle me when I start to entertain. Ayoko lang talagang bumaba sa level nila, but they are trying to show me na I'm a weakling and can be easily stepped on pag hindi ko sila pinatulan... oh please, don't kid yourselves too much. once my anger becomes obvious, I'm telling you, you wouldn't find reasons to laugh or even just smile. besides, why should I waste my time on you, pantayan mo muna ako academically at baka maisipan pa kitang paglaanan kahit man lang konting panahon. haha!!
not funny at all...
forgive me
I've fallen for you;
for your grand simplicity,
for being a humble stand-out,
for being funny at the right time,
for being serious at the right time,
for just being inexplicably you.
sorry
if my past is full of imperfections,
mistakes I can't undo anymore.
if you'll see on my forehead
a mark that you would be ashamed of -
I've tried to erase it,
but it was permanently etched,
I've tried to remove it,
so ugly,
so wrong,
so much like me...
I realized, I stopped,
it only became uglier,
turned into something acceptable
by the prejudice eyes
but something not so me.
So it's up to you now
if you'll turn your back and not dare to reconsider,
I was hoping not.
I don't want to go back anymore
to that old place full of bitter memories,
the place where you tried to rescue me from.
I love you
it's not so often that I say this to your kind,
a foreign feeling,
a different kind of burning,
a change I didn't plan to undergo from the start...
but you led me to.
don't let my plea just be another echo,
this voice is from a different person now.
= = = = = = = = = = =
Thursday is supposed to be a rest day for me, no classes to attend to, no books to read, but I think the lazy-ass routine would have to be set aside for tomorrow, because I'll be attending the first ROTARACT club meeting. I don't know exactly what the meeting will be all about but I just wish it wouldn't have to take so much time to produce substantial propositions. I hope we'll finish a lot of work tomorrow.
OMG! The membership fee for the club is 50 pesos... a month!! whoa! haha! natatawa nga ako sa sarili ko kasi nagkukuwenta nako kung magkano ung dapat kong ibawas sa baon ko everyday just to be able to pay off the monthly fee... hehe.
Blessed talaga ang mga mabubuting tao... one good example is Nadine, my classmate, she's the type who doesn't talk too much but kanina lang, Ma'am Gemzon announced that she's our monarch sa aming Intro to Law class. Well, monarch kasi ung tawag dun sa nakakuha ng pinakamataas na grade. I'm so proud of her, coz she really deserved it. Congrats Nadine!
I've fallen for you;
for your grand simplicity,
for being a humble stand-out,
for being funny at the right time,
for being serious at the right time,
for just being inexplicably you.
sorry
if my past is full of imperfections,
mistakes I can't undo anymore.
if you'll see on my forehead
a mark that you would be ashamed of -
I've tried to erase it,
but it was permanently etched,
I've tried to remove it,
so ugly,
so wrong,
so much like me...
I realized, I stopped,
it only became uglier,
turned into something acceptable
by the prejudice eyes
but something not so me.
So it's up to you now
if you'll turn your back and not dare to reconsider,
I was hoping not.
I don't want to go back anymore
to that old place full of bitter memories,
the place where you tried to rescue me from.
I love you
it's not so often that I say this to your kind,
a foreign feeling,
a different kind of burning,
a change I didn't plan to undergo from the start...
but you led me to.
don't let my plea just be another echo,
this voice is from a different person now.
Thursday is supposed to be a rest day for me, no classes to attend to, no books to read, but I think the lazy-ass routine would have to be set aside for tomorrow, because I'll be attending the first ROTARACT club meeting. I don't know exactly what the meeting will be all about but I just wish it wouldn't have to take so much time to produce substantial propositions. I hope we'll finish a lot of work tomorrow.
OMG! The membership fee for the club is 50 pesos... a month!! whoa! haha! natatawa nga ako sa sarili ko kasi nagkukuwenta nako kung magkano ung dapat kong ibawas sa baon ko everyday just to be able to pay off the monthly fee... hehe.
Blessed talaga ang mga mabubuting tao... one good example is Nadine, my classmate, she's the type who doesn't talk too much but kanina lang, Ma'am Gemzon announced that she's our monarch sa aming Intro to Law class. Well, monarch kasi ung tawag dun sa nakakuha ng pinakamataas na grade. I'm so proud of her, coz she really deserved it. Congrats Nadine!
in this time of the year...
