so.. everyone's shocked?

constantine: booted off by America... maybe he'll just continue to "pray for the soul of betty"...

franz paid a visit to my crib yesterday and she gave me the most beautiful bracelet in the whole wide world (ok, that's exaggerated).. it's composed of uneven shaped stones of colors green and orange.. my fave combination of colors! thanks franz! alam ko namang to pay that off, I must download every single American Idol 4 songs noh! pahirap ka talaga!! haha! speaking of AI4, after singing a horrendous version (lyrics messed up and he just can't do it better than Chad Kroeger's version.. sorry) of an all-time favorite song of mine - Nickelback's "How You Remind Me", Cons is now out of AI4 race.. don't worry Constantine fans, Cons and his band, altogether known as "Pray For The Soul Of Betty" will be having an album out on May 10. uh-oh.. I'm not an anti-Constantine, but this image from tvgasm.com is way too funny not to share:



thoughts, questions and hmm.. more questions:

Up to this moment, we still don't have a decent TV working and I can't manage to watch music videos anymore.. but late thursday night, I got hold of the remote control of my aunt's TV and glared at the screen of her black and white TOSHIBA TV for a couple of hours. On MYX is Lindsay Lohan's "Over".. after watching the video, I felt dizzy and nauseated... because I just can't comprehend to what the video is trying to convey! I mean, you can call me stupid, but the short love story that was told there is just sooo freakin' me out!! A father trying to keep off his son from Lindsay? and although a hunky, is bullied easily by his father? and... is that it?! well, that really is some new idea... but still a stupid one! I'm not bashing Lindsay! I'm actually kinda liking her because her songs are worth a listen but over's video just left my eyes burning..

Queer Eye for OPM Songs

SAME GROUND
Kitchie Nadal's "Same Ground" is just soooo beautiful... even if you take away the melody, the words alone can leave a mark on your heart.. and.. I love the video too! *claps*

Please bear with me for today's long entry, but I didn't manage to go online for a couple of days so there's a lot of thoughts still hanging on my mind.. but.. ok, I'm done for today's post..

Oh-my: I wish we'll have a get-together at Leo's place on May 1's Fiesta.

haha. hehe. huhu

may nakita ulet akong pagka-ganda-gandang artwork sa deviantart kaya share ko dito:





I stated here before that I'm not really into telebabad.. but yesterday, I did make a few phone calls to people who really matters to me... evita, blanche and jean.

as for evita, of course, we talked about a lot of things... hmm.. mostly about things na pareho kaming interesado pag-usapan.. like.. hmm.. blogging? ;) yeah right... hahaha

si blanche naman, sosyal! sikat! ay hindi pala.. hoy blanche! kala ko ba sikat SYA?! bakit wala akong makitang pic nya sa internet?! wahaha! well, i've seen the sikat guy she's referring to.. wow.. record breaker nga e.. sa amin na lang yun ni blanche kung sino yun..

si jean - eto ang totoong SIKAT!! wahaha!! chempre sa amin na lang din yun.. hehehehe.. magna cum laude kasi siya eh.. atsaka, atsaka... eon lang.

kung gusto nyo ng full stories ng mga nagpapag-usapan namin, halughugin nyo ang buong world wide web para makita ang aking private blog... hehe.. andun lahat.. ah ewan.. puro kabulastugan na lang ang nandito lagi sa mainsite ko.. hehehe.

ay teka, kwento ko rin pala, ang sakit ng muscles ko sa legs dahil sa pagja-jogging ko sa umaga.. haaayy.. ammp! hindi ako nagpapapayat no!? I just feel sick kapag hindi ako napagpapawisan eh.. lagi na lang kasi akong nakahiga ngayon.. gusto ko na ngang pumasok eh.. boring ng life.. huhuhu.. =D

you know what I realized when I bloghopped today? successful people do blogging. I've managed to stumble upon the blogsites of Tom Green, Hanagirl (Hotleg's Dance choreographer), Ala Paredes and Melanie Griffith (Antonio Banderas' wifey)..

the new pope..

from msnbc.com:

VATICAN CITY - Cardinal Joseph Ratzinger of Germany, a hard-line guardian of conservative doctrine, was elected the new pope Tuesday evening in the first conclave of the new millennium. He chose the name Pope Benedict XVI and called himself “a simple, humble worker.”





