Your gift will arrive 3 days from now: another year, another 12 months. I don't know if I should make a list of my resolutions right now, although I do have some plans for the approaching 2006. Well, one of 'em would be improving my study habits like getting to school on time and etc. Another would be trying to save up for the things I need to buy. Maybe I should put those into writing now because I suffer from occasional Alzheimer's - I could really forget things, especially if they are obligations. hehe.
Our neighborhood is organizing a new year's party for the kids. Great idea, isn't it? Too bad we don't have something like that back in the days when we were the kids... huhuhu. haha! just kidding! I hope they'll enjoy it!
GTO on GMA! Yep! My ultra favorite Anime series I've been mentioning here on my site so frequently can now be watched on GMA starting January 2, 2006 at 5:30 PM! Make sure to watch it! You'll definitely crave for more once you've watched the pilot episode of Great Teacher Onizuka! Hahaha! GMA should pay me for this advert!
Hmm.. what more? Oh, I had another unforgetable experience last Dec. 26, 2005.. I've watched free live porn... and its not even on the internet. If I tell you who the casts were, they'll probably kill me once they've read this, so I'd rather choose not to be an unwanted snitch this time. hehe...
looking for warmth this cold christmas?
[ my wish didn't come true ]
I thought my christmas wish for this year will actually happen, but then fate intervened again and told me "not this year, kel, not this year..."
uh-oh... writer's block again, should've listened to what my brother had told me about eating lots of grapes... I feel really sleepy now.. maybe tomorrow I'll be in a good mood, but then again, maybe not. =D
pre-Christmas happenings...
[ 4A xmas party: some photos ]
Dec. 21, 2005 - I got to admit, this year's christmas party have been attended only by a number lesser than that of last year, but that didn't mean our party became a lame one! Hell no! We had a blast! We haven't managed to do a head count but I'm pretty sure the population reached more than twenty. I can't say that the party we had for this year is better than the previous ones, I really can't tell because as being one of the organizers, I'm not the one to rate. I just wish that somehow, they've appreciated the effort we put to make the said party a success...
Well anyweiz, here are some of the photos captured that night (Don't expect photos of me! I'm the official photographer so I had no shot! Grr! Hahaha! Just kidding!)
franz, jake, zita and sergie - reunited with a 2nd yr hs transferee to other school chucks (second from left)
franz, jean and laura - the first occupants of my digicam space :)
was gwen wishing she had bert's banana instead? haha! kidding! :)
the closest of friends flashing the sweetest smiles =D
wanna see more? view 'em
at my ImageCave Album!
ENJOY!
[ globe broadband sucks ]
In less than a year of being a Globe Broadband subscriber, we've experienced so much downtime that we can definitely proclaim their service unreliable. Their customer service can't even entertain our inquiries regarding the lousy connection because their representatives were busy attending to other phonecalls, according to a recorded voice; busy attending to other unsatisfied and probably irritated clients of the same service I was to inquire about. Hey Globe Broadband people! I want you to know that my connection gets interrupted/disconnected every five minutes!!! I don't have all the time in the world to reconnect again and again (see? that's redundancy on my grammar, thanks to you) so please, please, please, do your job of providing us what you've promised us so we can avoid pondering about switching to another internet service provider.
Dec. 21, 2005 - I got to admit, this year's christmas party have been attended only by a number lesser than that of last year, but that didn't mean our party became a lame one! Hell no! We had a blast! We haven't managed to do a head count but I'm pretty sure the population reached more than twenty. I can't say that the party we had for this year is better than the previous ones, I really can't tell because as being one of the organizers, I'm not the one to rate. I just wish that somehow, they've appreciated the effort we put to make the said party a success...
Well anyweiz, here are some of the photos captured that night (Don't expect photos of me! I'm the official photographer so I had no shot! Grr! Hahaha! Just kidding!)
franz, jake, zita and sergie - reunited with a 2nd yr hs transferee to other school chucks (second from left)
franz, jean and laura - the first occupants of my digicam space :)
was gwen wishing she had bert's banana instead? haha! kidding! :)
the closest of friends flashing the sweetest smiles =D
wanna see more? view 'em
at my ImageCave Album!
ENJOY!
[ globe broadband sucks ]
In less than a year of being a Globe Broadband subscriber, we've experienced so much downtime that we can definitely proclaim their service unreliable. Their customer service can't even entertain our inquiries regarding the lousy connection because their representatives were busy attending to other phonecalls, according to a recorded voice; busy attending to other unsatisfied and probably irritated clients of the same service I was to inquire about. Hey Globe Broadband people! I want you to know that my connection gets interrupted/disconnected every five minutes!!! I don't have all the time in the world to reconnect again and again (see? that's redundancy on my grammar, thanks to you) so please, please, please, do your job of providing us what you've promised us so we can avoid pondering about switching to another internet service provider.
the 4a xmas party...
first things first: thanks to ate kim and kuya mark for the wonderful gifts given before we parted ways for the holiday vacation.
Thank God, the money we all needed finally arrived. So today, some of the 4aers met at leo's crib to pay the contribution for this year's christmas party. Unfortunately, a few only showed up to pay the fee of 150.00. The usual reason for their failure to join us in this year's christmas party: no money.
I perfectly understand their situations; been there, done that. What I don't understand is the way how easy it is for them to say no and not even try. Me? I would beg for that money... I really think their parents could give even just a hundred for that cause, but I think they never insisted on it in the first place.
Oh well, if you don't want to join us in our party, no hard feelings. But if we enjoyed the party and we bragged about it, we hope you could perfectly understand as well.
Thank God, the money we all needed finally arrived. So today, some of the 4aers met at leo's crib to pay the contribution for this year's christmas party. Unfortunately, a few only showed up to pay the fee of 150.00. The usual reason for their failure to join us in this year's christmas party: no money.
I perfectly understand their situations; been there, done that. What I don't understand is the way how easy it is for them to say no and not even try. Me? I would beg for that money... I really think their parents could give even just a hundred for that cause, but I think they never insisted on it in the first place.
Oh well, if you don't want to join us in our party, no hard feelings. But if we enjoyed the party and we bragged about it, we hope you could perfectly understand as well.
a new game plan in life.
= stop the torture =
last night sucks... I just realized the distinction between self-mutilation and sacrifice (in the context of love). in self-mutilation, it hurts because it was ur fault - and the pain serves no grand purpose or whatsoever. sacrifice, on the other hand, is about giving yourself and the other people both a favor. In sacrifice, when u cry, the tears resulted from joy and the thought that you've done an unselfish act. In self mutilation, hell, no matter how loud and how long you scream because a part of you is bleeding, you'll never find answer to your pathetic question, "I just loved.. why does it have to hurt this much?!". Self-mutilation is pointless giving while sacrifice, at the verge of being redundant, is generosity that could leave you empty but full.
I think distinguishing one from the other is an easy job. I've found the difficulty in determining whether what I'm doing is sacrifice or just merely self-mutilation. Oh well... shit happens, right? But if shit happens more often than expected, then maybe all I need is a new game plan.
= the plan =
what if I try to change...? that would be a good idea because I'm pretty much bored with who I am right now. The question is, what kind of change? I'll find out the answer myself, maybe in the next few months, although I'm planning to do it ASAP. If I receive negative feedbacks, I'll listen, but I won't care if I don't have to.
haha... the game plan of the weaklings. Am I becoming one or was I a weakling all along?
= muntik na =
hindi naman ako mukhang mayaman ah.. bakit ako muntik na madukutan kanina?! buti na lang hindi ako naglalagay ng money dun sa nabuksan na part ng bag! haha! but I just got to thank that magnanakaw because he managed to pull out my I.D and it fell on the floor without me noticing it. He approached me to give it back. Crazy guy, he just allowed me to take a good look at his face. Stupid. He thought I didn't feel it when he opened the zipper of my bag. He still had the guts to approach me... maybe the reason why he ended up a snatcher is because he was hands down too stupid.
last night sucks... I just realized the distinction between self-mutilation and sacrifice (in the context of love). in self-mutilation, it hurts because it was ur fault - and the pain serves no grand purpose or whatsoever. sacrifice, on the other hand, is about giving yourself and the other people both a favor. In sacrifice, when u cry, the tears resulted from joy and the thought that you've done an unselfish act. In self mutilation, hell, no matter how loud and how long you scream because a part of you is bleeding, you'll never find answer to your pathetic question, "I just loved.. why does it have to hurt this much?!". Self-mutilation is pointless giving while sacrifice, at the verge of being redundant, is generosity that could leave you empty but full.
I think distinguishing one from the other is an easy job. I've found the difficulty in determining whether what I'm doing is sacrifice or just merely self-mutilation. Oh well... shit happens, right? But if shit happens more often than expected, then maybe all I need is a new game plan.
= the plan =
what if I try to change...? that would be a good idea because I'm pretty much bored with who I am right now. The question is, what kind of change? I'll find out the answer myself, maybe in the next few months, although I'm planning to do it ASAP. If I receive negative feedbacks, I'll listen, but I won't care if I don't have to.
haha... the game plan of the weaklings. Am I becoming one or was I a weakling all along?
= muntik na =
hindi naman ako mukhang mayaman ah.. bakit ako muntik na madukutan kanina?! buti na lang hindi ako naglalagay ng money dun sa nabuksan na part ng bag! haha! but I just got to thank that magnanakaw because he managed to pull out my I.D and it fell on the floor without me noticing it. He approached me to give it back. Crazy guy, he just allowed me to take a good look at his face. Stupid. He thought I didn't feel it when he opened the zipper of my bag. He still had the guts to approach me... maybe the reason why he ended up a snatcher is because he was hands down too stupid.
the pyramid that is not in Egypt
A friend of my aunt is persistent in inviting us to join an MLM (multi Level marketing) or a so-called networking company wherein there's a promise or earning big money with no cash-out; we just need to sign-up and recruit other people. A lot of people already claimed that they do receive money from this business, but after an extensive analyzation of how the system of this business works, I've come up with the realization that I would not join this type of business hype. Here's why?
My recruiter showed me the application form that I needed to fill-up to join them in the networking. TO my dismay, the "application form" wasn't really an application form for membership, but instead, a loan application form from a never heard-of bank. The form stipulated that if ever I've already affixed my signature, the bank will lend me 8,000 pesos so I need to pay them the annual interest of 24% and the monthly amortization of 1,400+. That money I supposedly borrow from that bank will then be given to someone I don't even know, meaning, I won't be able to touch my "own" money. The recruiter said that it will be paid-off by the company and I would start to profit from thereon provided that I could make at least 2 people fill-up those loan application forms. I asked, "what if I couldn't? what would be the consequence?". Her answer, "don't worry, we'll help you out. we'll help each other out."an answer that really didn't manage to answer my query. More questions are building up on my mind during my conversation with her, like, "If there's nothing to sell and I don't even have to take out even a single cent from my pocket, then where the hell does all the money coming from??" Well, the answer to that question had already become apparent to me. I think this is how the system works: A sign-up for a loan, if B is the company and C is the bank, B will get the loan from C and start an investment to earn profits. Now, if I am A and I made D and E, my friends, sign-up, I'll gain a part from their loan. meaning, ang suweldo ko, galing sa utang ng iba and if the above example would be true, then it would mean that galing pa sa utang ng friends ko! But hey! If B, the company, do well in the investment, then good for us because the business will strengthen, but what if not? E di AKO ang may responsibility to pay-off the debt from C because I am the one filled up the loan form! So, my conclusion is, this business is not entirely a ridiculous one if the perpetrators are good in doing business and sincere in helping other people enrich their lives. But, if all the money involved would just perform a disappearing act together with the people who have them, then ultimately, a lot of people will suffer.
My recruiter showed me the application form that I needed to fill-up to join them in the networking. TO my dismay, the "application form" wasn't really an application form for membership, but instead, a loan application form from a never heard-of bank. The form stipulated that if ever I've already affixed my signature, the bank will lend me 8,000 pesos so I need to pay them the annual interest of 24% and the monthly amortization of 1,400+. That money I supposedly borrow from that bank will then be given to someone I don't even know, meaning, I won't be able to touch my "own" money. The recruiter said that it will be paid-off by the company and I would start to profit from thereon provided that I could make at least 2 people fill-up those loan application forms. I asked, "what if I couldn't? what would be the consequence?". Her answer, "don't worry, we'll help you out. we'll help each other out."an answer that really didn't manage to answer my query. More questions are building up on my mind during my conversation with her, like, "If there's nothing to sell and I don't even have to take out even a single cent from my pocket, then where the hell does all the money coming from??" Well, the answer to that question had already become apparent to me. I think this is how the system works: A sign-up for a loan, if B is the company and C is the bank, B will get the loan from C and start an investment to earn profits. Now, if I am A and I made D and E, my friends, sign-up, I'll gain a part from their loan. meaning, ang suweldo ko, galing sa utang ng iba and if the above example would be true, then it would mean that galing pa sa utang ng friends ko! But hey! If B, the company, do well in the investment, then good for us because the business will strengthen, but what if not? E di AKO ang may responsibility to pay-off the debt from C because I am the one filled up the loan form! So, my conclusion is, this business is not entirely a ridiculous one if the perpetrators are good in doing business and sincere in helping other people enrich their lives. But, if all the money involved would just perform a disappearing act together with the people who have them, then ultimately, a lot of people will suffer.
no. no. no.
did you hear my voice
trying so hard to please
to sing a song you've never heard of
although composed only for you to hear?
did you you at least tried to listen
when I finally decided to open up and speak
of the emotions I find so hard to put into words
after all those years?
NO.
did you see the litle things I've offered freely to give
that you chose to take for granted,
because they are just of mediocre value
something that pales in comparison with what you get before?
did you even bother to look down
to find out if I'm still there,
the abandoned faithful servant
who had brought you to a place of higher ground?
NO.
While I am allowing time to eat away my patience in waiting,
you were putting our memories inside the box labeled "oblivion".
You were cooking up my defeat while I was trying to preserve
a noble feeling, felt especially because of you.
You were erasing me from your memory
while I was engraving you deeper in mine.
You were locking yourself up
while I was almost lost in my quest of finding the key to your heart.
You were regarding yourself as nothing when an obstacle had tripped you,
you're to ashamed to go on, while I am still here,
regarding you as my very purpose of living.
You never needed me. I always did right from the start.
Now I that I'm broken...
did you hear it shatter?
my heart, my soul, my life...
Can you find every little pieces?
Have you got the time to put them back together?
still NO?
I have been part of your nightmare,
wake me up once YES is already the answer.
trying so hard to please
to sing a song you've never heard of
although composed only for you to hear?
did you you at least tried to listen
when I finally decided to open up and speak
of the emotions I find so hard to put into words
after all those years?
NO.
did you see the litle things I've offered freely to give
that you chose to take for granted,
because they are just of mediocre value
something that pales in comparison with what you get before?
did you even bother to look down
to find out if I'm still there,
the abandoned faithful servant
who had brought you to a place of higher ground?
NO.