I arrived at school at 1 o'clock in the afternoon just to find out that we don't have a class today on INTEREL because Mrs. Reyes have attended some important function... that means the start of my first class today is actually 4:30 PM... so I needed to spend 40 pesos for my internet usage outside, at WebTour PC shop specifically. Oh, I forgot to tell you, my hair is kinda looking good today because I have it relaxed last Sunday. Sorry but I don't have some interesting stories to share today... well, not quite... I do have some stories to tell:
a. doms and I talked until 9PM today... of course, we've shared interesting stories, exchanged views about some things... y'know, usual friends chika stuff.. hehe. We've talked about one type of guy, the kind who uses "psychiatry" in getting the babes. The type that acts as if he knows your real dilemmas in life, knows the person you are and tells you that he is the fittest guy to take so as to heal the wounds of your heart... lolz. She told me about some guy who hit on her one time with this kind of approach:
GUY: "man-hater ka no?"
DOMS: "hinde"
GUY: "hindi, aminin mo na, man-hater ka. akala mo lahat ng lalaki magkakatulad na lang. man-hater ka d ba?"
DOMS: "ewan ko sayo."
GUY: "gusto mo try natin?"
hahaha!! nakakatawa no... well, can't blame all those guys who hit on my friend Doms, coz she's really something. As much as I want to provide a picture of her here, I think I'd better not, she'll go hysterical once she knew about it. Doms is really allergic in seeing her own face... she so abhors vainglory... hehe.
she also told me about another guy telling her this:
GUY2: "ano na nga ulet pangalan nung kaibigan mong yun?" (referring to Ron, our common friend)
DOMS: "Ron! Ano ka ba!?"
GUY2: "pasensya ka na ha? Doms na lang ang alam kong pangalan eh.."
yeah right. haha!
b. ang kulet ni dwight kanina!! umiinom daw ako ng ihi!! haha! the reason why is because of my fondness in drinking apple flavored C2, which is urine-like in color. everytime i tried to drink, he'll make me hear something like, "mmm.. sarap ng ihi.." or "rakel, bakit ka umiinom ng ihi? sarap?", then may kasamang pang-asar na tawa! haha! ang kulet mo dwight! on my way sa sakayan, nasalubong ko naman siya, and guess what he was holding? An Apple flavored C2!! hahaha! Ihi pala dwight ha?! praning!
c. Herbert and I had a deep conversation about politics and personal stuff. I like his being openminded and understanding. Ikan, thanks for being the outlet of my emotions... thanks for seeing the good side in me.. thanks for being a friend. =D
a. doms and I talked until 9PM today... of course, we've shared interesting stories, exchanged views about some things... y'know, usual friends chika stuff.. hehe. We've talked about one type of guy, the kind who uses "psychiatry" in getting the babes. The type that acts as if he knows your real dilemmas in life, knows the person you are and tells you that he is the fittest guy to take so as to heal the wounds of your heart... lolz. She told me about some guy who hit on her one time with this kind of approach:
GUY: "man-hater ka no?"
DOMS: "hinde"
GUY: "hindi, aminin mo na, man-hater ka. akala mo lahat ng lalaki magkakatulad na lang. man-hater ka d ba?"
DOMS: "ewan ko sayo."
GUY: "gusto mo try natin?"
hahaha!! nakakatawa no... well, can't blame all those guys who hit on my friend Doms, coz she's really something. As much as I want to provide a picture of her here, I think I'd better not, she'll go hysterical once she knew about it. Doms is really allergic in seeing her own face... she so abhors vainglory... hehe.
she also told me about another guy telling her this:
GUY2: "ano na nga ulet pangalan nung kaibigan mong yun?" (referring to Ron, our common friend)
DOMS: "Ron! Ano ka ba!?"
GUY2: "pasensya ka na ha? Doms na lang ang alam kong pangalan eh.."
yeah right. haha!
b. ang kulet ni dwight kanina!! umiinom daw ako ng ihi!! haha! the reason why is because of my fondness in drinking apple flavored C2, which is urine-like in color. everytime i tried to drink, he'll make me hear something like, "mmm.. sarap ng ihi.." or "rakel, bakit ka umiinom ng ihi? sarap?", then may kasamang pang-asar na tawa! haha! ang kulet mo dwight! on my way sa sakayan, nasalubong ko naman siya, and guess what he was holding? An Apple flavored C2!! hahaha! Ihi pala dwight ha?! praning!
c. Herbert and I had a deep conversation about politics and personal stuff. I like his being openminded and understanding. Ikan, thanks for being the outlet of my emotions... thanks for seeing the good side in me.. thanks for being a friend. =D
a saddenign reality...
This is from Cranky's latest blog entry on her Friendster blog, I promise, it's worth your time:
people judge. cant help it. khet ano gwen mo, they just do, thats d way d cookie crumbles,teehee! now, 4 those who gets misunderstood evry once in a wyl, those who were put under scrutiny and those who just appreciate a good excuse for bein d "target"..relax. u dont have to go all crazy. i think, well,iv figured that evryone's normal until u get to know em. we hav r own weirdnez and were all sombody else's fool. evryone is insecure. power trippers with magnfcent egos will always bring u down. subtlety isnt in d context so,wut 2say with these rude/power trippin people? hmmm lemme think....
for those who talks too mch but knows so little..