Congats to the new pope.. just give it your best shot! ;)

I called Blanche last friday night, about 10pm, and we talked on the phone until 1am.. we had a short conversation about the newly elected pope.. it was something like this:

blanche: nakita mo ba ung bagong pope?
ako: oo.
blanche: nakakatakot ung itsura no?
ako: ako nga nung makita ko sa TV, sabi ko, "yan ba ung bagong pope? bakit mukang masama?
both: "laughs"

prejudice ba kami? oo nga yata.. hehe.. first impressions lang naman po.. ganito na talaga mga kabataan ngaun, hindi na kasi inhibited, gusto lang sabihin kung ano ang mga opi-opinyon na galing sa obserbasyon.. so eon.. sorry ha?

old new haircut...

Goodbye Anwar...

What the hell happened to AI4? Do people gone dumb already? Watching Anwar Robinson being voted off and leave earlier than Anthony Fedorov and Scott Savol disgusted me soo much!!! Well... some things just don't go right...

I had a new haircut, uhmm.. old new haircut is the right word.. hehe.. had it cut last thursday...



NOON



NGAYON



I know, the new haircut sucks.. hahaba rin naman ulet eh..

Kagabi, kinuha ni franz ung Rob Thomas' "Something to be" album.. eon, dapat sa kanto lang kami magkikita then uwi na xa.. pero niyaya ko xang kumain muna sa bahay.. pero hindi ko naman siya pinakain.. hahaha!! ganda nga daw ng mga songs ni Rob eh.. nainlab na naman.. hehe

the weirdest thing..

I did the weirdest thing last night... bigla na lang akong umiyak.. dahil lang sa mga thoughts na tumatakbo sa isip ko. ang corny noh? kasi naman eh.. I'm really confused about something.. and I just remembered that damn thing Evita told me dati pa.. "Dapat *ano* ka na.. you deserved to be happy... mabait ka kasi eh.." not the exact words but it has the exact thought.. basta something to that effect.

HAHA. natatawa tuloy ako sa sarili ko ngaun.. yuck.. ang korni talaga.. yan tuloy, when I woke up this morning, parang ang bigat ng mga talukap ng mga mata ko. NAKAKAINIS, pinahirapan ko lang naman sarili ko sa ginawa ko.. bakit ba kailangan pang isipin un? una, hindi naman ako mabait.. hehe.. at kung mabait man ako, hindi naman siguro lahat ng mababait ay may lovelife.. hehe.. marami akong kilalang ganun eh..

But it felt good. Parang ang light ng feeling ko after sheding some tears..

gusto ko lang din i-share ung nagawa kong poem during that time.. another untitled poem.. kinda corny.. nah.. corny talaga, hindi pala kinda.. hehe.. pagtiisan nyo na lang



Akala ko pinagbuksan mo na ako ng pinto
Pinatuloy na ang damdaming nilalamig sa labas
Pinatikim ng konting init - ng iyong panahon
magkasamang tumatawa, masaya sa isa't-isa
Wala nang mahihiling pa sa mga yakap mong ibinigay...

Pero natauhan din,
nananaginip lang pala nang gising
nalaman nang bumitaw na naman ng luha ang mga mata
bumalik sa totoong buhay ang diwa kong mapantasya
at hinarap ang katotohanang mahal kita
at wala kang pakialam

a different story

haay salamat, natapos rin ang swimming.. I'd like to post details here but I had mixed up feelings about our outing that it would be better if I just post the detailed story on my other blogsite...

sana mapa-develop na ung pixx nung outing namin.. sayang.. sana parang instant mami na lang kung pinayagan lang sana akong dalhin ni kuya ung digicam.. saksak USB, copy, paste, upload sa internet.. kita kagad. haaay.. sayang talaga.

so eon, today, I managed to clean up my room.. pinagod talaga ako ng kwarto kong napakarumi.. that right after putting everything on its right place, I dozed off.. it's just sooo tiring... parang ung ibang tao sa paligid ko.. dapat tinutulugan kasi nakakapagod na rin silang isipin at intindihin.

lame rumors

first off, even if Anwar is really Gay, I still love his voice and will continue to support him on American Idol.

free mp3s:

Bohemian Rhapsody - Constantine

Never Love this Way Again - Anwar Robinson

Everytime You go Away - Anthony Fedorov

I finally had the chance to watch American Idol last wednesday&thursday.. as expected, I fell in love once again with the show.. but unlike many AI4 fans, NOT with CONSTANTINE MAROULIS. yeah, the tongue's cute and the rock star look is likeable, but hey! let's face the fact that he isn't the best singer/performer in AI4.. although I still believe that he'll make it to the top 3... with BO and ANWAR, yes, ladies and gents, my instinct, together with my music-lover ear tells me so. My prediction is: No lady will make it to the top 3.