While I am allowing time to eat away my patience in waiting,
you were putting our memories inside the box labeled "oblivion".
You were cooking up my defeat while I was trying to preserve
a noble feeling, felt especially because of you.
You were erasing me from your memory
while I was engraving you deeper in mine.
You were locking yourself up
while I was almost lost in my quest of finding the key to your heart.
You were regarding yourself as nothing when an obstacle had tripped you,
you're to ashamed to go on, while I am still here,
regarding you as my very purpose of living.
You never needed me. I always did right from the start.
Now I that I'm broken...
did you hear it shatter?
my heart, my soul, my life...
Can you find every little pieces?
Have you got the time to put them back together?
still NO?
I have been part of your nightmare,
wake me up once YES is already the answer.
maong na kupas...
i've fallen out of love, because I've forced myself to.
I've always regarded my feelings for that person as something great and noble, something I could still be proud of even if most of the times, it only brings heartaches and immeasurable amount of misery to my life. A kind of longing which can be considered as unbearable but I've managed to carry out... for 5 long lonely years. It was hard and I know that if choose to hold on, I can only expect to be harder in time. Oh well, life indeed is like a box of chocolate... chocnut, anybody?
Anyweiz, let's switch from the senti mood to something feel good. As I've mentioned in my few last entries, I've been having this "crisis" - no phone, no elecric power supply, no money, no lovelife (sanay nako dito.. hehehe). These dilemmas are not helping me in any way, maybe others can call them obstacles made to make one stronger and resourceful, but heck, I think almost twenty years of living the life of racquelbalao-as is enough to make (pick one of my college classmate) to go insane! I'm just hoping that I can still fix these probs that are so definitely ruining everything I've planned to do and planning to do. But y'know I think I've been given those probs because my dude up there knows my abilities and capabilities that I can utilize to overcome these problemos. I believe He had equipped my with the things I need - the right kind of attitude and all those people who are willing to help me get through the rough times. Thanks, to those who think and believe they deserve thanks.
I've always regarded my feelings for that person as something great and noble, something I could still be proud of even if most of the times, it only brings heartaches and immeasurable amount of misery to my life. A kind of longing which can be considered as unbearable but I've managed to carry out... for 5 long lonely years. It was hard and I know that if choose to hold on, I can only expect to be harder in time. Oh well, life indeed is like a box of chocolate... chocnut, anybody?
Anyweiz, let's switch from the senti mood to something feel good. As I've mentioned in my few last entries, I've been having this "crisis" - no phone, no elecric power supply, no money, no lovelife (sanay nako dito.. hehehe). These dilemmas are not helping me in any way, maybe others can call them obstacles made to make one stronger and resourceful, but heck, I think almost twenty years of living the life of racquelbalao-as is enough to make (pick one of my college classmate) to go insane! I'm just hoping that I can still fix these probs that are so definitely ruining everything I've planned to do and planning to do. But y'know I think I've been given those probs because my dude up there knows my abilities and capabilities that I can utilize to overcome these problemos. I believe He had equipped my with the things I need - the right kind of attitude and all those people who are willing to help me get through the rough times. Thanks, to those who think and believe they deserve thanks.
another stolen bottle...
I've stolen another bottle from ate vanna's hundred bottles collection... why can't I write something like this?!? anyweiz... read on.. boring stories on next entry:
The Way of the Leaf
To wait
To fall
To die
but i too could change my colors
to hues so bright
that you just would not see
until i am no more
then you miss me
for from the branch now bare
i am gone from your tree
so you looked on the ground
hoping to keep me
but with a thousand others fallen
you could not be sure
Close your eyes.
Forget me not
in your hearts memory
Sometimes,
i could be
more beautiful
than a million flowers.
The Way of the Leaf
To wait
To fall
To die
but i too could change my colors
to hues so bright
that you just would not see
until i am no more
then you miss me
for from the branch now bare
i am gone from your tree
so you looked on the ground
hoping to keep me
but with a thousand others fallen
you could not be sure
Close your eyes.
Forget me not
in your hearts memory
Sometimes,
i could be
more beautiful
than a million flowers.
ang feeling ba?!
dude i don't know what's your prob.. you don't need to compare, really, coz i know the final choice will always be the same.. siya lang talaga.. kahit gaano katino pa ang pinakita mo dati o kahit gaano ka pa magbago.. wala rin akong pakialam kung mas maganda ka.. si ano pa rin ang nasa puso ko.. wag ka na umasa..kung magugustuhan man kita,yun ay dahil lang sa aking perv side.. hehehe.. jowwk!!
STICKwitU
I thought Pussycat Dolls existed to produce songs like "Don't Cha"... damn the prejudice in me because their second really got me craving because they've done an unpredictable!! Here's stickWITu..:
I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody's breaking up
And throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)
Nobody gonna love me better
I must stick with you
Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stick with you
You know how to 'preciate me
I must stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stick with you
I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride
In our private lives
Ain't nobody getting in between
I want you to know that you're the only one for me
And I say
Nobody gonna love me better
I must stick with you
Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stick with you
You know how to 'preciate me
I must stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stick with you
And now
Ain't nothing else I could need
And now
I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you
We'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you
Baby, you're with me
So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's why I say
Nobody gonna love me better
I must stick with you
Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stick with you
You know how to 'preciate me
I must stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stick with you
Nobody gonna love me better
I must stick with you
Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stick with you
You know how to 'preciate me
I'm must stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stick with you
I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody's breaking up
And throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)
Nobody gonna love me better
I must stick with you
Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stick with you
You know how to 'preciate me
I must stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stick with you
I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride
In our private lives
Ain't nobody getting in between
I want you to know that you're the only one for me
And I say
Nobody gonna love me better
I must stick with you
Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stick with you
You know how to 'preciate me
I must stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stick with you
And now
Ain't nothing else I could need
And now
I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you
We'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you
Baby, you're with me
So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's why I say
Nobody gonna love me better
I must stick with you
Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stick with you
You know how to 'preciate me
I must stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stick with you
Nobody gonna love me better
I must stick with you
Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stick with you
You know how to 'preciate me
I'm must stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stick with you
first day all over again...
hell, i can't transfer the photos that have been captured by the digicam during the sembreak days! I was elated pa naman when the the school e-lib administrator allowed me to plug in the USB drive on the PC.. tsk. well anyweiz, I think there's something wrong with the cable.. coz the system can't seem to detect the presence of a removable drive.
how's the first week of the 2nd sem? feels like a copycat of the the first sem... we're here again to deal with the old and new profs, impress them as much as we could and in the latter part, expect the fruits of our hardship or laziness. It's probably the fruits of laziness that I'll be harvesting.. haha. I've written potential blog entries while at home every night, because there was nothing left to do but read and write when you don't have power supply and the telephone line has been cut out. With limiting conditions like these, how much work can I actually finish? look, there's my productivity level... declining.
I need to strengthen my patience.. or else, I could go crazy.
how's the first week of the 2nd sem? feels like a copycat of the the first sem... we're here again to deal with the old and new profs, impress them as much as we could and in the latter part, expect the fruits of our hardship or laziness. It's probably the fruits of laziness that I'll be harvesting.. haha. I've written potential blog entries while at home every night, because there was nothing left to do but read and write when you don't have power supply and the telephone line has been cut out. With limiting conditions like these, how much work can I actually finish? look, there's my productivity level... declining.
I need to strengthen my patience.. or else, I could go crazy.
hiatus... haaay.
haaayy.. sorry if there had been no updates ha.. ala pa rin kuryente eh. hehe.
I therefore proclaim my site to be on HIATUS.
Don't worry, I had put into writing my thoughts. It will be required for you to read quite long entries soon. Take care, my visitors and friends.
I therefore proclaim my site to be on HIATUS.
Don't worry, I had put into writing my thoughts. It will be required for you to read quite long entries soon. Take care, my visitors and friends.
disconnected
no posts for the past few days, guess why.
been too lazy to post anything?
no.
too busy?
nah.
no story to share?
definitely not.
here's why?
thursday night, nagkagulo kasi may pumutok na linya ng kuryente sa labas. muntik pa daw magkasunog. after some inquiries made, napag-alaman namin na sa aming neighborhood pala ang pumutok na yon.. dahil sa mga jumpers.
dahil sa mga jumpers na ito, pang-apat na araw na namin ngayon na walang kuryente. sobrang nakakabwisit talaga. ngayon nga ay nasa isang computer cafe ako, dito inilalabas ang apat na araw na itinago na mga thoughts. kailangan ko pa tuloy gumastos.
dahil sa mga jumpers na ito, maraming naperwisyo. hindi makaplantsa ang mga dapat pumasok sa trabaho at school. walang makapanood ng pinoy big brother. hindi makatulog ang mga tao sa gabi dahil walang eletric fan, mainit at maraming lamok. hindi ako makapag-basa at makapag-sulat sa gabi, ang tanging hilig kong gawin sa gabi. walang radyo, i miss music so much.
ayaw pang ikabit muli ang aming linya at kailangan pa naming hintayin ang meralco inspector dahil nga baka mangyari ulet ang muntikang pagkasunog...
dahil sa mga jumpers.
nakakalungkot kasi nagkaalaman kung sino ang mga nakakabit at nagkakabit ng mga jumpers na yon. nakakalungkot kasi kakilala namin sila, nginingitian kapag nasasalubong sa daan. tao naming pinapatunguhan pero ilang taon na pala kaming pinagtatawanan kapag kami ay nakatalikod na dahil para bang napakadali naming lokohin at nakawan.
ang sa akin naman, wag kang gumamit ng serbisyong hindi mo kaya o ayaw mong bayaran. kami ang nagbabayad nang matino. pinagpapawisan ang perang ibinabayad at hindi pinupulot. kaya sana naman...
tigilan na ang panloloko ng tao.
been too lazy to post anything?
no.
too busy?
nah.
no story to share?
definitely not.
here's why?
thursday night, nagkagulo kasi may pumutok na linya ng kuryente sa labas. muntik pa daw magkasunog. after some inquiries made, napag-alaman namin na sa aming neighborhood pala ang pumutok na yon.. dahil sa mga jumpers.
dahil sa mga jumpers na ito, pang-apat na araw na namin ngayon na walang kuryente. sobrang nakakabwisit talaga. ngayon nga ay nasa isang computer cafe ako, dito inilalabas ang apat na araw na itinago na mga thoughts. kailangan ko pa tuloy gumastos.
dahil sa mga jumpers na ito, maraming naperwisyo. hindi makaplantsa ang mga dapat pumasok sa trabaho at school. walang makapanood ng pinoy big brother. hindi makatulog ang mga tao sa gabi dahil walang eletric fan, mainit at maraming lamok. hindi ako makapag-basa at makapag-sulat sa gabi, ang tanging hilig kong gawin sa gabi. walang radyo, i miss music so much.
ayaw pang ikabit muli ang aming linya at kailangan pa naming hintayin ang meralco inspector dahil nga baka mangyari ulet ang muntikang pagkasunog...
dahil sa mga jumpers.
nakakalungkot kasi nagkaalaman kung sino ang mga nakakabit at nagkakabit ng mga jumpers na yon. nakakalungkot kasi kakilala namin sila, nginingitian kapag nasasalubong sa daan. tao naming pinapatunguhan pero ilang taon na pala kaming pinagtatawanan kapag kami ay nakatalikod na dahil para bang napakadali naming lokohin at nakawan.
ang sa akin naman, wag kang gumamit ng serbisyong hindi mo kaya o ayaw mong bayaran. kami ang nagbabayad nang matino. pinagpapawisan ang perang ibinabayad at hindi pinupulot. kaya sana naman...
tigilan na ang panloloko ng tao.
nothing and nobody...
A friend's current situation inspired me to write this:
"Failure should be our teacher, not our undertaker. Failure is delay, not defeat. It is a temporary detour, not a dead end. Failure is something we can avoid only by saying nothing, doing nothing, and being nothing." -- Denis Waitley
It seems to me that everybody nowadays are putting too much effort to achieve a particular status, a title, for themselves. It's all about being somebody in this world, right? but what if in your quest in becoming a somebody, you've become a nobody?
Trying hard to become somebody is not bad, instead, it is that driving force that could lead to success. But, in the first place, was it just success you are wanting all along, or was it really the happiness and the feeling of contentment that success had promised to bring that you are actually longing for?
For me, no one is nothing or worth nothing unless he had given up on himself. He is nothing when he chose to stop moving even if he can still crawl his way up to where planned to get to. He is nothing in my eyes if he decided to to give in while the people around him are still there, wanting and warranting him to go on. Once you lose faith, hope and courage, that's the time everybody can call you a loser, purposeless, unneeded -- a real nobody. Remember, even a stinking piece of shit can be turned into fertilizer. Don't you ever think that a stinking piece of shit is better than you. To defy the impossible is something. Not to lose hope is something. You see, it's only going through the low times and being able to get rise from it that you can be somebody.
I know a lot of people who feel that they're never capable of doing mistakes that could result to failures. These are delusional people... people who, in reality, are seen as nothing in the eyes of many. Success, they have it, but they are living miserable lives. Believe me, whenever alone, they cry tears that you never have to cry out. Lies and pretensions are their stairs used to reach the lonely top, their prize, abysmal insecurity. For them, the sole end is getting there fast when in fact, it's all about learning things while getting there. Success does not require only time to be attained, it needs the development of the right kind of attitude towards life as well. It's the bigger and more essential factor. Experience teaches us the ways and means which are effective and which are not. Failure is part of experience. You've just found out ineffective ways of doing things, now the duty is to discover the effective ones! No one on earth other than you holds the key. It was long given to you as a gift by Him, so don't disappoint Him by giving up the hunt for your treasure.
If you can't do the job alone, seek help from those who matters to you the most. They may not be able to give you much of their time, but I assure you, you will inspired to work hard knowing that they exist. You will be fuelled with an energy so positive that another failure won't matter anymore.
If you believe in yourself, people will believe in you. For those who do not, it's time to show they will eventually have to.
"Failure should be our teacher, not our undertaker. Failure is delay, not defeat. It is a temporary detour, not a dead end. Failure is something we can avoid only by saying nothing, doing nothing, and being nothing." -- Denis Waitley
It seems to me that everybody nowadays are putting too much effort to achieve a particular status, a title, for themselves. It's all about being somebody in this world, right? but what if in your quest in becoming a somebody, you've become a nobody?
Trying hard to become somebody is not bad, instead, it is that driving force that could lead to success. But, in the first place, was it just success you are wanting all along, or was it really the happiness and the feeling of contentment that success had promised to bring that you are actually longing for?
For me, no one is nothing or worth nothing unless he had given up on himself. He is nothing when he chose to stop moving even if he can still crawl his way up to where planned to get to. He is nothing in my eyes if he decided to to give in while the people around him are still there, wanting and warranting him to go on. Once you lose faith, hope and courage, that's the time everybody can call you a loser, purposeless, unneeded -- a real nobody. Remember, even a stinking piece of shit can be turned into fertilizer. Don't you ever think that a stinking piece of shit is better than you. To defy the impossible is something. Not to lose hope is something. You see, it's only going through the low times and being able to get rise from it that you can be somebody.