"i can see ur point,but i still think ur full of it...."
"you have the right to remain silent,cause wutever u say will probbly be stupid anyway..."
those physical critics n d nman beautiful..
"i may be fat but ur ugly, and i cud go on a diet..."
those who implies perfection
"my imagnary friend thinks u hav SERIOUS PROBLEMS..."
for those who wont quit buggin u..
"Go away! i have enough friends already..."
then do ur evil laugh! { buwhahahaha!} this will shut ur corruptr up.
sad, kc andmeng gntong situations and this wont do u any good eh..i am not concerned with practical realities but with inner thoughts and feelings. i was always into that, inner thoughts and feelings..i beliv that ur not entitled to hurt any1 just because... i reason, i believ in emotions, i trust, and i hav faith..i beliv in people and their capabilities to love, to see u in a diffrnt light. im aiming for the stars,i know, but i trust people to be kind. idealistic? yep,this is hu i am,an introvert,a sentimental fool that enjoys rain on a june aftrnoon..i laugh and cry at the same time..thats me,thats wut made me different. and people laugh cause im different. i laugh cause your all the same.
I'm weird. You like it. You wouldn't be this far down the page if you weren't somehow transfixed by the oddity of it all. If you're weird, and people like it, this is for you..-cranky
[ my own ]
I've just learned a lesson today... no matter how hard some people try to bring you down, you'll never be down and low as long as you already have TRUE and GOOD friends to back you up and make your opponents back-off. You are truly an invincible persona when you have true friends... you are as twice as strong as you've known yourself before, a tower with a strong foundation that can't be easily demolished, a blinding light unappreciated by those who belong to the dark side of the world.
That's what I think of myself right now... thanks to the people who never doubted me and instead put me into a place which is of higher ground. My friends strengthened me so well that the negativities can only manage to bother me for short span of time.
[ losers ]
isn't it saddening when you already have all the money in the world and yet you can't buy with it the things you actually need to be happy? Isn't it more saddening when you have to badmouth someone and tell nasty rumors about him/her just to be able to reach that kind of satisfaction that your money can't bring you? you're rich but you know you don't have enough friends... real good friends? tsk.. your problem is quite serious... something that could lead to psychological imbalance. remember, there's only a thin line between sanity and the opposite of it... i advise you not to cross-over... haha! I pity you, loser.
[ bring me down! woohoo! ]
Haha! I've made it! I was appointed School Affairs Director of the ROTARACT CLUB of FEU! Thanks to Ma'am Gemzon! Thanks for believing ma'am! You never know how elated I am! Haha! thanks for putting you trust on me... I will try my best not to disappoint you and the rest of the club members. And to those people who practiced crab mentality and attacked unfairly just to bring me down, sorry losers, you're not as deserving as I am, so back-off and eat my dust! haha! still can't managed to bring me down, eh? try suicide.
If you didn't like my nice and good side, I assure you, you wouldn't like my bad side either. When I'm bad, I'm not just bad... I'm evil.
people judge. cant help it. khet ano gwen mo, they just do, thats d way d cookie crumbles,teehee! now, 4 those who gets misunderstood evry once in a wyl, those who were put under scrutiny and those who just appreciate a good excuse for bein d "target"..relax. u dont have to go all crazy. i think, well,iv figured that evryone's normal until u get to know em. we hav r own weirdnez and were all sombody else's fool. evryone is insecure. power trippers with magnfcent egos will always bring u down. subtlety isnt in d context so,wut 2say with these rude/power trippin people? hmmm lemme think....
for those who talks too mch but knows so little..
"i can see ur point,but i still think ur full of it...."
"you have the right to remain silent,cause wutever u say will probbly be stupid anyway..."
those physical critics n d nman beautiful..
"i may be fat but ur ugly, and i cud go on a diet..."
those who implies perfection
"my imagnary friend thinks u hav SERIOUS PROBLEMS..."
for those who wont quit buggin u..
"Go away! i have enough friends already..."
then do ur evil laugh! { buwhahahaha!} this will shut ur corruptr up.
sad, kc andmeng gntong situations and this wont do u any good eh..i am not concerned with practical realities but with inner thoughts and feelings. i was always into that, inner thoughts and feelings..i beliv that ur not entitled to hurt any1 just because... i reason, i believ in emotions, i trust, and i hav faith..i beliv in people and their capabilities to love, to see u in a diffrnt light. im aiming for the stars,i know, but i trust people to be kind. idealistic? yep,this is hu i am,an introvert,a sentimental fool that enjoys rain on a june aftrnoon..i laugh and cry at the same time..thats me,thats wut made me different. and people laugh cause im different. i laugh cause your all the same.