Nadia Turner Had Bid Farewell

Pero, malay nyo rin, mali din kasi ako ng prediction last AI3 na si Latoya London ang mananalo eh..

YEHEY!! ang saya! TULOY na TULOY na ang outing ng 4A tomorrow!! wahahaha!!! and guess what? my fansite is being applauded! ..hmm.. life is really good. ;)

products of my boredom

images from deviantart.com



dear room

four walls, witness my emotions pour out
unbarred, watch me take the sympathy you offered
enclosed me within your consoling darkness
be my grave as I let my soul turn numb as I feel the coldness
bury me inside your kind-hearted emptiness
reserved for my hidden frustrations and silent cries
scream with me - names - that murdered my privilege to dream
join me, we will laugh off this tiny piece of sanity left in me

P.S.
help me pretend that I enjoy this life-long bleeding



New Song>

a song playing on the air
the same song I used to dedicate to you
as lovely as you are, the beauty of its melody
touched my heart in the same you've touched mine
I'll suddenly fall into trance, a spirit uplifted
with reasons I never dared question to find

used to, have beens - simply pertains to things abandoned and forgotten
no more love songs to give hope
a broken record is not worth being listened to
years of an unrequitted love had gave way to its end
now fading out, the music lover moves to play a new song...

99.99% bored

Birthday ng kapatid kong bading.. hehe. But the celebration will be held tomorrow.

Wow. ang boring ng bakasyon ko! wala pang TV! may phone nga, nakakatamad naman magtawag... ano namang sasabihin ko sa kanila? hello, nabobored ako eh, pwede bang sayangin oras mo at maghingahan tayo sa phone? duh. gusto ko sanang gumawa ng bagong interface para sa gagawin kong bagong layout ng site ko, pero ang bagal naman ng unit na may naka-install na Adobe Photoshop... kanina nga lang eh, parang it took almost forever to open, nag-hang pa nung first attempt kong buksan.. dami na kasing files nitong unit na to...

buti na lang there's a friend of my brother who brought a game board many more weeks ago na pwedeng paglibangan.. tha millionaire's game - the local version of Monopoly.. hihi.. nakakatamad xa minsan laruin, pero ayos pa rin naman dahil mejo nakakatuwa naman pag ikaw ang nananalo.

I've written a couple of poems last night.. products of boredom and some other emotions kept hidden all these times.. hehe.. or maybe just boredom lang, minus the emotions kept hidden all those times.. I'll post them on my next day entry.

I answered a silly but hilarious survey thingy on Friendster.. it made me laugh a few times so I guess it deserved a spot on this entry:

1). YOUR PORN STAR NAME -
(NAME OF FIRST PET +
STREET YOU LIVE ON):

"ten-ten leyte" hahahah! asong porn star!

2). YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME -
(GRANDMOTHER'S FIRST NAME +
FAVORITE SNACK FOOD):

:: "saturnina cheesering" hey, not bad! hahahahah.

3). YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME -
(FIRST WORD YOU SEE ON YOUR LEFT +
FAVORITE RESTAURANT):

:: "message chowking" well, this
one doesn't make sense now, does it? haha

5). YOUR SOCIALITE NAME -
(SILLIEST CHILDHOOD NICKNAME +
FIRST TOWN WHERE YOU PARTIED):

:: "bayang makati" I'm not really sure if makati as a town is valid though..

6). YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME -
(FIRST INITIAL +
FIRST THREE LETTERS OF YOUR LAST NAME):

:: "RBAL"

7). YOUR DETECTIVE NAME -
(FAVORITE ANIMAL +
NAME OF HIGH SCHOOL):

"raccoon general pio del pilar"
tsk, tsk anybody who wants to be a detective with this name?


8). YOUR BARFLY NAME -
(LAST SNACK FOOD YOU ATE +
YOUR FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK):

:: "cheesecake redhorse" -- CUTE!

9). YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME -
(MIDDLE NAME +
STREET WHERE YOU FIRST LIVED):

:: "tanglib leyte" doesn't sound like a name anymore!

10). YOUR ROCK STAR NAME -
(FAVORITE CANDY +
FAVORITE MUSICIAN'S LAST NAME):

:: "mentos keys" the freshmaker!!!
rock on!! haha!