I know a lot of people who feel that they're never capable of doing mistakes that could result to failures. These are delusional people... people who, in reality, are seen as nothing in the eyes of many. Success, they have it, but they are living miserable lives. Believe me, whenever alone, they cry tears that you never have to cry out. Lies and pretensions are their stairs used to reach the lonely top, their prize, abysmal insecurity. For them, the sole end is getting there fast when in fact, it's all about learning things while getting there. Success does not require only time to be attained, it needs the development of the right kind of attitude towards life as well. It's the bigger and more essential factor. Experience teaches us the ways and means which are effective and which are not. Failure is part of experience. You've just found out ineffective ways of doing things, now the duty is to discover the effective ones! No one on earth other than you holds the key. It was long given to you as a gift by Him, so don't disappoint Him by giving up the hunt for your treasure.
If you can't do the job alone, seek help from those who matters to you the most. They may not be able to give you much of their time, but I assure you, you will inspired to work hard knowing that they exist. You will be fuelled with an energy so positive that another failure won't matter anymore.
If you believe in yourself, people will believe in you. For those who do not, it's time to show they will eventually have to.
to be speechless in the speech class...
[ speechless... ]
Promise! I know the words! I've practiced my speech, every damn word in it... but then, yeah, I suddenly forgot them.. yes, I forgot my speech. All the words that had come out of my heart, that flowed through the ink of my HBW pen, which is at 5 peso apiece. I felt so fuckd up at that moment! I wanted to do an impromptu instead coz my prof was not holding the copy of my speech anyway, but no, I stopped and looked for the words then continued til I found myself doing graver mistakes. I was so disappointed with what I've done.. I have this stage fright that I need to fight but I think it is not that easy and won't be that easy. I felt defeated at that point of my life. That speech was our final examination.. haaayy.
So I guess I don't have the right to question whatever will be my final grade in my speech 2 eh? well at least, that wasn't a major subject. not so bad...
[ unprepared... so what? ]
Finals exams, I was not prepared to face them.. tinatamad kasi akong mag-review. emotional reasons.. ayoko na lang sabihin. walang rebyu-rebyu! just bring it on! haha! I already know the result of my finals sa techwrite, I got 44 out of 50! gawd! I didn't review in that subject no.. and I didn't cheat (coz I couldn't!! ang layo nila! wahhh!!) A miracle? may mga bagay pala talagang nadadaan sa panalangin.
Thank you God. salamat sa di pagpapabaya sa akin. pasensya na, but that text message was really heart shattering... not very timely, kung kailan kailangan ko ng inspirasyon. but yea, I've already prepared myself for next week. at the end of sembreak, it says. ok, at the end of sembreak....
so be it.
Promise! I know the words! I've practiced my speech, every damn word in it... but then, yeah, I suddenly forgot them.. yes, I forgot my speech. All the words that had come out of my heart, that flowed through the ink of my HBW pen, which is at 5 peso apiece. I felt so fuckd up at that moment! I wanted to do an impromptu instead coz my prof was not holding the copy of my speech anyway, but no, I stopped and looked for the words then continued til I found myself doing graver mistakes. I was so disappointed with what I've done.. I have this stage fright that I need to fight but I think it is not that easy and won't be that easy. I felt defeated at that point of my life. That speech was our final examination.. haaayy.
So I guess I don't have the right to question whatever will be my final grade in my speech 2 eh? well at least, that wasn't a major subject. not so bad...
[ unprepared... so what? ]
Finals exams, I was not prepared to face them.. tinatamad kasi akong mag-review. emotional reasons.. ayoko na lang sabihin. walang rebyu-rebyu! just bring it on! haha! I already know the result of my finals sa techwrite, I got 44 out of 50! gawd! I didn't review in that subject no.. and I didn't cheat (coz I couldn't!! ang layo nila! wahhh!!) A miracle? may mga bagay pala talagang nadadaan sa panalangin.
Thank you God. salamat sa di pagpapabaya sa akin. pasensya na, but that text message was really heart shattering... not very timely, kung kailan kailangan ko ng inspirasyon. but yea, I've already prepared myself for next week. at the end of sembreak, it says. ok, at the end of sembreak....
so be it.
going the right way...
[ going the right way... ]
last tuesday, after having been able to watch the game 2 of UAAP finals, wherein we, the FEU tamaraws have emerged as victorious, we dined at chowking and hurriedly went to the cubao-araneta mrt station so that ate kim won't be late for work.
so we got our tickets na.. there were two escalators going up to where the trins will stop by. we took the first and as we reached the top end, the train was already preparing to leave, and in a few seconds it's already leaving. the damn train left us.
we thought we're minalas.
thank God ate kim noticed that we were at the wrong side of the station and if we've been able to get to that train, we'll probably be going farther from where we intend to go to.
I just realized that there was a lesson in it. kung masyado lang tayong nagmamadali, maaaring mabilis nga tayong makakasakay, pero di ba ang mahalaga e yung pupuntahan natin? in life, it's all about going the right way.
[ not so bad, not so bad... ]
friday night, after going through the toxicating exams given by reyes and manlapaz, we watched Cueshe performed at the hmm.. the big stage at FEU (i really don't know the name given to it)... it was raining hard but I guess just hearing the song "stay" will make you forget that you're already soaking wet. well anyweiz, after the short concert given for free by the school administration in celebration of our being the champion in the UAAP,nagpasiklab si kuya Mark sa Jolibee. this time, kasama si doms. we talked about a lot of things and after realizing that the rain won't subside, we knew that it's really time to go home and we had to go home, to prepare ourselves to the second and final batch of our examinations on the next day.
wow, baha na ang espana ( na naman ) at syempre, basa na ko. buti na lang hinatid kami ni dave sa may sakayan hanggang lawton (for free) at doon na lamang ako bumaba at naghintay ng sasakyan. basang-basa na talaga ako. i suddenly felt everything was messed up and all the things that will come my way will just be all a mess.. biglang na-depress.. haha! nakakalungkot kasi! good thing is, sa FX may radio, and the song being played was "thank you" by Dido. Tamang-tama, nasa linya na ng:
My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be grey,
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad
yeah, kung iisipin naman talaga it's really not that bad.. kasi the worse is yet to come...
last tuesday, after having been able to watch the game 2 of UAAP finals, wherein we, the FEU tamaraws have emerged as victorious, we dined at chowking and hurriedly went to the cubao-araneta mrt station so that ate kim won't be late for work.
so we got our tickets na.. there were two escalators going up to where the trins will stop by. we took the first and as we reached the top end, the train was already preparing to leave, and in a few seconds it's already leaving. the damn train left us.
we thought we're minalas.
thank God ate kim noticed that we were at the wrong side of the station and if we've been able to get to that train, we'll probably be going farther from where we intend to go to.
I just realized that there was a lesson in it. kung masyado lang tayong nagmamadali, maaaring mabilis nga tayong makakasakay, pero di ba ang mahalaga e yung pupuntahan natin? in life, it's all about going the right way.
[ not so bad, not so bad... ]
friday night, after going through the toxicating exams given by reyes and manlapaz, we watched Cueshe performed at the hmm.. the big stage at FEU (i really don't know the name given to it)... it was raining hard but I guess just hearing the song "stay" will make you forget that you're already soaking wet. well anyweiz, after the short concert given for free by the school administration in celebration of our being the champion in the UAAP,nagpasiklab si kuya Mark sa Jolibee. this time, kasama si doms. we talked about a lot of things and after realizing that the rain won't subside, we knew that it's really time to go home and we had to go home, to prepare ourselves to the second and final batch of our examinations on the next day.
wow, baha na ang espana ( na naman ) at syempre, basa na ko. buti na lang hinatid kami ni dave sa may sakayan hanggang lawton (for free) at doon na lamang ako bumaba at naghintay ng sasakyan. basang-basa na talaga ako. i suddenly felt everything was messed up and all the things that will come my way will just be all a mess.. biglang na-depress.. haha! nakakalungkot kasi! good thing is, sa FX may radio, and the song being played was "thank you" by Dido. Tamang-tama, nasa linya na ng:
My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be grey,
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad
yeah, kung iisipin naman talaga it's really not that bad.. kasi the worse is yet to come...
samu't saring kwento... hmm..
finals coming.. uh-oh! haven't reviewed any thing yet! haha! I keep on reminding myself the things that needed to be done but it seems like I'm not bothered by the enormous pile of workload ahead. Instead of thinking of things related to my studies, my mind is being pre-occupied with thoughts about people.
[ liars. hypocrites. ]
at ate kim's birthday party, after singing their hearts out while at the same time, disturbing other people's sleep, my classmates at P1 have decided to play a game of truth or dare. I wasn't really there when the game had started, because I was inside the house, trying to lose myself to dreamland, but couldn't, so I've just decided to join in the fun instead of be alone and do nothing.
They asked questions like, "who among our classmates you can't really get along well?" etc. Some were asked about their real sexual preferences, and I was really pissed off by those people who have the nerve to lie about their real selves. Oh, yeah, I was also asked with the same question and I believe I've answered quite truthfully. Yes, I have to admit something because in the first place, it was something I do not intend to hide. But how about the others? How long are they planning to keep their dirty little secrets? I've just heard even the closest to them don't even know who and what they really are. Where do they get that face so hard and thick? One of the most hateable things on earth is hypocrisy and lie put together... it's just hands down too shameful.
Believe me when I say, "it takes one to know one".
Well anyweiz, I've really enjoyed ate kim's birthday celeb (maybe except for the part where we were scolded by her tita because of someone blabbering about the bible.. hehe) Well, I guess she enjoyed the party more because of the presence of someone.. hehe.. right ate kim?
[ speeches.. speeches.. ]
damn, my classmates are real good when it comes to speaking! I wish I could have that really profitable skill! Being able to speak with so much confidence... it's just something I can't help but admire about my P1 classmates, probably because it was one skill I just can't possess.
last tuesday's privilege speech on parlprac class went just fine, I adored the speeches of dwight, josh, sarah and especially raizza. raizza's speech was emotional, tears even fell. Her speech is about the friendship in P1 that needs a strong glue to hold and bind together the people that belonged to that group. Her speech made me happy, but I am surely not satisfied, because her speech referred only to the obvious war that involves dwight and joma. I mean, how about the little cold wars that involve the whole class? That is just something I can't understand. There's something wrong also with the rest of the class, not just dwight and joma. The "grupo-grupo" na may "konting hinanakit sa isa't isa" also counts! How long before they will take it into consideration? haayy... peeps, you need to unite, but not with just the people you have chosen to be your friends, but also with the people who are there, part of the P1 class...
well, just trying to voice out a bit of opinion based from observation.
[ siya at ikaw ]
this story involves 4 people.
siya... mahal ko talaga siya. alam nya rin yun na kahit paano, nagawa nyang suklian ng lahat ng kaya nyang ibigay, hindi siya naging madamot, alam ko, mahal nya rin ako. kaya lang, nakakapagod din maghintay sa wala.. sa isang bagay na alam mong hindi darating dahil alam kong hindi ibibigay kahit ilang beses ko pa hilingin o hingin. kahit alam nya at alam ko na pwede.. hindi lang talaga dapat... hindi na talaga dapat.
ikaw... nandoon ka nung mga panahong akala ko, wala nang pag-asa. ikaw ung nagpuno sa pagmamahal na dapat, sa kanya galing. pinakita mong nandyan ka lang... ikaw kasi, wala kang takot sa sasabihin ng iba. yayakapin mo ako kahit saan, kahit kailan, dahil wala kang pag-aalangan. matapang ka... ang tapang na meron ka ay ang tapang na hindi nya naipakita. mahal mo ako, hindi nagawang kalimutan... kahit ilang araw ang magdaan, kahit ako na ang parang hindi maka-alala, bibigyan mo pa rin ako ng konting panahon mo.
siya ba o ikaw? ikaw na lang kaya.
siguro dapat, magpaalam na ako sa kanya.
oras na rin naman.
[ liars. hypocrites. ]
at ate kim's birthday party, after singing their hearts out while at the same time, disturbing other people's sleep, my classmates at P1 have decided to play a game of truth or dare. I wasn't really there when the game had started, because I was inside the house, trying to lose myself to dreamland, but couldn't, so I've just decided to join in the fun instead of be alone and do nothing.
They asked questions like, "who among our classmates you can't really get along well?" etc. Some were asked about their real sexual preferences, and I was really pissed off by those people who have the nerve to lie about their real selves. Oh, yeah, I was also asked with the same question and I believe I've answered quite truthfully. Yes, I have to admit something because in the first place, it was something I do not intend to hide. But how about the others? How long are they planning to keep their dirty little secrets? I've just heard even the closest to them don't even know who and what they really are. Where do they get that face so hard and thick? One of the most hateable things on earth is hypocrisy and lie put together... it's just hands down too shameful.
Believe me when I say, "it takes one to know one".
Well anyweiz, I've really enjoyed ate kim's birthday celeb (maybe except for the part where we were scolded by her tita because of someone blabbering about the bible.. hehe) Well, I guess she enjoyed the party more because of the presence of someone.. hehe.. right ate kim?
[ speeches.. speeches.. ]
damn, my classmates are real good when it comes to speaking! I wish I could have that really profitable skill! Being able to speak with so much confidence... it's just something I can't help but admire about my P1 classmates, probably because it was one skill I just can't possess.
last tuesday's privilege speech on parlprac class went just fine, I adored the speeches of dwight, josh, sarah and especially raizza. raizza's speech was emotional, tears even fell. Her speech is about the friendship in P1 that needs a strong glue to hold and bind together the people that belonged to that group. Her speech made me happy, but I am surely not satisfied, because her speech referred only to the obvious war that involves dwight and joma. I mean, how about the little cold wars that involve the whole class? That is just something I can't understand. There's something wrong also with the rest of the class, not just dwight and joma. The "grupo-grupo" na may "konting hinanakit sa isa't isa" also counts! How long before they will take it into consideration? haayy... peeps, you need to unite, but not with just the people you have chosen to be your friends, but also with the people who are there, part of the P1 class...
well, just trying to voice out a bit of opinion based from observation.
[ siya at ikaw ]
this story involves 4 people.
siya... mahal ko talaga siya. alam nya rin yun na kahit paano, nagawa nyang suklian ng lahat ng kaya nyang ibigay, hindi siya naging madamot, alam ko, mahal nya rin ako. kaya lang, nakakapagod din maghintay sa wala.. sa isang bagay na alam mong hindi darating dahil alam kong hindi ibibigay kahit ilang beses ko pa hilingin o hingin. kahit alam nya at alam ko na pwede.. hindi lang talaga dapat... hindi na talaga dapat.
ikaw... nandoon ka nung mga panahong akala ko, wala nang pag-asa. ikaw ung nagpuno sa pagmamahal na dapat, sa kanya galing. pinakita mong nandyan ka lang... ikaw kasi, wala kang takot sa sasabihin ng iba. yayakapin mo ako kahit saan, kahit kailan, dahil wala kang pag-aalangan. matapang ka... ang tapang na meron ka ay ang tapang na hindi nya naipakita. mahal mo ako, hindi nagawang kalimutan... kahit ilang araw ang magdaan, kahit ako na ang parang hindi maka-alala, bibigyan mo pa rin ako ng konting panahon mo.
siya ba o ikaw? ikaw na lang kaya.
siguro dapat, magpaalam na ako sa kanya.
oras na rin naman.
sleepless but full...