I'm weird. You like it. You wouldn't be this far down the page if you weren't somehow transfixed by the oddity of it all. If you're weird, and people like it, this is for you..-cranky
[ my own ]
I've just learned a lesson today... no matter how hard some people try to bring you down, you'll never be down and low as long as you already have TRUE and GOOD friends to back you up and make your opponents back-off. You are truly an invincible persona when you have true friends... you are as twice as strong as you've known yourself before, a tower with a strong foundation that can't be easily demolished, a blinding light unappreciated by those who belong to the dark side of the world.
That's what I think of myself right now... thanks to the people who never doubted me and instead put me into a place which is of higher ground. My friends strengthened me so well that the negativities can only manage to bother me for short span of time.
[ losers ]
isn't it saddening when you already have all the money in the world and yet you can't buy with it the things you actually need to be happy? Isn't it more saddening when you have to badmouth someone and tell nasty rumors about him/her just to be able to reach that kind of satisfaction that your money can't bring you? you're rich but you know you don't have enough friends... real good friends? tsk.. your problem is quite serious... something that could lead to psychological imbalance. remember, there's only a thin line between sanity and the opposite of it... i advise you not to cross-over... haha! I pity you, loser.
[ bring me down! woohoo! ]
Haha! I've made it! I was appointed School Affairs Director of the ROTARACT CLUB of FEU! Thanks to Ma'am Gemzon! Thanks for believing ma'am! You never know how elated I am! Haha! thanks for putting you trust on me... I will try my best not to disappoint you and the rest of the club members. And to those people who practiced crab mentality and attacked unfairly just to bring me down, sorry losers, you're not as deserving as I am, so back-off and eat my dust! haha! still can't managed to bring me down, eh? try suicide.
If you didn't like my nice and good side, I assure you, you wouldn't like my bad side either. When I'm bad, I'm not just bad... I'm evil.
yey! success!
I think yesterday's reporting in speech went well... I'm so glad that the entire P1 cooperated with us in the activity we prepared for them. I just realized something today regarding P1, they are really good in thinking outside the box. The realization came to me when we've grouped them for the activity of making a short commercial for a detergent bar. Their concepts are really worth to be applauded... and to think that we've only given them 10 minutes to practice... they have such creative minds.
Anyweiz, I don't know if I'm just trying to be optimistic, but I think the people who I have messed up relationship with are making efforts to show signs of reconciliation. I'm up to it, hundred percent, but not now. If they want to talk to me and ask certain sensitive questions, then fire away, and I'll try to give them straight answers (noticed the pun?), but don't they dare send that old hag as their representative coz what I've planned to be engaged in at this time is cold war, so don't provoke shooting war by sending her to me! I don't have time for pathetic feelingeras.
Ahhh!! I want to be an officer of the Rotaract Club in FEU!! But I guess Czar had already fixed his eyes on the presidency, so I think I have to settle for something less... hehe. Ah basta, I'll ask my friends to give me a seat in the club by insisting them to nominate me then eventually vote for me... please, classmates, please?? Well, if I'm not really destined to be an officer of Rotaract, I'll just satisfy myself with the fact that, at the very least, I'm one of the founding members of the Rotaract Club in FEU.
Anyweiz, I don't know if I'm just trying to be optimistic, but I think the people who I have messed up relationship with are making efforts to show signs of reconciliation. I'm up to it, hundred percent, but not now. If they want to talk to me and ask certain sensitive questions, then fire away, and I'll try to give them straight answers (noticed the pun?), but don't they dare send that old hag as their representative coz what I've planned to be engaged in at this time is cold war, so don't provoke shooting war by sending her to me! I don't have time for pathetic feelingeras.
Ahhh!! I want to be an officer of the Rotaract Club in FEU!! But I guess Czar had already fixed his eyes on the presidency, so I think I have to settle for something less... hehe. Ah basta, I'll ask my friends to give me a seat in the club by insisting them to nominate me then eventually vote for me... please, classmates, please?? Well, if I'm not really destined to be an officer of Rotaract, I'll just satisfy myself with the fact that, at the very least, I'm one of the founding members of the Rotaract Club in FEU.
kim's request
kim requested for this file:
The One Minute Manager - Ken Blanchard and Spencer Johnson
I suggest you, whoever you are, to download the same file and read it. It's in PDF format, 71 pages only.
The One Minute Manager - Ken Blanchard and Spencer Johnson
I suggest you, whoever you are, to download the same file and read it. It's in PDF format, 71 pages only.
wtf?!?!
arrgghhh!! sana naman maging OK ung presentation namin tomorrow sa speech class!!