11). YOUR "POPULAR" NAME -
(FAVORITE CELEBRITY'S FIRST NAME +
BEST FRIEND'S CITY NAME):

:: "sandra mandaluyong" waahahahahaha!

12). YOUR OPPOSITE SEX NAME -
(NAME OF [OPPOSITE SEX] FRIEND +
CELL PHONE COMPANY YOU USE):

:: "_____ smart" naks... naaaksss.
bagaaaaayyy!!!

what's happening?

I didn't update for the last two days coz something's messed up, it's either our PC's internet connection or the Blogger, Friendster and Deviantart sites.

Anyweiz, I started to make my own designs on Adobe Photoshop yesterday. And I just realized that it's one helluva design program!! Although I'm still at the process of familiarizing myself with the different tools, I know that in a month or two, creating designs will be just easy breezy... well, hopefully. =D

You know what? I think I want to shift to another course... something computer and design related..

I've managed to create 2 designs with the help of some tutorials on the net and I'll be posting them here later (because I saved the images in the other PC, and it's off right now).. visit again to check them out!

[this is part of my kitehost.com blog entry yesterday]

What I've been doing this summer? Okay, there are mainly two things - eating and surfing the net... I don't wanna talk about the eating part... There's so may things I want to do in a computer but there are some hindrances to my plans. Like, I don't own a computer, the PC I'm using belongs to my brother. I can't install programs that I want to know about (like Flash), I can't open the PC anytime I want to because I can only use it whenever my brother's away or asleep. But I'm still thankful coz I've got to use the PC for long hours and I can be considered the "other" owner coz I can act like one when my brother's not around.. =D

good news and bad news

good news and bad news

bad news first, hindi natuloy ang swimming namin ng 4A. ewan ko kung matutuloy pa, sa April 16 na lang "DAW" (all caps na daw na may kasamang cliches pa) iba-iba ang naramdaman ko nung dumating ako kina leo na tatlong 4a lang dinatnan ko, at mas dumami pa ung naramdaman ko nung sumapit na ang gabi at nadagdagan lang ng dalawang 4a pa..

da mixed up feelings

nakakainis - kasi, hindi naman kami nagyaya ng swimming para lang may makasama sa pagsasaya o pag-uubos ng pera. Nagplano kami ng ganito para magkasama-sama naman kaming mga 4A this summer. Akala nila, wala lang kaming mapag-gamitan ng oras namin, kaya namin sila tinatawagan, kinukulit at tine-text para lang sumama sila. Minsan tuloy, gusto ko na ring isipin na nasasayang lang oras namin - pilit kami ng pilit, in the end of it all, taaddaannn!! hindi naman pala talaga sila sasama.

sana ung mga walang pera, magka-pera na. hindi ko naman kayo sinisisi, wala naman talagang mayaman sa atin.

nakakatuwa - kasi, na-save ko ung pera ko, wala pa kasi kaming pera ngaun, baka sa April 12 pa magpadala si mama. May na-save lang akong 300, pero okei na yun, nangutang pa ko ng 100 sa pinsan ko para madagdagan.. tsk,tsk.. para saan pa un? kaya ginamit ko na ngaun, pumunta kasi kami ngaun ng dalawa kong pinsan (si tanya and balong) sa Robinson's Place para ma-i-treat ko sila dahil pareho silang top-notchers sa school nila. kaya as of now, wala na akong pera. pag natuloy sa April 16 at hindi dumating ang pera namin, hindi na ako makakasama.

kung ano man ang nararamdaman ni JAKE ngaun, cguro un din ang nadarama ko ngaun. mahirap i-explain... bahala na.

good news:

sa wakas, nakagawa rin ng pop-up download area na nadagdagan ng isang video download. hindi scandal, politikal. nakakatuwa naman eh, kaya download nyo na... =D
it's a political ad of 2003, 30 seconds, makabuluhan, it's an anti-bush winning advertisement from moveon.org na naging kontrobersyal when CBS refused to air it on Super Bowl. Some screenshots:

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what I don't like much about summer vacation:

1. It's hot.
2. No schooling, no allowance.
3. No allowance = Broke.
4. Broke = Can't go to the swimming outings or any getaways with friends.
5. You miss your friends (or probably envious of them coz they'll be having a lot of fun... without you.. :)
6. It's hot.

Good thing we have internet connection... I'd get to download and watch movies (even those which are not yet showing on cinemas), burn the latest hotness in the world of music and do major editing of my blogsite... and yeah, this unbearable boredom caused by the summer vacation also gave me the time and right(?) to flood the Friendster BBS... wow.. that's how boring my life is... thank God, it's only for now... because on April 9, Saturday, we'll be having our Swimming outing! It's with the 4A so it's gonna be one cool outing! hehe... well.. hopefully..