Don't Grow Old
===============
Many people are afraid of growing old.
I'm afraid of growing old and boring.
Many people are afraid of growing old, alone.
I'm afraid of growing old, insane.
Many people are afraid of losing their looks.
I'm afraid of losing my dreams.
Many people are afraid of losing their youth.
I'm afraid of losing my soul.
When you're 15, 35 seems ancient.
When you're 35, 15 seems juvenile.
A turnaround in a split second - two decades zoom past and
before you know it, it's only a mile to the next millennium.
Don't fear age,
it's a right of person-hood.
Don't fear death- it's God's greatest jest.
Don't grow old - you don't have to.
Don't date because you're desperate.
Don't marry because you're miserable.
Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior.
Don't separate because you think it's fashionable.
Don't drink because you have troubles.
Don't gamble because you think winning is inevitable.
Don't philander because you think you're irresistible.
Most likely, you're not.
Don't associate with people you can't trust.
Don't cheat.
Don't lie.
Don't pretend.
Don't try to buy your way into the kingdom of God.
Don't dictate because you're smarter.
Don't demand because you're stronger.
Don't sleep around because you think you're old enough and know
better.
Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder.
Don't sell yourself, your family or your ideals.
Don't stagnate.
Don't regress.
Learn a new skill.
Find a new friend.
Start a new career.
Don't live in the past.
Time can't bring anything or anyone back.
Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr. Right.
Don't throw you life away on absolutely Mr. Wrong because your
biological clock is ticking and you can't afford to have your
eggs harvested before the new millennium.
There's always a mad rush to something, somewhere - but victory
does not always belong to those who finish first.
Sometimes, there is no race to be won, only a price to be paid
for some of life's more hasty decisions.
You can't always go with the throng who could be wrong.
Sometimes, you have to be alone to be enlightened.
To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless.
To feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy.
To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.
Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong
reasons.
To keep yourself warm, buy a jacket.
In the long run, it will be less complicated and less costly.
To make yourself happy, pursue your passions and be the best of
what you can be.
Simplify your life.
Take away the clutter.
Get rid of destructive elements - abusive friends, nasty habits
and dangerous liaisons.
Don't abandon your responsibilities, but don't overdose on duty.
Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for your
family.
Be true to yourself. Don't commit when you're not ready.
Don't keep others waiting needlessly.
Fall in love - it's the greatest thing on earth.
But take care and remember, after the fall must come the rise.
Go on that trip. Don't postpone it.
Say those words. Don't let the moment pass.
Do what you must even at society's scorn.
Write poetry. Love deeply. Walk barefoot. Hold hands.
Dance with wild abandon. Cry at the movies.
Take care of yourself.
Don't wait for someone to take care of you.
You light up your life.
You drive yourself to your destination.
No one completes you - except you.
It is true that life doesn't get easier with age.
It only gets more challenging.
Don't be afraid.
Don't lose your capacity to love.
Pursue your passions.
Live your dreams.
Don't lose faith in God.
Don't grow old.
Just grow up.
An article from Sun-Star daily newspaper ...
By Melanie T. Lim, June 2, 1999
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Many people are afraid of growing old.
I'm afraid of growing old and boring.
Many people are afraid of growing old, alone.
I'm afraid of growing old, insane.
Many people are afraid of losing their looks.
I'm afraid of losing my dreams.
Many people are afraid of losing their youth.
I'm afraid of losing my soul.
When you're 15, 35 seems ancient.
When you're 35, 15 seems juvenile.
A turnaround in a split second - two decades zoom past and
before you know it, it's only a mile to the next millennium.
Don't fear age,
it's a right of person-hood.
Don't fear death- it's God's greatest jest.
Don't grow old - you don't have to.
Don't date because you're desperate.
Don't marry because you're miserable.
Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior.
Don't separate because you think it's fashionable.
Don't drink because you have troubles.
Don't gamble because you think winning is inevitable.
Don't philander because you think you're irresistible.
Most likely, you're not.
Don't associate with people you can't trust.
Don't cheat.
Don't lie.
Don't pretend.
Don't try to buy your way into the kingdom of God.
Don't dictate because you're smarter.
Don't demand because you're stronger.
Don't sleep around because you think you're old enough and know
better.
Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder.
Don't sell yourself, your family or your ideals.
Don't stagnate.
Don't regress.
Learn a new skill.
Find a new friend.
Start a new career.
Don't live in the past.
Time can't bring anything or anyone back.
Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr. Right.
Don't throw you life away on absolutely Mr. Wrong because your
biological clock is ticking and you can't afford to have your
eggs harvested before the new millennium.
There's always a mad rush to something, somewhere - but victory
does not always belong to those who finish first.
Sometimes, there is no race to be won, only a price to be paid
for some of life's more hasty decisions.
You can't always go with the throng who could be wrong.
Sometimes, you have to be alone to be enlightened.
To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless.
To feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy.
To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.
Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong
reasons.
To keep yourself warm, buy a jacket.
In the long run, it will be less complicated and less costly.
To make yourself happy, pursue your passions and be the best of
what you can be.
Simplify your life.
Take away the clutter.
Get rid of destructive elements - abusive friends, nasty habits
and dangerous liaisons.
Don't abandon your responsibilities, but don't overdose on duty.
Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for your
family.
Be true to yourself. Don't commit when you're not ready.
Don't keep others waiting needlessly.
Fall in love - it's the greatest thing on earth.
But take care and remember, after the fall must come the rise.
Go on that trip. Don't postpone it.
Say those words. Don't let the moment pass.
Do what you must even at society's scorn.
Write poetry. Love deeply. Walk barefoot. Hold hands.
Dance with wild abandon. Cry at the movies.
Take care of yourself.
Don't wait for someone to take care of you.
You light up your life.
You drive yourself to your destination.
No one completes you - except you.
It is true that life doesn't get easier with age.
It only gets more challenging.
Don't be afraid.
Don't lose your capacity to love.
Pursue your passions.
Live your dreams.
Don't lose faith in God.
Don't grow old.
Just grow up.
An article from Sun-Star daily newspaper ...
By Melanie T. Lim, June 2, 1999
nightmares in dreams and real life...
I've dreamt of something really crazy last night. For me it's kind of scary although it doesn't really involved creepy creatures or deaths. Scary and funny at the same time. I've dreamt of someone. The person I've dreamt about is someone that I had a crush on in the past. The setting is we're eating together at a fine restaurant and we had this kind of conversation:
me: you know what? I really didn't like you. I was just so wrong when I told you that I like you...
excrush: you liked me. it was me who really didn't like you..
I suddenly grabbed the neck of that person and said angrily, "No I didn't."
then I laughed when I finally let go of the neck after I saw that person choking.
Then after we finish our food, we stood and we walked away from the restaurant still together. While we're walking and heading somewhere else, I suddenly hold that person's arms so tightly as if I enjoyed seeing that person in pain. And then I laughed again.
Sadista eh noh? oh my, the madman in me...
me: you know what? I really didn't like you. I was just so wrong when I told you that I like you...
excrush: you liked me. it was me who really didn't like you..
I suddenly grabbed the neck of that person and said angrily, "No I didn't."
then I laughed when I finally let go of the neck after I saw that person choking.
Then after we finish our food, we stood and we walked away from the restaurant still together. While we're walking and heading somewhere else, I suddenly hold that person's arms so tightly as if I enjoyed seeing that person in pain. And then I laughed again.
Sadista eh noh? oh my, the madman in me...
mama's arrival and vida's birthday
My mama arrived today from Saudi, so our house was jampacked with people, mostly relatives, who were more interested with the pasalubongs rather than with the actual presence of their balikbayan family member. I received new shoes... and a chicken siopao.. haha! and clothes. I just found out that my mom is a fanatic of channel 2's Search for a Star singing contest.. wala lang, I just wanted to share.
birthday nga rin pala ni Vida ngaun! Happy Birthday Vida!
Anyweiz, I have only 3 things to do for the finals, namely read, write and memorize. But I think I don't have sufficient time to do these 3 things, mainly because what I'll be reading includes, uhmm, wait, 2 chapters of a book, 4 chapters of another book, the revised penal code and countless photocopied reading materials; what I'll be writing includes summaries of all what I've read (not just for review purposes, for I need to pass 'em all), my research proposal (I don't know if I'd still be including Cid as a group member because obviously it was I who is doing ALL the necessary work) and my privilege speech; what I'll be memorizing includes a speech for my speech class, the privilege speech for my parlprac class and all the notes jotted down for my written exams on major subjects. haaayy... iniisip ko pa lang, napapagod nako.
[birthdays of 4A's]
Medyo nagtatampo ako ngayon sa 4A.. wala kasing nagpaparamdam, knowing that September has a lot of birthday celebrants. It's not about the foods and the inuman, it's about the togetherness and the kwentuhan pag nagkasama-sama na. Maybe that's one of the reasons why I didn't hesitate to agree to my mom's proposal of not to celebrate anymore my birthday by throwing a party but simply let it pass and go to my cousin's fiesta celeb and my nephew's christening on the next day, October 2. I'm sorry guys, I'm really sorry but I think the bond is getting weaker. I hated to say that, but I think college life had either made others forgetful or it offered them a happier moments and memories than that of our highscool life, so maybe, in their minds, why bother to go back? and it's really saddening because I was one of those who are trying to call people who are just not there anymore. Truthfully, this post is miles away from being negative, although it may sound like one. So busy with studies? I can't help but smile bitterly when I remember those letters containing these words: "just call me and I'll be there...".. those words are now already lost in oblivion.
That was dramatic. Oh, I'm such a drama queen. Where's my tiara?
birthday nga rin pala ni Vida ngaun! Happy Birthday Vida!
Anyweiz, I have only 3 things to do for the finals, namely read, write and memorize. But I think I don't have sufficient time to do these 3 things, mainly because what I'll be reading includes, uhmm, wait, 2 chapters of a book, 4 chapters of another book, the revised penal code and countless photocopied reading materials; what I'll be writing includes summaries of all what I've read (not just for review purposes, for I need to pass 'em all), my research proposal (I don't know if I'd still be including Cid as a group member because obviously it was I who is doing ALL the necessary work) and my privilege speech; what I'll be memorizing includes a speech for my speech class, the privilege speech for my parlprac class and all the notes jotted down for my written exams on major subjects. haaayy... iniisip ko pa lang, napapagod nako.
[birthdays of 4A's]
Medyo nagtatampo ako ngayon sa 4A.. wala kasing nagpaparamdam, knowing that September has a lot of birthday celebrants. It's not about the foods and the inuman, it's about the togetherness and the kwentuhan pag nagkasama-sama na. Maybe that's one of the reasons why I didn't hesitate to agree to my mom's proposal of not to celebrate anymore my birthday by throwing a party but simply let it pass and go to my cousin's fiesta celeb and my nephew's christening on the next day, October 2. I'm sorry guys, I'm really sorry but I think the bond is getting weaker. I hated to say that, but I think college life had either made others forgetful or it offered them a happier moments and memories than that of our highscool life, so maybe, in their minds, why bother to go back? and it's really saddening because I was one of those who are trying to call people who are just not there anymore. Truthfully, this post is miles away from being negative, although it may sound like one. So busy with studies? I can't help but smile bitterly when I remember those letters containing these words: "just call me and I'll be there...".. those words are now already lost in oblivion.
That was dramatic. Oh, I'm such a drama queen. Where's my tiara?
Political Science 2005 General Assembly
After depriving myself a great deal of sleeping hours yesterday and exposing myself to the cold rain, I didn't feel well when I woke up this morning. My head and body are aching like hell. To sum up in 3 words, I am sick. But I knew I couldn't afford to miss this year's Political Science General Assembly and the mock job interview on my TechWrite class, so I gathered myself up at about 12 noon (the G.A was supposed to start at that time too.. hehe) and readied my wardrobe (while everybody else was wearing some kickass outfits, racquel was in her P.E uniform.. hehe) for the interview.
I arrived late (what's new?). I arrived at 4:00 PM, but somebody told me that they weren't that punctual also because they've only managed to start at around 2:30. When I got there, the last game was just ending (i missed the fun part, right?). What I've witnessed are the performances of the talented polsci students that includes the rock chic Nesrin who rocked with Ma'am Gemzon, a couple of guys who sang an originally composed song of their band and a girl quartet who sang an acapella version of torete. While the performances were on-going, I was taking pictures of the P1 class while they were goofing around. I did enjoy today's event even though I feel sick.
The mock interview was postponed, thanks to Dwight and Czar who talked it out with Mr. Villanueva.
Well, here's a few shots: To view more photos, go to my gallery section, thanks.
I arrived late (what's new?). I arrived at 4:00 PM, but somebody told me that they weren't that punctual also because they've only managed to start at around 2:30. When I got there, the last game was just ending (i missed the fun part, right?). What I've witnessed are the performances of the talented polsci students that includes the rock chic Nesrin who rocked with Ma'am Gemzon, a couple of guys who sang an originally composed song of their band and a girl quartet who sang an acapella version of torete. While the performances were on-going, I was taking pictures of the P1 class while they were goofing around. I did enjoy today's event even though I feel sick.
The mock interview was postponed, thanks to Dwight and Czar who talked it out with Mr. Villanueva.
Well, here's a few shots: To view more photos, go to my gallery section, thanks.
penshoppe.. anybody?
Yeah, I did mention something like "no name bashing at all", I just can't help this one thing!! it's just so puzzling and funny and scary, all at the same time. read on...
meet ms. penshoppe, she's a classmate of mine. she said she owns panties similar to those penshoppe panties, but they weren't from penshoppe though, she said, because her panties came from abroad, because they are rich, so rich. anyweiz, maybe there's just a need for her to emphasize that there were resemblances with her panties and penshoppe panties. that, I can take for granted.
but... look at her friendster photos, you'll find there photos captioned with "I am in penshoppe"... in addition to that, she's always mentioning about "penshoppe"
mann!! why is she so fascinated with penshoppe? I just don't get it!! oh my.. I'm really starting to believe that she already has a few loose screws. i wanted to laugh about it, only to realize in the end that it wasn't funny at all, but scary... real scary.
hey karma, ang bilis mo na ah! pati ba ikaw, computerized na rin?
meet ms. penshoppe, she's a classmate of mine. she said she owns panties similar to those penshoppe panties, but they weren't from penshoppe though, she said, because her panties came from abroad, because they are rich, so rich. anyweiz, maybe there's just a need for her to emphasize that there were resemblances with her panties and penshoppe panties. that, I can take for granted.
but... look at her friendster photos, you'll find there photos captioned with "I am in penshoppe"... in addition to that, she's always mentioning about "penshoppe"
mann!! why is she so fascinated with penshoppe? I just don't get it!! oh my.. I'm really starting to believe that she already has a few loose screws. i wanted to laugh about it, only to realize in the end that it wasn't funny at all, but scary... real scary.
hey karma, ang bilis mo na ah! pati ba ikaw, computerized na rin?
sick in the stomach...