I've just heard from Paul that there will be another Quiz Bowl scheduled next month. This time, the fight will be IAS inter-departmental level(is that right? I'm not sure what term to use, so bear with me.), meaning there will be representatives from the different IAS courses - a pair from masscom, a pair from the english and so on. I will be the other half of PolSci's representative, being the other half of last sem's Political Science quiz bowl champions, with Paul as my partner. But Paul told me that he can't be my partner in the coming IAS quiz bowl because he was qualified from doing so, being a member of an org I beleve. He said that there will be an elimination round for prospective partners... I just hope he/she is as good as Paul... =D
errors of this entry will be fixed later, I'm in a hurry... thanks.
I've just heard from Paul that there will be another Quiz Bowl scheduled next month. This time, the fight will be IAS inter-departmental level(is that right? I'm not sure what term to use, so bear with me.), meaning there will be representatives from the different IAS courses - a pair from masscom, a pair from the english and so on. I will be the other half of PolSci's representative, being the other half of last sem's Political Science quiz bowl champions, with Paul as my partner. But Paul told me that he can't be my partner in the coming IAS quiz bowl because he was qualified from doing so, being a member of an org I beleve. He said that there will be an elimination round for prospective partners... I just hope he/she is as good as Paul... =D
errors of this entry will be fixed later, I'm in a hurry... thanks.
the skeleton key
[ movie reviews ]
had downloaded and watched two movies today, one is Herbie: Fully Loaded (starring Lindsay Lohan) and the other is The Skeleton Key which starred Kate Hudson (showing will start Aug. 12 in U.S, I don't know if it will be released here)
Well, Herbie Fully Loaded is a fun and entertaining movie, it's not that good, but it's OK. The Skeleton Key is my kind of horror flick. It doesn't feature montrous entities or walking skeletons (lolz). I just find the concept original and the story, unpredictable. The story progresses slowly, so if you're the type who wants instant action, you'll just probably doze off, but if you got the patience to wait for the big twist, sit tight and I promise, you'll be hooked as soon as you hit the last 30 minutes of the movie. here, I've provided you some scenes from the movie:
[ spoiler shots ]
had downloaded and watched two movies today, one is Herbie: Fully Loaded (starring Lindsay Lohan) and the other is The Skeleton Key which starred Kate Hudson (showing will start Aug. 12 in U.S, I don't know if it will be released here)
Well, Herbie Fully Loaded is a fun and entertaining movie, it's not that good, but it's OK. The Skeleton Key is my kind of horror flick. It doesn't feature montrous entities or walking skeletons (lolz). I just find the concept original and the story, unpredictable. The story progresses slowly, so if you're the type who wants instant action, you'll just probably doze off, but if you got the patience to wait for the big twist, sit tight and I promise, you'll be hooked as soon as you hit the last 30 minutes of the movie. here, I've provided you some scenes from the movie:
[ spoiler shots ]
a different kind of Irony
nakakatawa ako ngayon. hindi ako nakapag-exam sa stats, di ko rin naipasa ung ginawa kong assignment kasi nawawala. muntik na rin akong hindi nakapasok kasi wala akong baon, hindi pa kasi umuuwi si kuya. sa speech class naman namin, ako ung reason kaya natagalan kami matapos sa huling activity sa group dynamics, ayaw kasi kumapit ng papel sa foot ko. sa techwrite naman, ang hirap pala i-explain ng Facial Recognition System, yun pa ang pinili ko! haha! nakakatawa talaga! Medyo may pagkamalas lang talaga ang araw na ito... pero di bale, nakakatawa naman eh. eto pa, nung dini-discuss ko sa mga kagrupo ko sa speech kung ano ang gagawin namin this coming wednesday sa presentation namin, at paano namin gagawin ang mga yun, feeling ko, nagkakaroon kami ng clash of ideas nung leader namin. how ironic... kasi ang topic namin is all about teamwork, tapos we can't make our own team work. we only have three days left to practice, but as of now, we don't have anything yet to practice. haaay.
falling all over again...
[ senti! senti! ]
too much hating naman dito sa site na ito, konting love muna... *kilig* hehe.
It took
one look
and forever lay out in front of me
I often laugh at you, pointing out on your every little pretty imperfections. It makes me happy doing that, to be able to find even just a slight defect on you... because you seem so perfect to me. But I guess your faults only adds up to the reasons why I consider you perfect.
One smile
then I died
only to be revived by you
You may never know this, but in everything I do, you are part of the inspiration that drives me to work hard and give my best. It's hard to be something in this world, but I will try, and try again if ever I stumble and fall, just to let you know how much strength you've given me to go on.
There I was
thought I had everything
figured out
goes to show just how much I know
bout the way life plays out
i take one step away
and I find myself coming back
to you
my one and only
one and only
you..