UPDATES

some American Idol 4 songs added...

I have created a google group.. although there are no banners or pop-ups, only relevant text ads, I think yahoo groups is still much more of a good choice because google groups only offers a discussion board... people can only discuss. In yahoo groups, there are available space for photos and files. I hope to see features like these on google groups coz i really hate yahoogroups advertisements...


still on it's beta phase

sentiments

mahirap kalimutan ang kasalanan ng ibang tao sayo kapag inuulit lang din naman at kailanman, di naman nila nagawang pagsisihan, dahil hanggang sa pinakahuli, iniisip pa rin nilang tama sila. Nakakalungkot isipin na kahit masakit balik-balikan ang mga ginawa nila sayo noon, wala kang magagawa kung hindi ang maalala lang lahat, kahit maliliit na detalye, dahil parang walang nababago... at nadadagdagan pa. Hindi ko man maipakita ang galit ko ngayon, alam kong later in my life, iisipin kong gumanti dahil gusto ko ring maipakitang tama din ako.. kahit minsan lang.

invitation

we'll be having some sort of meeting at Leo's place, 5pm today (it's already 5:30 am right now, but my eyes are still glaring at the computer screen)

we'll be talking about the swimming we'll be having on April 9.. I hope final decisions will be made.

uhmm.. although I knew nothing about photoshop, I've still managed to create invitaion card designs for my pangkin matt's birthday (pangkin's short for pamangkin, it's kinda cute.. right?!) here's a sample of my work.. i think it's simple but still kawaii (hehe.. kawaii's the japanese word for cute!)



if u didn't like it, well... i don't care.. it's not for you anyweiz. =D

gone to TJ's dad 50th bday...

It's my brother's birthday, but I still went out to attend TJ's Dad 50th birthday.

A few 4aers were there. After munching on some catered food, we talked about our planned swimming outing this April. How much will be the budget for the transpo, for the food and for this and that... when suddenly, Maureen asked us if we want to join her instead (together with her family and her bf and his family) in celebrating her birthday on April 9 (though her birthday's on April 10) at some good resort in Laguna. And all we need to pay for is the transportation costs. That's a great deal since some of us can't put out a great deal of money to spend on luxury expenses such as this, especially those who are required to enroll this summer. But wait a minute... I just heard that the whole trip will be paid by the parents of mau's bf, walter. And that made some of us hesitant and reluctant to go. And we could only choose a few to come because we'll be spending other people's money.

Well anyweiz, they offered it to us freely which means we didn't ask for it in any way, and it's like an opportunity not just knocking but begging for us to be grabbed .. and wait... why do I keep on starting my sentences with the word "And"? oh well, grammatical errors again.. my brother will pick on me again once he read this entry, he never told me about reading my blog entries but I know he does.. so what? As long as I could completely express what I feel (though I know I'm also the only one who could completely understand what I've tried to express).. right?!

I've made a Karel Marquez fansite, go check it out and post comments on the cbox there... Click here to get there!

Speaking of my Karel's site, a potential friend e-mailed me telling me that she (name's carmina LALA..) wants to be my partner on managing the aforementioned site. I hope we'll be doing a great job working together.

march 31

I saw avril in person... hehe. No, I didn't have any ticket for her Bones Tour concert, neither did I manage to surpass the strict security within the vicinity where the concert was held, it's just that I, together w/ my cousin tanya, went at the back of the stage (still outside) to be able to see her in person... kahit parang puro likod ang nakita namin, at least malapit. Hehe..

Instead of tiring our legs out standing far in front of the stage, seeing only the big blurry screen (na sobrang layo rin), we chose to stay with the skaters/punks/rakistas na ang gugulo! grabe, batuhan ng kung anu-ano (like bottled water with pee, stones/rocks, lighted cigarettes).. it's better to have them around (though we feel like our lives were put in danger, rather then mingling with those feeling-models/pakonyos wearing preppy clothes... anyweiz, back to avril, we saw her inside her car! sobrang lapit! hehe! she's a cutie (coz she's not wearing thick eyeliners this time) and she waved her hands like a real superstar... hehe...

about simple plan? okei lang.. average performance I guess.. just like the other punk rock bands out there (oh.. there are so many of them already..)

It's my brother's birthday today! la lang...