[ o n e ]
this day is sooo tiring, not physically though, because I've always believed that you can always just rest and get some sleep after you've done physically challenging jobs. I feel wasted, because of the dramas some people are bringing into my life. I've always believe that I'm somehow a happy person, having an imagination that is not self-limiting. But people, and dealing with them, can take all your energy from you because you've always got to understand them, and at the same time, keep your sanity, try not to lose it even if it feels like it's already getting out of your hand. what I've realized from my 18 years of living is that most people, no matter how much they try to say and show that they love you or no matter how much they love you in reality, the love for their selves is always greater than the kind of love they could offer to anybody. And I think it's unfair.... so unfair. It's always about self-preservation, survivability over goodwill. "me first" and the "give me more" mentality.
I'm beginning to believe an idea stated before by a blogger like me that I've read somewhere in the past, that only a very few number of people in this world is still worth loving. You know what I'll wish on the first star that will appear tomorrow on the night skies? I'll wish that before my life becomes life no more, I've already managed to have shared a love that is self-less and unconditional.
[ t w o ]
We'll be having our debate on our ParlPrac class this coming Friday, and I was appointed secretary to the presiding officer, who happened to be Czar. I'm a bit nervous about it because I was the one who provided the class the set of by-laws that must be observed and exercised in the debate. Lord, can u make this debate a success for me, please? thank u.
[ t h r e e ]
van, I told myself before that I wouldn't waste another minute of my precious time trying to write something about you here on my blog. Yes, I consider being involved in a cold war against you already a sickening situation... sickening and tiring. You will never hear a thing from me again... You failed to make me witness your good side, maybe simply because it's non-existing. I'm sorry but I'm already one of those so many people around you who've already chosen to see through you, as if you're not there at all. You are now... invisible in my eyes. How pitiful.
P.S.
Please try to keep Kristin, she's the only one left who can tolerate your appalling uniqueness. I just wish she's at least trying to change you... and also your other friend whose pretentious kindness towards me I so greatly admire - flawless and discreet. Did I just say discreet? Oh... I didn't mean to.
[ f o u r ]
promise, no name bashing anymore in the coming entries.
this day is sooo tiring, not physically though, because I've always believed that you can always just rest and get some sleep after you've done physically challenging jobs. I feel wasted, because of the dramas some people are bringing into my life. I've always believe that I'm somehow a happy person, having an imagination that is not self-limiting. But people, and dealing with them, can take all your energy from you because you've always got to understand them, and at the same time, keep your sanity, try not to lose it even if it feels like it's already getting out of your hand. what I've realized from my 18 years of living is that most people, no matter how much they try to say and show that they love you or no matter how much they love you in reality, the love for their selves is always greater than the kind of love they could offer to anybody. And I think it's unfair.... so unfair. It's always about self-preservation, survivability over goodwill. "me first" and the "give me more" mentality.
I'm beginning to believe an idea stated before by a blogger like me that I've read somewhere in the past, that only a very few number of people in this world is still worth loving. You know what I'll wish on the first star that will appear tomorrow on the night skies? I'll wish that before my life becomes life no more, I've already managed to have shared a love that is self-less and unconditional.
[ t w o ]
We'll be having our debate on our ParlPrac class this coming Friday, and I was appointed secretary to the presiding officer, who happened to be Czar. I'm a bit nervous about it because I was the one who provided the class the set of by-laws that must be observed and exercised in the debate. Lord, can u make this debate a success for me, please? thank u.
[ t h r e e ]
van, I told myself before that I wouldn't waste another minute of my precious time trying to write something about you here on my blog. Yes, I consider being involved in a cold war against you already a sickening situation... sickening and tiring. You will never hear a thing from me again... You failed to make me witness your good side, maybe simply because it's non-existing. I'm sorry but I'm already one of those so many people around you who've already chosen to see through you, as if you're not there at all. You are now... invisible in my eyes. How pitiful.
P.S.
Please try to keep Kristin, she's the only one left who can tolerate your appalling uniqueness. I just wish she's at least trying to change you... and also your other friend whose pretentious kindness towards me I so greatly admire - flawless and discreet. Did I just say discreet? Oh... I didn't mean to.
[ f o u r ]
promise, no name bashing anymore in the coming entries.
"what makes you unique?"
[ tsk tsk ]
ahhh.. the latest poem sucks, I know!! just felt like going a bit mushy last night, didn't know the result would be that bad.. haha!! anyweiz, I wonder why my friendster blog refuses to open.. hmm. maybe because I've posted there something like this: "blogger is much better than friendster blogs..." HAHA!
[ kim, kim, kim ]
ate kim!! thanks for the free meal ulet!! don't worry about josh, I'm not really that into him.. nyehehehe!! just kidding!
[ yipee!! ]
We did our impromptu speech today in our speech 2 class, and though I felt like I've been through hell standing in front of the class for two minutes finding words that would best tell my ideas about the topic given exclusively for me, "what makes you unique?", I should say that I really enjoyed the experience. Just as not to let the precious seconds pass by without me telling a thing, a factor not beneficial on my grade, I tried to focus, and mann was it hard!! I felt like I suddenly forgot all of the words and I couldn't form even just a single sentence. But after bluffing a few greetings and two sentences without substance, I began to say something nice and good. What happened next had been graded 94. I should say that that grade was already satisfying knowing that the highest is 96. I want to thank God for the flow of ideas, He did not fail to guide me once again.
[ whooo-hoo!! ]
While doing a seatwork in our Intro to Law class, someone announced that the winner of this year's UAAP cheering competition, according to text message, was National University (N.U) and Adamson got the 2nd, FEU, 3rd. Of course, we were doubtful about it, considering it just one freakin' joke that wasn't funny at all (or was it?). We were right, it was indeed just a joke because the winners are as follows: 1st - UST, 2nd - UP, 3rd - FEU. WHoa.. another year on the third spot! I'm thankful to God for letting us bag the third place but let us not stop there, fellow tamaraws! Let's get the crown from UST next year!!!
[ september 17 is... ]
ROBERTO MACATONGTONG JR.'s Birthday!! Happy birthday Hero!! Wish ko sana you'll gain some weight.. haha!! and lovelife of course...
[ speaking of lovelife ]
tsk, there are rumors that the new-found love of my life is GAY!! what the fu*ck was that!? minsan na nga lang akong makadama nang ganitong pakiramdam.. tapos ganon pa. Pero I refuse to believe the rumors.. kasi I really like him. I just wish that he could lessen all those constant starings on me during class hours, hindi kasi ako sanay. I hate the feeling of being conscious about my looks! Kailangan ko tuloy ayusin ang sarili ko every now and then.. Haha! weird, he's making me feel like there was something in me that is worth staring at... well, I'm still on the process of figuring out what it is about me that he liked.
I'm not assuming, I'm just being positive. *winks*
ahhh.. the latest poem sucks, I know!! just felt like going a bit mushy last night, didn't know the result would be that bad.. haha!! anyweiz, I wonder why my friendster blog refuses to open.. hmm. maybe because I've posted there something like this: "blogger is much better than friendster blogs..." HAHA!
[ kim, kim, kim ]
ate kim!! thanks for the free meal ulet!! don't worry about josh, I'm not really that into him.. nyehehehe!! just kidding!
[ yipee!! ]
We did our impromptu speech today in our speech 2 class, and though I felt like I've been through hell standing in front of the class for two minutes finding words that would best tell my ideas about the topic given exclusively for me, "what makes you unique?", I should say that I really enjoyed the experience. Just as not to let the precious seconds pass by without me telling a thing, a factor not beneficial on my grade, I tried to focus, and mann was it hard!! I felt like I suddenly forgot all of the words and I couldn't form even just a single sentence. But after bluffing a few greetings and two sentences without substance, I began to say something nice and good. What happened next had been graded 94. I should say that that grade was already satisfying knowing that the highest is 96. I want to thank God for the flow of ideas, He did not fail to guide me once again.
[ whooo-hoo!! ]
While doing a seatwork in our Intro to Law class, someone announced that the winner of this year's UAAP cheering competition, according to text message, was National University (N.U) and Adamson got the 2nd, FEU, 3rd. Of course, we were doubtful about it, considering it just one freakin' joke that wasn't funny at all (or was it?). We were right, it was indeed just a joke because the winners are as follows: 1st - UST, 2nd - UP, 3rd - FEU. WHoa.. another year on the third spot! I'm thankful to God for letting us bag the third place but let us not stop there, fellow tamaraws! Let's get the crown from UST next year!!!
[ september 17 is... ]
ROBERTO MACATONGTONG JR.'s Birthday!! Happy birthday Hero!! Wish ko sana you'll gain some weight.. haha!! and lovelife of course...
[ speaking of lovelife ]
tsk, there are rumors that the new-found love of my life is GAY!! what the fu*ck was that!? minsan na nga lang akong makadama nang ganitong pakiramdam.. tapos ganon pa. Pero I refuse to believe the rumors.. kasi I really like him. I just wish that he could lessen all those constant starings on me during class hours, hindi kasi ako sanay. I hate the feeling of being conscious about my looks! Kailangan ko tuloy ayusin ang sarili ko every now and then.. Haha! weird, he's making me feel like there was something in me that is worth staring at... well, I'm still on the process of figuring out what it is about me that he liked.
I'm not assuming, I'm just being positive. *winks*
I've seen it coming
so I've put on my helmet
a sword on my one hand
a shield on the other
It's already here
and though equipped,
I've been unable to fight it
my knees got weak...
I hate the feeling
of being defeated
by love once again,
not until you stretched out your hand...
our stares met somewhere in between
then I tried to consider your offer,
love and affection -
I reconsidered and considered again.
When I look up
to finally grab the gift
of my dream knight in shining armor,
he's already far from me.
beside him, is the girl
who didn't bother to consider,
reconsider and consider again
about the love and affection he offered.
This,
is a battle
not well fought.
so I've put on my helmet
a sword on my one hand
a shield on the other
It's already here
and though equipped,
I've been unable to fight it
my knees got weak...
I hate the feeling
of being defeated
by love once again,
not until you stretched out your hand...
our stares met somewhere in between
then I tried to consider your offer,
love and affection -
I reconsidered and considered again.
When I look up
to finally grab the gift
of my dream knight in shining armor,
he's already far from me.
beside him, is the girl
who didn't bother to consider,
reconsider and consider again
about the love and affection he offered.
This,
is a battle
not well fought.
about pinoy big brother
Big Brother Philippines Facts
The house was built in the country's largest city, Quezon City, at a cost of around 18 million pesos (£180,000) and features two living rooms, a garden and swimming pool.
Around 35,000 hopefuls had applied to be on the show. "It was not people with good looks, gorgeous bodies, or fantastic talents that we were looking for," said director Laurenti Dyogi of the selection process. "It was people with very interesting and expressive personalities-and the more unique, the better. For as long as they can pass a series of tests that would show that they have no violent and suicidal tendencies, we were willing to consider them to be in the final 12. And that's regardless of their profession, educational background and religion."
The winner will take home one million pesos (£10,000), a new house and a brand new Nissan Frontier Titanium 3.
[ My Opinion: called for, so don't argue ]
Pinoy Big Brother is the latest craze today on Philippine television, I guess. I've been able to watch a few number of episodes, and really, I'm entertained. But let me ask you one question, are you really interested in those lame challenges that Pinoy Big Brother is asking the housemaids to do? C'mon, let's just be true to ourselves here, No is your answer. How come that suddenly, we've become too curious of those people who probably we've already rub shoulders with in the past, the time when they're not on TV and we don't give a damn? Is it because there's a need for us to be on top of everybody else's business? Or is it because there's this longing inside us for the same fifteen minute of fame they're all experiencing now? We want to know what's happening to the housemaids as they put on their show and sell us the tasteless dramas we're all craving for.
I cannot blame you if you'll be fired up in disgust as an avid fan of PBB once you've read this, but I think the show is sooo pointless. Pointless because it is heartless. Heartless because it feels like we're being fed a piece of human misery, and not know it consciously, because we're so preoccupied with the kind of enjoyment that is selfish and inconsiderate.
how sad, it makes you happy.
sleepful... ?? nyahaha!!
ahh.. nakakatamad talaga gumawa ng kahit ano pag umuulan. tulad ngayon, natulog lang ako maghapon. kung di pa tumawag si dave, siguro, mas mahaba-haba pa ang naging pag-stay ko sa dreamland. tagal ko na rin palang di nakapag-update.. hmm.. kasi naman, wala akong maisip ilagay na kwento, kahit marami namang nangyayari sa buhay ko.. ayun, tinatamad lang pala talaga akong magkwento. pero ngayon, o cge na nga, magkukuwento na ko.. nyehehe.
Before I proceed to my storytelling, I would like to show off first some of the photos taken with the P1 class, so go now to the kel's photos section of this site located at the left side..
Updates:
I haven't attended the fumigation project last Sunday, so I wasn't surprise when Ma'am Gemzon kinda like snobbed me when Monday came and I needed to see her for me to be able to take my midterm exam on Intro to Law. But I guess the disappointment was short term when came Wednesday and she greeted me with a smile... and news that I need to work on a new logo because our club is not anymore Rotaract Club of FEU but is now ROTARACT club of Sampaloc, community based instead of school-based. Funny thing is, I still feel elated whenever somebody entrusts me to do something like that. I feel that my modicum amount of talent is being appreciated. Thanks for your trust, I promise to always give my best.
Oh, I'm also planning to submit a design proposal for the PolSci shirt. I hope they'll at least take a look at it... kahit hindi na mapili. hehe.
[ currently... ]
I'm reviewing the latest album of Toni Braxton, "Libra". Consists only of 10 tracks, the first single is already out now but is not being played on Philippine radios..hhmm, I wonder why.. not a hit? No. "Please", the first single released, have been able to fill a spot in the Billboard 100... sayang, I really like that track pa naman, kasi may rhytmn and beat that only Toni Braxton can deliver.
[ emotions ]
You're still occupying a piece of my mind and a part in my heart, nakakainis ka!! sisingilin na kita!! When will you tell me that you're planning to stay for good, and that I somehow occupy a piece of your mind and a part in your heart? willing naman akong magbayad kung sakaling sisingilin mo ako... and I'm not talking about money. Ang corny ko na... ikaw kasi eh.
Before I proceed to my storytelling, I would like to show off first some of the photos taken with the P1 class, so go now to the kel's photos section of this site located at the left side..