You will never be history in my life, only an eternal present. If I can't make you stay, then I have no choice but to walk away with you. If you don't want me to go with you, then I have no choice but to just continue my life alone, feeling complete, knowing that I've found my purpose on earth by becoming a better person because of you. Thank you for touching my life, for letting me experience the magic of unconditional love.
Italicized text are lyrics from the song "Your Song", by Parokya ni Edgar
too much hating naman dito sa site na ito, konting love muna... *kilig* hehe.
It took
one look
and forever lay out in front of me
I often laugh at you, pointing out on your every little pretty imperfections. It makes me happy doing that, to be able to find even just a slight defect on you... because you seem so perfect to me. But I guess your faults only adds up to the reasons why I consider you perfect.
One smile
then I died
only to be revived by you
You may never know this, but in everything I do, you are part of the inspiration that drives me to work hard and give my best. It's hard to be something in this world, but I will try, and try again if ever I stumble and fall, just to let you know how much strength you've given me to go on.
There I was
thought I had everything
figured out
goes to show just how much I know
bout the way life plays out
i take one step away
and I find myself coming back
to you
my one and only
one and only
you..
You will never be history in my life, only an eternal present. If I can't make you stay, then I have no choice but to walk away with you. If you don't want me to go with you, then I have no choice but to just continue my life alone, feeling complete, knowing that I've found my purpose on earth by becoming a better person because of you. Thank you for touching my life, for letting me experience the magic of unconditional love.
Italicized text are lyrics from the song "Your Song", by Parokya ni Edgar
i wanna share this...
I spent the whole day in front of the PC (uh, ok, I guess there's nothing new with that.. lolz) but this time, I ain't just killing time, I was looking for websites that contain information on the topic we will be discussing on our speech class ( i think on tuesday), coz, yeah, it's our groups turn to report. Anyweiz, I found a feel-good article written by Ken Blanchard (the author of "One Minute Manager", which is part of our report) that I want to share here:
[ The Limitations of Perfection ]
The minute there is a right and wrong way of doing things, you start to fear failure.by Ken Blanchard
During the first week of January, our family goes to Aspen, Colorado, to participate in a week-long ski program titled "The Magic of Skiing," run by Tom Crum. Tom, an expert in aikido, a Japanese art of self-defense, is the author of The Magic of Conflict.
In aikido, if someone goes to punch you, you are taught not to block the punch. When you try to block a punch, you are using resistance -- your power and strength against the other person's power and strength. That sets up a win-lose confrontation. Instead, teachers recommend stepping aside with an accepting and pivoting movement. This will use the attacker's energy against him or her.
The key to all of this is to learn how to be centered mentally, with both mind and body relaxed and alert. It is in this state of heightened awareness and connectedness that thinking mechanics cease and the flow, or zone, begins.
You can let go of some of those interfering technical thoughts on the ski slopes by focusing on simple physiological responses like breathing, according to Tom. All great athletic movements are done fluidly, without tension. If your breathing is full and continuous, so is the body's state of movement and relaxation. If the breath is held or shallow, the body's movements will be correspondingly rigid and discontinuous. Smooth and powerful breathing will result in smooth tempo and graceful skiing.
Applying this principle to skiing, try "breathing in" as you approach a turn and "breathing out" as you make the turn, suggests Tom. In the process, visualize your breath and energy heading down the hill.
Tom's program shows how skiing is very much like other aspects of our lives. In most cases, you are not reacting to what someone else does but are focused on what you are doing. You are in charge. Tom teaches you to get out of your evaluative role in life and, instead, to experience, enjoy and learn.
One of the things that I have relearned from Tom is the limits of perfection vs. the power of discovery. Tom emphasizes this difference throughout his work.
When you get caught in the perfection trap, you evaluate your performance based on some model. In other words, there is a right and wrong way of doing things. The minute there is a right and wrong way of doing things, you start to fear failure. You don't want to be "wrong." As a result, you often become unwilling to take a risk. When that happens, your focus is on excessive control and judgment. You want to play it safe.
Tom works a lot with schools. When he works with youngsters in kindergarten, he never asks for volunteers. Why? The whole class would jump to their feet. Young children have not learned about perfection yet. They don't even think that there is a possibility of looking like a fool.
It's very different when children get to high school, says Tom. When you ask for volunteers, no one will step forward. They are afraid of being judged. They have learned that there is a right and wrong way to do things, and they should be careful about "sticking their neck out" and volunteering. Why the difference?
Young people understand the power of discovery. When you see a child learning to walk and they fall, when they look up, what do you see? A tremendous grin. They do not evaluate themselves. They just think learning to walk is fun. "I guess that didn't work. Maybe I ought to try something else." They do not evaluate their performance but are into experiencing the moment. They are spontaneous. They are willing to risk. Why? Because they have not learned about perfection. Judgment has not entered their life yet.