Updates:
I haven't attended the fumigation project last Sunday, so I wasn't surprise when Ma'am Gemzon kinda like snobbed me when Monday came and I needed to see her for me to be able to take my midterm exam on Intro to Law. But I guess the disappointment was short term when came Wednesday and she greeted me with a smile... and news that I need to work on a new logo because our club is not anymore Rotaract Club of FEU but is now ROTARACT club of Sampaloc, community based instead of school-based. Funny thing is, I still feel elated whenever somebody entrusts me to do something like that. I feel that my modicum amount of talent is being appreciated. Thanks for your trust, I promise to always give my best.
Oh, I'm also planning to submit a design proposal for the PolSci shirt. I hope they'll at least take a look at it... kahit hindi na mapili. hehe.
[ currently... ]
I'm reviewing the latest album of Toni Braxton, "Libra". Consists only of 10 tracks, the first single is already out now but is not being played on Philippine radios..hhmm, I wonder why.. not a hit? No. "Please", the first single released, have been able to fill a spot in the Billboard 100... sayang, I really like that track pa naman, kasi may rhytmn and beat that only Toni Braxton can deliver.
[ emotions ]
You're still occupying a piece of my mind and a part in my heart, nakakainis ka!! sisingilin na kita!! When will you tell me that you're planning to stay for good, and that I somehow occupy a piece of your mind and a part in your heart? willing naman akong magbayad kung sakaling sisingilin mo ako... and I'm not talking about money. Ang corny ko na... ikaw kasi eh.
will blog, will blog...
thanks to kuya mark, I will now write something about Sunday's alay-lakad from PICC to Quirino grand stand. I will present it in some sort of a timeline:
9:00 - 10:30 PM, Saturday
got home from school, eaten dinner, took a bath, prepared things, talked with some family members.
11:00 PM
arrived at Leo's place, watched TV for awhile, discussed with Gwen, Leo and Kim where we'll be going because gwen is gustong gumala.. hehe.. ei gwen, thanks again for everything.. will never forget you... *sniff, sniff* huhuhu..
12 - 3:30 AM, Sunday
Boysie's Bar, watched naughty things, admired someone who happened to be uhmm..never mind.., danced for awhile, sipped mango shake, changed black shirt to clue shirt
4:00 AM - 6:00 AM
in front of Aliw Theatre, waited for the VIP's to arrive, a few showed up, many got lost (note: aliw theatre daw ang meeting place, at EXACTLY 4AM daw), hurried to go to our line
6:00 - 9:00 AM
walked from PICC to Quirino Grand Stand, talked to friends to help endure the long walk, observed, listened, then talked again. when we reached the final destination, sat at some rock to rest the aching legs and feet.
9:00 - 10:00 AM
mark, I and dave agreed to eat somewhere, found greenwich, ate there. talked about a lot of things...
10:00 AM - 5:00 PM
after we ate, we've decided to go malling, picked SM Megamall then watched an Indian film titled "Evil Eyes", a movie that has the same plot as that of "the eye" from Japan... or korea, I really don't know. moving on, we also window shopped, drooled over magazines with Angelina Jolie on its front covers, walked again (alay lakad part 2), went to Shang, walked again to hunt down a cozy place where foods are offered cheap (sadly, there were none), found a chair where we rest our exhausted feet, legs, mind and mouth... ahhh, serenity at last...
5:00 - 6:00 PM
we parted ways, I waited for the rain to subside even just a lttle coz I don't have an umbrella with me and I don't wanna go home wet. rain subsided, so I ran to reach the jeep terminal from crossing to guadalupe
6:30 PM
got home, didn't feel like eating so I went straight to bed.
2:00 PM, Monday
finally, racquel woke up... coz guianne called.
the end.
9:00 - 10:30 PM, Saturday
got home from school, eaten dinner, took a bath, prepared things, talked with some family members.
11:00 PM
arrived at Leo's place, watched TV for awhile, discussed with Gwen, Leo and Kim where we'll be going because gwen is gustong gumala.. hehe.. ei gwen, thanks again for everything.. will never forget you... *sniff, sniff* huhuhu..
12 - 3:30 AM, Sunday
Boysie's Bar, watched naughty things, admired someone who happened to be uhmm..never mind.., danced for awhile, sipped mango shake, changed black shirt to clue shirt
4:00 AM - 6:00 AM
in front of Aliw Theatre, waited for the VIP's to arrive, a few showed up, many got lost (note: aliw theatre daw ang meeting place, at EXACTLY 4AM daw), hurried to go to our line
6:00 - 9:00 AM
walked from PICC to Quirino Grand Stand, talked to friends to help endure the long walk, observed, listened, then talked again. when we reached the final destination, sat at some rock to rest the aching legs and feet.
9:00 - 10:00 AM
mark, I and dave agreed to eat somewhere, found greenwich, ate there. talked about a lot of things...
10:00 AM - 5:00 PM
after we ate, we've decided to go malling, picked SM Megamall then watched an Indian film titled "Evil Eyes", a movie that has the same plot as that of "the eye" from Japan... or korea, I really don't know. moving on, we also window shopped, drooled over magazines with Angelina Jolie on its front covers, walked again (alay lakad part 2), went to Shang, walked again to hunt down a cozy place where foods are offered cheap (sadly, there were none), found a chair where we rest our exhausted feet, legs, mind and mouth... ahhh, serenity at last...
5:00 - 6:00 PM
we parted ways, I waited for the rain to subside even just a lttle coz I don't have an umbrella with me and I don't wanna go home wet. rain subsided, so I ran to reach the jeep terminal from crossing to guadalupe
6:30 PM
got home, didn't feel like eating so I went straight to bed.
2:00 PM, Monday
finally, racquel woke up... coz guianne called.
the end.
trashtalk on trashes
trashtalk on trashes
I know, I find imperfections and weaknesses on my old friends, because there are indeed, because imperfection exists. But if I'm going to compare them to the bunch of pretenders that I've managed to meet in college, too confident about themselves though in reality, living a miserable life, my old friends would undeniably stand-out, inspite of them having achiless' heels.
OO, kilala ko na kayo, nakita ko na ang mga totoong kulay nyo. May kinang kayo sa kaanyuang panlabas lamang, pero ang parte ng pagkatao nyo na kayang itago, nabubulok, namamaho. Kayo-kayo, nagsasaksakan habang nakatalikod ang isa, naghahanap ng lalaitin dahil mga Diyos kayong walang dungis - isang maling akala. Pinagtatawanan nyo ang may kaunting dumi sa mukha, habang kayo, may mga malalang sakit na nakakahawa - insecurities na kinakain kayo nang buhay.
It's such a pity, you were blessed with beautiful faces, only to arm it with an attitude that will not bring you somewhere good. I wish you could stop with all those backstabbing and pin-pointing of other people's faults and instead, decide to clean up first your own messes.
I know, I find imperfections and weaknesses on my old friends, because there are indeed, because imperfection exists. But if I'm going to compare them to the bunch of pretenders that I've managed to meet in college, too confident about themselves though in reality, living a miserable life, my old friends would undeniably stand-out, inspite of them having achiless' heels.
OO, kilala ko na kayo, nakita ko na ang mga totoong kulay nyo. May kinang kayo sa kaanyuang panlabas lamang, pero ang parte ng pagkatao nyo na kayang itago, nabubulok, namamaho. Kayo-kayo, nagsasaksakan habang nakatalikod ang isa, naghahanap ng lalaitin dahil mga Diyos kayong walang dungis - isang maling akala. Pinagtatawanan nyo ang may kaunting dumi sa mukha, habang kayo, may mga malalang sakit na nakakahawa - insecurities na kinakain kayo nang buhay.
It's such a pity, you were blessed with beautiful faces, only to arm it with an attitude that will not bring you somewhere good. I wish you could stop with all those backstabbing and pin-pointing of other people's faults and instead, decide to clean up first your own messes.
well, too much poems already. sorry, been busy. had to deal with the daily hazards of studies. need to keep up with the "competition".. hehe.
anyweiz, I'm currently watching the current number 1 movie in US, the "the 40 year old virgin". you should see it... ahh!! kelly clarkson!! wahaha! bleh, you can only laugh with me after you see the movie.
okei.. i believe my extracurriculars are going to take up so much of my time in the coming days, like the alay lakad and our fumigation project, so I guess I still don't have the time to clean my room.. grabe, sobrang naaawa na ako sa itsura at kalagayan ng room ko.. it honestly looks like little payatas right now, so please don't visit me anytime soon.
speaking of alay lakad, i wanna thank my fellow 4A buddies KIM, GWEN and DAX for doing me a great favor of getting up early or not sleeping anymore just to go with me and the rest of the members and officers of FEU Rotaract club in the alay lakad that will take place this coming sunday morning, 4am to be more specific, from PICC to Quirino Grandstand. thank you guys! thank you so much!
hmm.. expect more poems to be posted here in the coming days.. some people just can't refrain from fueling me with inspiration.. lolz.
have a great weekend ahead! or... have a great head this weekend.. peace out!
anyweiz, I'm currently watching the current number 1 movie in US, the "the 40 year old virgin". you should see it... ahh!! kelly clarkson!! wahaha! bleh, you can only laugh with me after you see the movie.
okei.. i believe my extracurriculars are going to take up so much of my time in the coming days, like the alay lakad and our fumigation project, so I guess I still don't have the time to clean my room.. grabe, sobrang naaawa na ako sa itsura at kalagayan ng room ko.. it honestly looks like little payatas right now, so please don't visit me anytime soon.
speaking of alay lakad, i wanna thank my fellow 4A buddies KIM, GWEN and DAX for doing me a great favor of getting up early or not sleeping anymore just to go with me and the rest of the members and officers of FEU Rotaract club in the alay lakad that will take place this coming sunday morning, 4am to be more specific, from PICC to Quirino Grandstand. thank you guys! thank you so much!
hmm.. expect more poems to be posted here in the coming days.. some people just can't refrain from fueling me with inspiration.. lolz.
have a great weekend ahead! or... have a great head this weekend.. peace out!
tell it to the whole wide world!
you can tell all the lies
all the lies
you've woven so well...
lies you thought
are flawless.
a crowd claps.
bravo, bravo, they say.
i applaud your being persistent
in dragging me down to your level,
keep trying,
so I'll keep on laughing,
at a free comedy marathon.
audience was astonished.
such a great performance from their favorite clown.
i never even thought
you've chosen acting
as your hobby.
a blockbuster
a two thumbs up play,
titled
"the pathetic pretender"
congratulations,
your award is a trip to hell.
all the lies
you've woven so well...
lies you thought
are flawless.
a crowd claps.
bravo, bravo, they say.
i applaud your being persistent
in dragging me down to your level,
keep trying,
so I'll keep on laughing,
at a free comedy marathon.
audience was astonished.
such a great performance from their favorite clown.
i never even thought
you've chosen acting
as your hobby.
a blockbuster
a two thumbs up play,
titled
"the pathetic pretender"
congratulations,
your award is a trip to hell.
for you, DO!
why did you even bother to begin
when suddenly,
you'll just stop
dropped me
like I wasn't capable
of breaking
taken for granted
like I was
that tough
instead of just
listening to you heart,
you judged,
i thought
you are different
thanks for showing
that you have a streak
of an ordinary
boy...
ordinary means
nothing really special.
when suddenly,
you'll just stop
dropped me
like I wasn't capable
of breaking
taken for granted
like I was
that tough
instead of just
listening to you heart,
you judged,
i thought
you are different
thanks for showing
that you have a streak
of an ordinary
boy...
ordinary means
nothing really special.
hurray for red-eye!
been waiting for this... a real good movie at last.
Usually, critic's and moviegoer's reviews on one movie vary, the former saying a flick sucks while the latter showing two thumbs up, or vice versa. Well, seems like RED EYE managed to gather rave reviews from both, giving average ratings of B and B*
I don't know if the movie is already showing on Philippine movie houses, but I strongly recommend that if it is or it will be, spend some of your hard earned dough on it by going to a theatre instead of grabbing a DVD copy in Quiapo or elsewhere, because it's really worth your time and money.
Usually, critic's and moviegoer's reviews on one movie vary, the former saying a flick sucks while the latter showing two thumbs up, or vice versa. Well, seems like RED EYE managed to gather rave reviews from both, giving average ratings of B and B*
I don't know if the movie is already showing on Philippine movie houses, but I strongly recommend that if it is or it will be, spend some of your hard earned dough on it by going to a theatre instead of grabbing a DVD copy in Quiapo or elsewhere, because it's really worth your time and money.
from ate vanna's site...
this poem was taken from ate vanna's 100bottles site: I so love this poem.. nakaka-relate kasi ang inyong lingkod. read on:
You still invade my thoughts like no one else can
i loved you far longer than what is healthy
and this is where my assumptions took me
to a merry chase going nowhere
these lines...
a token of a long lost hope and faith
to a man
who would love no other
but his music
from a girl
who would love no other
man.
...
hmm.. nakakainis nang konti, hindi nya ko masyado naalayan ng atensyon. sabagay, hindi ko rin naman sya madalas pansinin e.. kasi naman, bakit ba kailangan ko kaagad mailang? e friendship pa lang naman ang dapat habulin... o baka naman friendship lang talaga ang kaya kong abutan...
You still invade my thoughts like no one else can
i loved you far longer than what is healthy
and this is where my assumptions took me
to a merry chase going nowhere
these lines...
a token of a long lost hope and faith
to a man
who would love no other
but his music
from a girl
who would love no other
man.
...
hmm.. nakakainis nang konti, hindi nya ko masyado naalayan ng atensyon. sabagay, hindi ko rin naman sya madalas pansinin e.. kasi naman, bakit ba kailangan ko kaagad mailang? e friendship pa lang naman ang dapat habulin... o baka naman friendship lang talaga ang kaya kong abutan...
wowowee!!
New MP3s on the Download Area:
Shake it Off- Mariah Carey
Dirty Little Secrets - All American Rejects
Stay (acoustic) - Cueshe
All the Way - Craig David
Speed of Sound - Coldplay
I'm feeling generous!! So here, I've uploaded the latest full album of 3 Doors Down "Seventeen Days" for all of you 3DD fanatics out there! CLiCK HERE! I just wanna remind you that the filesize of this album is 71 MB so expect a your download to last up to 3 hours or more... enjoy!
Did you know that Avril Lavigne has B-sides album (scraps that didn't make it to the released album, alanis a. has the same album, "feast on scraps") album that had been put up on sale at e-bay? the last bid was a whopping $355.. wow, that's a lot of money for a single cd, don't you think? the album consists of unreleased tracks including a demo versions.. well, I've already downloaded that 355 dollar worth album and currently, the songs are on my musicmatch player, sounds filling up my brother's room... hehe.. 17 tracks are all good baby!! thank God for internet.
I'm supposed to be reviewing for the midterm exams now, or at least reading and digesting even a single case out of the 25 cases that must be passed on wednesday next week, but hey, here I am, downloading full albums of my favorite artists and, burning them on cd, googling and reading writings of Kahlil Gibran. I don't feel like doing scholastic activities for now... I'm down with a sickness, not laziness this time, but sipon .. hmm.. sorry, I forgot what's the english term for that.. maybe you can offer some help? hehe.. anyweiz... I want to review for my POLS9 but I forgot to get my book from Rhiane.. so, yea, no review for today!! yey! even if the exams are tomorrow already, well, I'm not even sure if they'll gonna let me take the exams, so why bother to study? what for?
[ monkey business and chaotic resolve ]
I love the latest albums of Black Eyed Peas and PLUMB... I'm recommending them.
[ Google Print Beta ]
When Google offers something new, it is always, at the same time, something great. The same company who offered 2GB space for a free email service are offering Google Print, still on its Beta phase.
The 411: (source: http://print.google.com/googleprint/about.html)
What is Google Print?
Google's mission is to organize the world's information, but much of that information isn't yet online. Google Print aims to get it there by putting book content where you can find it most easily – right in your Google search results.
How does Google Print work?
Just do a search on the Google Print homepage. When we find a book whose content contains a match for your search terms, we'll link to it in your search results. Click a book title and you'll see the page of the book that has your search terms, along with other information about the book and "Buy this Book" links to online bookstores (you can view the entirety of public domain books or, for books under copyright, just a few pages or in some cases, only the title’s bibliographic data and brief snippets). You can also search for more information within that specific book and find nearby libraries that have it.
Where do these books come from?
The book content in Google Print comes from two sources: publishers and libraries.
Shake it Off- Mariah Carey
Dirty Little Secrets - All American Rejects
Stay (acoustic) - Cueshe
All the Way - Craig David
Speed of Sound - Coldplay
I'm feeling generous!! So here, I've uploaded the latest full album of 3 Doors Down "Seventeen Days" for all of you 3DD fanatics out there! CLiCK HERE! I just wanna remind you that the filesize of this album is 71 MB so expect a your download to last up to 3 hours or more... enjoy!
Did you know that Avril Lavigne has B-sides album (scraps that didn't make it to the released album, alanis a. has the same album, "feast on scraps") album that had been put up on sale at e-bay? the last bid was a whopping $355.. wow, that's a lot of money for a single cd, don't you think? the album consists of unreleased tracks including a demo versions.. well, I've already downloaded that 355 dollar worth album and currently, the songs are on my musicmatch player, sounds filling up my brother's room... hehe.. 17 tracks are all good baby!! thank God for internet.
I'm supposed to be reviewing for the midterm exams now, or at least reading and digesting even a single case out of the 25 cases that must be passed on wednesday next week, but hey, here I am, downloading full albums of my favorite artists and, burning them on cd, googling and reading writings of Kahlil Gibran. I don't feel like doing scholastic activities for now... I'm down with a sickness, not laziness this time, but sipon .. hmm.. sorry, I forgot what's the english term for that.. maybe you can offer some help? hehe.. anyweiz... I want to review for my POLS9 but I forgot to get my book from Rhiane.. so, yea, no review for today!! yey! even if the exams are tomorrow already, well, I'm not even sure if they'll gonna let me take the exams, so why bother to study? what for?
[ monkey business and chaotic resolve ]
I love the latest albums of Black Eyed Peas and PLUMB... I'm recommending them.
[ Google Print Beta ]
When Google offers something new, it is always, at the same time, something great. The same company who offered 2GB space for a free email service are offering Google Print, still on its Beta phase.
The 411: (source: http://print.google.com/googleprint/about.html)
What is Google Print?
Google's mission is to organize the world's information, but much of that information isn't yet online. Google Print aims to get it there by putting book content where you can find it most easily – right in your Google search results.
How does Google Print work?
Just do a search on the Google Print homepage. When we find a book whose content contains a match for your search terms, we'll link to it in your search results. Click a book title and you'll see the page of the book that has your search terms, along with other information about the book and "Buy this Book" links to online bookstores (you can view the entirety of public domain books or, for books under copyright, just a few pages or in some cases, only the title’s bibliographic data and brief snippets). You can also search for more information within that specific book and find nearby libraries that have it.
Where do these books come from?
The book content in Google Print comes from two sources: publishers and libraries.
pieces of paper
[ no exams for me ]
oh my, i think i will not be able to take up my midterm exam on friday and saturday because I still haven't paid my balance approximately amounting to 13,000 pesos.. wow, it's only now that I truly realize how expensive education is. It's no surprise that my name yet appeared again on the negative list, the list of people who won't be allowed to step a foot on the classroom on examination day unless they go to the cashier first and pay the necassary amount for the continuation of their education... paper paper, money money, baby...
the greatest irony is, some of the people who were able to pay on time and in full are the not so bright students who don't even bother to touch their books. Hmm... I so envy their kind, the part only of being able to pay on time and in full. hehe...
so, where will I go on Friday and Saturday, knowing that my professors are not going to hand in the questionnaires to me because of my unpaid dues? I don't know. Any suggestion?
[ Eeepp!! ]
I still haven't worked on the logo I promised I'll be creating for our Rotaract Club.. hmm.. I think I should first work on this getting uglier attitude of mine of making promises that couldn't be kept. well anyweiz, I guess I need to seek help from artists like me (ehem.. speaking too highly of yourself again, ms. balao-as?) to be able to produce a kick-ass design. hehe.
eeep!! (again...) I still haven't reviewed for that long quiz tomorrow in our speech class. I know I need to study and I believe that I must study but whenever I remember the kind of rampant cheating that proliferates in the room during exams, it makes me wanna let go of my study material, close my eyes and lose myself to dreamland...
oh my, i think i will not be able to take up my midterm exam on friday and saturday because I still haven't paid my balance approximately amounting to 13,000 pesos.. wow, it's only now that I truly realize how expensive education is. It's no surprise that my name yet appeared again on the negative list, the list of people who won't be allowed to step a foot on the classroom on examination day unless they go to the cashier first and pay the necassary amount for the continuation of their education... paper paper, money money, baby...
the greatest irony is, some of the people who were able to pay on time and in full are the not so bright students who don't even bother to touch their books. Hmm... I so envy their kind, the part only of being able to pay on time and in full. hehe...
so, where will I go on Friday and Saturday, knowing that my professors are not going to hand in the questionnaires to me because of my unpaid dues? I don't know. Any suggestion?
[ Eeepp!! ]
I still haven't worked on the logo I promised I'll be creating for our Rotaract Club.. hmm.. I think I should first work on this getting uglier attitude of mine of making promises that couldn't be kept. well anyweiz, I guess I need to seek help from artists like me (ehem.. speaking too highly of yourself again, ms. balao-as?) to be able to produce a kick-ass design. hehe.
eeep!! (again...) I still haven't reviewed for that long quiz tomorrow in our speech class. I know I need to study and I believe that I must study but whenever I remember the kind of rampant cheating that proliferates in the room during exams, it makes me wanna let go of my study material, close my eyes and lose myself to dreamland...
enjoy at boring...
saya nung birthday party ni bobbie sa laguna! langoy-langoy! may nangyari pa ngang kakaiba eh.. kaya lang, nahihiya akong ikwento. baka walang maniwala.. haha! anyweiz, a few of my friends already knew about it, you might as well just ask them if you're really interested.. well anyweiz, sana pala hindi na ako pumasok ngayon sa school.. wala pa akong tulog dahil galing pa ngang laguna.. kasi naman, wala pala si ma'em gemzon, so wala ring intro to law, tapos wala ding ginawa sa techwrite, nag brainstorming lang ang mga magkaka-grupo to produce a topic for their research.
Some of our photos from laguna:
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and here are proofs that wala kaming ginawa sa school ngayon:
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Call me conceited, but I think someone is kinda liking me... no problem for me coz I've already fallen for him.. hehe. Kaya lang may problema...
Some of our photos from laguna:
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and here are proofs that wala kaming ginawa sa school ngayon:
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Call me conceited, but I think someone is kinda liking me... no problem for me coz I've already fallen for him.. hehe. Kaya lang may problema...
rants again, I guess...
still can't decide what I'm gonna do!! it's bobbie's birthday bash tomorrow, she invited us to join in the celebration at a private resort in Laguna... the problem is, the call time is 4pm and I've got classes up to 7:30pm! Hay nako.. hindi na lang ako papasok.. dadalhin ko na lang ung books ko dun sa swimming pool at dun ko na lang babasahin sina Fichte at Hegel. hay nako, mami-miss ko si.. si..., si DO! ay teka, hindi ba masyadong halata? hehe... waiittt!! may pag-uusapan pala kami ni Doms tomorrow... sorry doms, our chikahan is postponed.
anyweiz, marami naman kaming napag-usapan sa meeting namin sa Rotaract.. kaka-excite nga ang mga lined-up activities eh - Alay Lakad kaagad sa September 4, call time is 4AM! good luck naman sa akin. the logo making had been assigned to me and to julius rafanan (we have to make our own designs and the club will choose between our logos) I'm not expecting na mapipili ang aking logo, kasi rafanan's friend who will help him out is a FINE ARTS student. But hey! No competition, ayt? I'll contribute everything for the club to reach its goal, and according to ms. gemzon, the goals for now are for our club to be recognized by the university and to be able to achieve the prestigious "Rookie Rotary CLub of the Year" Award. Well, with the type of members and officers we have as of now, I know that somehow, nothing is impossible and those goals are just within reach.
[ rants again... ]
Ayaw nila akong tigilan. Nakakainis talaga. At ito pa ang nakakagalit talaga, pina-plastic nila ako!! gawd! pero y'know what? hindi na siguro talaga ako galit, the best word to describe what I'm feeling right now is irritation. nakaka-irita. some people just won't shut up. they are provoking a fight! as if they can handle me when I start to entertain. Ayoko lang talagang bumaba sa level nila, but they are trying to show me na I'm a weakling and can be easily stepped on pag hindi ko sila pinatulan... oh please, don't kid yourselves too much. once my anger becomes obvious, I'm telling you, you wouldn't find reasons to laugh or even just smile. besides, why should I waste my time on you, pantayan mo muna ako academically at baka maisipan pa kitang paglaanan kahit man lang konting panahon. haha!!
anyweiz, marami naman kaming napag-usapan sa meeting namin sa Rotaract.. kaka-excite nga ang mga lined-up activities eh - Alay Lakad kaagad sa September 4, call time is 4AM! good luck naman sa akin. the logo making had been assigned to me and to julius rafanan (we have to make our own designs and the club will choose between our logos) I'm not expecting na mapipili ang aking logo, kasi rafanan's friend who will help him out is a FINE ARTS student. But hey! No competition, ayt? I'll contribute everything for the club to reach its goal, and according to ms. gemzon, the goals for now are for our club to be recognized by the university and to be able to achieve the prestigious "Rookie Rotary CLub of the Year" Award. Well, with the type of members and officers we have as of now, I know that somehow, nothing is impossible and those goals are just within reach.
[ rants again... ]
Ayaw nila akong tigilan. Nakakainis talaga. At ito pa ang nakakagalit talaga, pina-plastic nila ako!! gawd! pero y'know what? hindi na siguro talaga ako galit, the best word to describe what I'm feeling right now is irritation. nakaka-irita. some people just won't shut up. they are provoking a fight! as if they can handle me when I start to entertain. Ayoko lang talagang bumaba sa level nila, but they are trying to show me na I'm a weakling and can be easily stepped on pag hindi ko sila pinatulan... oh please, don't kid yourselves too much. once my anger becomes obvious, I'm telling you, you wouldn't find reasons to laugh or even just smile. besides, why should I waste my time on you, pantayan mo muna ako academically at baka maisipan pa kitang paglaanan kahit man lang konting panahon. haha!!
not funny at all...
forgive me
I've fallen for you;
for your grand simplicity,
for being a humble stand-out,
for being funny at the right time,
for being serious at the right time,
for just being inexplicably you.
sorry
if my past is full of imperfections,
mistakes I can't undo anymore.
if you'll see on my forehead
a mark that you would be ashamed of -
I've tried to erase it,
but it was permanently etched,
I've tried to remove it,
so ugly,
so wrong,
so much like me...
I realized, I stopped,
it only became uglier,
turned into something acceptable
by the prejudice eyes
but something not so me.
So it's up to you now
if you'll turn your back and not dare to reconsider,
I was hoping not.
I don't want to go back anymore
to that old place full of bitter memories,
the place where you tried to rescue me from.
I love you
it's not so often that I say this to your kind,
a foreign feeling,
a different kind of burning,
a change I didn't plan to undergo from the start...
but you led me to.
don't let my plea just be another echo,
this voice is from a different person now.
= = = = = = = = = = =
Thursday is supposed to be a rest day for me, no classes to attend to, no books to read, but I think the lazy-ass routine would have to be set aside for tomorrow, because I'll be attending the first ROTARACT club meeting. I don't know exactly what the meeting will be all about but I just wish it wouldn't have to take so much time to produce substantial propositions. I hope we'll finish a lot of work tomorrow.
OMG! The membership fee for the club is 50 pesos... a month!! whoa! haha! natatawa nga ako sa sarili ko kasi nagkukuwenta nako kung magkano ung dapat kong ibawas sa baon ko everyday just to be able to pay off the monthly fee... hehe.
Blessed talaga ang mga mabubuting tao... one good example is Nadine, my classmate, she's the type who doesn't talk too much but kanina lang, Ma'am Gemzon announced that she's our monarch sa aming Intro to Law class. Well, monarch kasi ung tawag dun sa nakakuha ng pinakamataas na grade. I'm so proud of her, coz she really deserved it. Congrats Nadine!
I've fallen for you;
for your grand simplicity,
for being a humble stand-out,
for being funny at the right time,
for being serious at the right time,
for just being inexplicably you.
sorry
if my past is full of imperfections,
mistakes I can't undo anymore.
if you'll see on my forehead
a mark that you would be ashamed of -
I've tried to erase it,
but it was permanently etched,
I've tried to remove it,
so ugly,
so wrong,
so much like me...
I realized, I stopped,
it only became uglier,
turned into something acceptable
by the prejudice eyes
but something not so me.
So it's up to you now
if you'll turn your back and not dare to reconsider,
I was hoping not.
I don't want to go back anymore
to that old place full of bitter memories,
the place where you tried to rescue me from.
I love you
it's not so often that I say this to your kind,
a foreign feeling,
a different kind of burning,
a change I didn't plan to undergo from the start...
but you led me to.
don't let my plea just be another echo,
this voice is from a different person now.
Thursday is supposed to be a rest day for me, no classes to attend to, no books to read, but I think the lazy-ass routine would have to be set aside for tomorrow, because I'll be attending the first ROTARACT club meeting. I don't know exactly what the meeting will be all about but I just wish it wouldn't have to take so much time to produce substantial propositions. I hope we'll finish a lot of work tomorrow.
OMG! The membership fee for the club is 50 pesos... a month!! whoa! haha! natatawa nga ako sa sarili ko kasi nagkukuwenta nako kung magkano ung dapat kong ibawas sa baon ko everyday just to be able to pay off the monthly fee... hehe.