The limits of perfection and the power of discovery helped me to see that we need to relearn our spirit of discovery in organizations. If we are to be truly learning organizations, then all of us -- including managers -- need to drop our evaluative and judgmental sides. We should look at everything as an opportunity to learn and discover.
There are no rights and wrongs; there are just experiences. If people are free to learn from experience rather than being fearful of being judged and put down, the potential performance of your organization would amaze you.
[ mama's arrival ]
... will be on September 4, this year. Good Luck sakin. haha! Oi 4A, kung ako sa inyo, yayain nyo na ko ng lakwatsa dahil for sure, good girl na naman ako pagdating ni mama. hehe.
[ hurray for torrents! ]
I'm currently downloading the latest full albums of these artists:
alanis morisette - jagged little pill acoustic
jason mraz - mr. a-z
babyface - grown and sexy
will burn 'em as soon as the downloads turned 100% finished... ;)
[ The Limitations of Perfection ]
The minute there is a right and wrong way of doing things, you start to fear failure.by Ken Blanchard
During the first week of January, our family goes to Aspen, Colorado, to participate in a week-long ski program titled "The Magic of Skiing," run by Tom Crum. Tom, an expert in aikido, a Japanese art of self-defense, is the author of The Magic of Conflict.
In aikido, if someone goes to punch you, you are taught not to block the punch. When you try to block a punch, you are using resistance -- your power and strength against the other person's power and strength. That sets up a win-lose confrontation. Instead, teachers recommend stepping aside with an accepting and pivoting movement. This will use the attacker's energy against him or her.
The key to all of this is to learn how to be centered mentally, with both mind and body relaxed and alert. It is in this state of heightened awareness and connectedness that thinking mechanics cease and the flow, or zone, begins.
You can let go of some of those interfering technical thoughts on the ski slopes by focusing on simple physiological responses like breathing, according to Tom. All great athletic movements are done fluidly, without tension. If your breathing is full and continuous, so is the body's state of movement and relaxation. If the breath is held or shallow, the body's movements will be correspondingly rigid and discontinuous. Smooth and powerful breathing will result in smooth tempo and graceful skiing.
Applying this principle to skiing, try "breathing in" as you approach a turn and "breathing out" as you make the turn, suggests Tom. In the process, visualize your breath and energy heading down the hill.
Tom's program shows how skiing is very much like other aspects of our lives. In most cases, you are not reacting to what someone else does but are focused on what you are doing. You are in charge. Tom teaches you to get out of your evaluative role in life and, instead, to experience, enjoy and learn.
One of the things that I have relearned from Tom is the limits of perfection vs. the power of discovery. Tom emphasizes this difference throughout his work.
When you get caught in the perfection trap, you evaluate your performance based on some model. In other words, there is a right and wrong way of doing things. The minute there is a right and wrong way of doing things, you start to fear failure. You don't want to be "wrong." As a result, you often become unwilling to take a risk. When that happens, your focus is on excessive control and judgment. You want to play it safe.
Tom works a lot with schools. When he works with youngsters in kindergarten, he never asks for volunteers. Why? The whole class would jump to their feet. Young children have not learned about perfection yet. They don't even think that there is a possibility of looking like a fool.
It's very different when children get to high school, says Tom. When you ask for volunteers, no one will step forward. They are afraid of being judged. They have learned that there is a right and wrong way to do things, and they should be careful about "sticking their neck out" and volunteering. Why the difference?
Young people understand the power of discovery. When you see a child learning to walk and they fall, when they look up, what do you see? A tremendous grin. They do not evaluate themselves. They just think learning to walk is fun. "I guess that didn't work. Maybe I ought to try something else." They do not evaluate their performance but are into experiencing the moment. They are spontaneous. They are willing to risk. Why? Because they have not learned about perfection. Judgment has not entered their life yet.
The limits of perfection and the power of discovery helped me to see that we need to relearn our spirit of discovery in organizations. If we are to be truly learning organizations, then all of us -- including managers -- need to drop our evaluative and judgmental sides. We should look at everything as an opportunity to learn and discover.
There are no rights and wrongs; there are just experiences. If people are free to learn from experience rather than being fearful of being judged and put down, the potential performance of your organization would amaze you.
[ mama's arrival ]
... will be on September 4, this year. Good Luck sakin. haha! Oi 4A, kung ako sa inyo, yayain nyo na ko ng lakwatsa dahil for sure, good girl na naman ako pagdating ni mama. hehe.
[ hurray for torrents! ]
I'm currently downloading the latest full albums of these artists:
alanis morisette - jagged little pill acoustic
jason mraz - mr. a-z
babyface - grown and sexy
will burn 'em as soon as the downloads turned 100% finished... ;)
forum ba ito?!
OrgName: UCI Medical Center
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Address: 101 The City Drive
City: Orange
StateProv: CA
PostalCode: 92868
Country: US
NetRange: 160.87.0.0 - 160.87.255.255 ... this means that IP Addresses 160.87.65.221 and 160.87.65.211 belonged to this range.
sa speech class...
a very timely open forum. nakakatuwa na nakakainis pa rin. nagkalabasan na ng sama ng loob, may nalinawan, may lalong nabulagan. may umiyak - may naawa, may sing-tigas pa rin ng bato ang puso. may mga mataas ang pride, meron din namang mga taong pinapayagang apakan lang ang kanilang pride. may mga nagbigay katwiran sa mali, meron namang ayaw ipagsigawan ang tama. differences, puro differences. haay... sana magkaayos na sila. kami naman ng kaaway ko, ITULOY ANG COLD WAR! haha, racquel.. haha.
*updates!* OK na sila rhia!! yehey! thanks to the organizers of the forum!!
on aug. 4
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MS. RIONALYN RADAM & MS. JAISY SANCHEZ
Inuman na!
OrgID: UMC
Address: 101 The City Drive
City: Orange
StateProv: CA
PostalCode: 92868
Country: US
NetRange: 160.87.0.0 - 160.87.255.255 ... this means that IP Addresses 160.87.65.221 and 160.87.65.211 belonged to this range.
sa speech class...
a very timely open forum. nakakatuwa na nakakainis pa rin. nagkalabasan na ng sama ng loob, may nalinawan, may lalong nabulagan. may umiyak - may naawa, may sing-tigas pa rin ng bato ang puso. may mga mataas ang pride, meron din namang mga taong pinapayagang apakan lang ang kanilang pride. may mga nagbigay katwiran sa mali, meron namang ayaw ipagsigawan ang tama. differences, puro differences. haay... sana magkaayos na sila. kami naman ng kaaway ko, ITULOY ANG COLD WAR! haha, racquel.. haha.
*updates!* OK na sila rhia!! yehey! thanks to the organizers of the forum!!
on aug. 4
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MS. RIONALYN RADAM & MS. JAISY SANCHEZ
Inuman na!
thank you..
[ angry? who's angry? ]
thanks for calling me smart... and really, I'm not angry at you. I'm learning from you. Well, that's how you see me, can't do anything about it. If you believe I think TOO highly of myself, I consider it an opinion... and I value the opinions of others, especially of my visitors. Thanks for the criticisms. I wish you didn't delete me on your friend's list on friendster, we could've known each other better.
Siguro nga tama ka, there's a part of me that I still can't accept.
Drop by again... =D
[ whhaaatt??! ]
bakit kaya nila ko pinapansin? hindi ko na alam tuloy kung anong dapat kong isipin. hmm.. sana si rhiane na lang pansinin nila. sana wag na rin silang magparinig kay rhia. sana mabasa nila to.
[ chwimming na! ]
yey! overnight swimming sa birthday ni bobbie! hala... malapit na rin pala b-day nila rio and jaisy! happy beerday! hehe... ay teka, kung aug. 19 ung alis para sa swimming, for sure aug. 20 pa ng gabi ang uwi... teka.. may klase ata ako nun!! friday and saturday un eh!! teka... baka hindi pala ako makasama. hmm.. pag may scheduled exam, di na lang ako sasama. pero pag wala naman, GO na! hehe...
thanks for calling me smart... and really, I'm not angry at you. I'm learning from you. Well, that's how you see me, can't do anything about it. If you believe I think TOO highly of myself, I consider it an opinion... and I value the opinions of others, especially of my visitors. Thanks for the criticisms. I wish you didn't delete me on your friend's list on friendster, we could've known each other better.
Siguro nga tama ka, there's a part of me that I still can't accept.
Drop by again... =D
[ whhaaatt??! ]
bakit kaya nila ko pinapansin? hindi ko na alam tuloy kung anong dapat kong isipin. hmm.. sana si rhiane na lang pansinin nila. sana wag na rin silang magparinig kay rhia. sana mabasa nila to.
[ chwimming na! ]
yey! overnight swimming sa birthday ni bobbie! hala... malapit na rin pala b-day nila rio and jaisy! happy beerday! hehe... ay teka, kung aug. 19 ung alis para sa swimming, for sure aug. 20 pa ng gabi ang uwi... teka.. may klase ata ako nun!! friday and saturday un eh!! teka... baka hindi pala ako makasama. hmm.. pag may scheduled exam, di na lang ako sasama. pero pag wala naman, GO na! hehe...