Blessed talaga ang mga mabubuting tao... one good example is Nadine, my classmate, she's the type who doesn't talk too much but kanina lang, Ma'am Gemzon announced that she's our monarch sa aming Intro to Law class. Well, monarch kasi ung tawag dun sa nakakuha ng pinakamataas na grade. I'm so proud of her, coz she really deserved it. Congrats Nadine!
in this time of the year...
I arrived at school at 1 o'clock in the afternoon just to find out that we don't have a class today on INTEREL because Mrs. Reyes have attended some important function... that means the start of my first class today is actually 4:30 PM... so I needed to spend 40 pesos for my internet usage outside, at WebTour PC shop specifically. Oh, I forgot to tell you, my hair is kinda looking good today because I have it relaxed last Sunday. Sorry but I don't have some interesting stories to share today... well, not quite... I do have some stories to tell:
a. doms and I talked until 9PM today... of course, we've shared interesting stories, exchanged views about some things... y'know, usual friends chika stuff.. hehe. We've talked about one type of guy, the kind who uses "psychiatry" in getting the babes. The type that acts as if he knows your real dilemmas in life, knows the person you are and tells you that he is the fittest guy to take so as to heal the wounds of your heart... lolz. She told me about some guy who hit on her one time with this kind of approach:
GUY: "man-hater ka no?"
DOMS: "hinde"
GUY: "hindi, aminin mo na, man-hater ka. akala mo lahat ng lalaki magkakatulad na lang. man-hater ka d ba?"
DOMS: "ewan ko sayo."
GUY: "gusto mo try natin?"
hahaha!! nakakatawa no... well, can't blame all those guys who hit on my friend Doms, coz she's really something. As much as I want to provide a picture of her here, I think I'd better not, she'll go hysterical once she knew about it. Doms is really allergic in seeing her own face... she so abhors vainglory... hehe.
she also told me about another guy telling her this:
GUY2: "ano na nga ulet pangalan nung kaibigan mong yun?" (referring to Ron, our common friend)
DOMS: "Ron! Ano ka ba!?"
GUY2: "pasensya ka na ha? Doms na lang ang alam kong pangalan eh.."
yeah right. haha!
b. ang kulet ni dwight kanina!! umiinom daw ako ng ihi!! haha! the reason why is because of my fondness in drinking apple flavored C2, which is urine-like in color. everytime i tried to drink, he'll make me hear something like, "mmm.. sarap ng ihi.." or "rakel, bakit ka umiinom ng ihi? sarap?", then may kasamang pang-asar na tawa! haha! ang kulet mo dwight! on my way sa sakayan, nasalubong ko naman siya, and guess what he was holding? An Apple flavored C2!! hahaha! Ihi pala dwight ha?! praning!
c. Herbert and I had a deep conversation about politics and personal stuff. I like his being openminded and understanding. Ikan, thanks for being the outlet of my emotions... thanks for seeing the good side in me.. thanks for being a friend. =D
a. doms and I talked until 9PM today... of course, we've shared interesting stories, exchanged views about some things... y'know, usual friends chika stuff.. hehe. We've talked about one type of guy, the kind who uses "psychiatry" in getting the babes. The type that acts as if he knows your real dilemmas in life, knows the person you are and tells you that he is the fittest guy to take so as to heal the wounds of your heart... lolz. She told me about some guy who hit on her one time with this kind of approach:
GUY: "man-hater ka no?"
DOMS: "hinde"
GUY: "hindi, aminin mo na, man-hater ka. akala mo lahat ng lalaki magkakatulad na lang. man-hater ka d ba?"
DOMS: "ewan ko sayo."
GUY: "gusto mo try natin?"
hahaha!! nakakatawa no... well, can't blame all those guys who hit on my friend Doms, coz she's really something. As much as I want to provide a picture of her here, I think I'd better not, she'll go hysterical once she knew about it. Doms is really allergic in seeing her own face... she so abhors vainglory... hehe.
she also told me about another guy telling her this:
GUY2: "ano na nga ulet pangalan nung kaibigan mong yun?" (referring to Ron, our common friend)
DOMS: "Ron! Ano ka ba!?"
GUY2: "pasensya ka na ha? Doms na lang ang alam kong pangalan eh.."
yeah right. haha!
b. ang kulet ni dwight kanina!! umiinom daw ako ng ihi!! haha! the reason why is because of my fondness in drinking apple flavored C2, which is urine-like in color. everytime i tried to drink, he'll make me hear something like, "mmm.. sarap ng ihi.." or "rakel, bakit ka umiinom ng ihi? sarap?", then may kasamang pang-asar na tawa! haha! ang kulet mo dwight! on my way sa sakayan, nasalubong ko naman siya, and guess what he was holding? An Apple flavored C2!! hahaha! Ihi pala dwight ha?! praning!
c. Herbert and I had a deep conversation about politics and personal stuff. I like his being openminded and understanding. Ikan, thanks for being the outlet of my emotions... thanks for seeing the good side in me.. thanks for being a friend. =D
a saddenign reality...
This is from Cranky's latest blog entry on her Friendster blog, I promise, it's worth your time:
people judge. cant help it. khet ano gwen mo, they just do, thats d way d cookie crumbles,teehee! now, 4 those who gets misunderstood evry once in a wyl, those who were put under scrutiny and those who just appreciate a good excuse for bein d "target"..relax. u dont have to go all crazy. i think, well,iv figured that evryone's normal until u get to know em. we hav r own weirdnez and were all sombody else's fool. evryone is insecure. power trippers with magnfcent egos will always bring u down. subtlety isnt in d context so,wut 2say with these rude/power trippin people? hmmm lemme think....
for those who talks too mch but knows so little..
"i can see ur point,but i still think ur full of it...."
"you have the right to remain silent,cause wutever u say will probbly be stupid anyway..."
those physical critics n d nman beautiful..
"i may be fat but ur ugly, and i cud go on a diet..."
those who implies perfection
"my imagnary friend thinks u hav SERIOUS PROBLEMS..."
for those who wont quit buggin u..
"Go away! i have enough friends already..."
then do ur evil laugh! { buwhahahaha!} this will shut ur corruptr up.
sad, kc andmeng gntong situations and this wont do u any good eh..i am not concerned with practical realities but with inner thoughts and feelings. i was always into that, inner thoughts and feelings..i beliv that ur not entitled to hurt any1 just because... i reason, i believ in emotions, i trust, and i hav faith..i beliv in people and their capabilities to love, to see u in a diffrnt light. im aiming for the stars,i know, but i trust people to be kind. idealistic? yep,this is hu i am,an introvert,a sentimental fool that enjoys rain on a june aftrnoon..i laugh and cry at the same time..thats me,thats wut made me different. and people laugh cause im different. i laugh cause your all the same.
I'm weird. You like it. You wouldn't be this far down the page if you weren't somehow transfixed by the oddity of it all. If you're weird, and people like it, this is for you..-cranky
[ my own ]
I've just learned a lesson today... no matter how hard some people try to bring you down, you'll never be down and low as long as you already have TRUE and GOOD friends to back you up and make your opponents back-off. You are truly an invincible persona when you have true friends... you are as twice as strong as you've known yourself before, a tower with a strong foundation that can't be easily demolished, a blinding light unappreciated by those who belong to the dark side of the world.
That's what I think of myself right now... thanks to the people who never doubted me and instead put me into a place which is of higher ground. My friends strengthened me so well that the negativities can only manage to bother me for short span of time.
[ losers ]
isn't it saddening when you already have all the money in the world and yet you can't buy with it the things you actually need to be happy? Isn't it more saddening when you have to badmouth someone and tell nasty rumors about him/her just to be able to reach that kind of satisfaction that your money can't bring you? you're rich but you know you don't have enough friends... real good friends? tsk.. your problem is quite serious... something that could lead to psychological imbalance. remember, there's only a thin line between sanity and the opposite of it... i advise you not to cross-over... haha! I pity you, loser.
[ bring me down! woohoo! ]
Haha! I've made it! I was appointed School Affairs Director of the ROTARACT CLUB of FEU! Thanks to Ma'am Gemzon! Thanks for believing ma'am! You never know how elated I am! Haha! thanks for putting you trust on me... I will try my best not to disappoint you and the rest of the club members. And to those people who practiced crab mentality and attacked unfairly just to bring me down, sorry losers, you're not as deserving as I am, so back-off and eat my dust! haha! still can't managed to bring me down, eh? try suicide.
If you didn't like my nice and good side, I assure you, you wouldn't like my bad side either. When I'm bad, I'm not just bad... I'm evil.
people judge. cant help it. khet ano gwen mo, they just do, thats d way d cookie crumbles,teehee! now, 4 those who gets misunderstood evry once in a wyl, those who were put under scrutiny and those who just appreciate a good excuse for bein d "target"..relax. u dont have to go all crazy. i think, well,iv figured that evryone's normal until u get to know em. we hav r own weirdnez and were all sombody else's fool. evryone is insecure. power trippers with magnfcent egos will always bring u down. subtlety isnt in d context so,wut 2say with these rude/power trippin people? hmmm lemme think....
for those who talks too mch but knows so little..
"i can see ur point,but i still think ur full of it...."
"you have the right to remain silent,cause wutever u say will probbly be stupid anyway..."
those physical critics n d nman beautiful..
"i may be fat but ur ugly, and i cud go on a diet..."
those who implies perfection
"my imagnary friend thinks u hav SERIOUS PROBLEMS..."
for those who wont quit buggin u..
"Go away! i have enough friends already..."
then do ur evil laugh! { buwhahahaha!} this will shut ur corruptr up.
sad, kc andmeng gntong situations and this wont do u any good eh..i am not concerned with practical realities but with inner thoughts and feelings. i was always into that, inner thoughts and feelings..i beliv that ur not entitled to hurt any1 just because... i reason, i believ in emotions, i trust, and i hav faith..i beliv in people and their capabilities to love, to see u in a diffrnt light. im aiming for the stars,i know, but i trust people to be kind. idealistic? yep,this is hu i am,an introvert,a sentimental fool that enjoys rain on a june aftrnoon..i laugh and cry at the same time..thats me,thats wut made me different. and people laugh cause im different. i laugh cause your all the same.
I'm weird. You like it. You wouldn't be this far down the page if you weren't somehow transfixed by the oddity of it all. If you're weird, and people like it, this is for you..-cranky
[ my own ]
I've just learned a lesson today... no matter how hard some people try to bring you down, you'll never be down and low as long as you already have TRUE and GOOD friends to back you up and make your opponents back-off. You are truly an invincible persona when you have true friends... you are as twice as strong as you've known yourself before, a tower with a strong foundation that can't be easily demolished, a blinding light unappreciated by those who belong to the dark side of the world.
That's what I think of myself right now... thanks to the people who never doubted me and instead put me into a place which is of higher ground. My friends strengthened me so well that the negativities can only manage to bother me for short span of time.
[ losers ]
isn't it saddening when you already have all the money in the world and yet you can't buy with it the things you actually need to be happy? Isn't it more saddening when you have to badmouth someone and tell nasty rumors about him/her just to be able to reach that kind of satisfaction that your money can't bring you? you're rich but you know you don't have enough friends... real good friends? tsk.. your problem is quite serious... something that could lead to psychological imbalance. remember, there's only a thin line between sanity and the opposite of it... i advise you not to cross-over... haha! I pity you, loser.
[ bring me down! woohoo! ]
Haha! I've made it! I was appointed School Affairs Director of the ROTARACT CLUB of FEU! Thanks to Ma'am Gemzon! Thanks for believing ma'am! You never know how elated I am! Haha! thanks for putting you trust on me... I will try my best not to disappoint you and the rest of the club members. And to those people who practiced crab mentality and attacked unfairly just to bring me down, sorry losers, you're not as deserving as I am, so back-off and eat my dust! haha! still can't managed to bring me down, eh? try suicide.
If you didn't like my nice and good side, I assure you, you wouldn't like my bad side either. When I'm bad, I'm not just bad... I'm evil.
yey! success!
I think yesterday's reporting in speech went well... I'm so glad that the entire P1 cooperated with us in the activity we prepared for them. I just realized something today regarding P1, they are really good in thinking outside the box. The realization came to me when we've grouped them for the activity of making a short commercial for a detergent bar. Their concepts are really worth to be applauded... and to think that we've only given them 10 minutes to practice... they have such creative minds.
Anyweiz, I don't know if I'm just trying to be optimistic, but I think the people who I have messed up relationship with are making efforts to show signs of reconciliation. I'm up to it, hundred percent, but not now. If they want to talk to me and ask certain sensitive questions, then fire away, and I'll try to give them straight answers (noticed the pun?), but don't they dare send that old hag as their representative coz what I've planned to be engaged in at this time is cold war, so don't provoke shooting war by sending her to me! I don't have time for pathetic feelingeras.
Ahhh!! I want to be an officer of the Rotaract Club in FEU!! But I guess Czar had already fixed his eyes on the presidency, so I think I have to settle for something less... hehe. Ah basta, I'll ask my friends to give me a seat in the club by insisting them to nominate me then eventually vote for me... please, classmates, please?? Well, if I'm not really destined to be an officer of Rotaract, I'll just satisfy myself with the fact that, at the very least, I'm one of the founding members of the Rotaract Club in FEU.
Anyweiz, I don't know if I'm just trying to be optimistic, but I think the people who I have messed up relationship with are making efforts to show signs of reconciliation. I'm up to it, hundred percent, but not now. If they want to talk to me and ask certain sensitive questions, then fire away, and I'll try to give them straight answers (noticed the pun?), but don't they dare send that old hag as their representative coz what I've planned to be engaged in at this time is cold war, so don't provoke shooting war by sending her to me! I don't have time for pathetic feelingeras.
Ahhh!! I want to be an officer of the Rotaract Club in FEU!! But I guess Czar had already fixed his eyes on the presidency, so I think I have to settle for something less... hehe. Ah basta, I'll ask my friends to give me a seat in the club by insisting them to nominate me then eventually vote for me... please, classmates, please?? Well, if I'm not really destined to be an officer of Rotaract, I'll just satisfy myself with the fact that, at the very least, I'm one of the founding members of the Rotaract Club in FEU.
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wtf?!?!
arrgghhh!! sana naman maging OK ung presentation namin tomorrow sa speech class!!
I've just heard from Paul that there will be another Quiz Bowl scheduled next month. This time, the fight will be IAS inter-departmental level(is that right? I'm not sure what term to use, so bear with me.), meaning there will be representatives from the different IAS courses - a pair from masscom, a pair from the english and so on. I will be the other half of PolSci's representative, being the other half of last sem's Political Science quiz bowl champions, with Paul as my partner. But Paul told me that he can't be my partner in the coming IAS quiz bowl because he was qualified from doing so, being a member of an org I beleve. He said that there will be an elimination round for prospective partners... I just hope he/she is as good as Paul... =D
errors of this entry will be fixed later, I'm in a hurry... thanks.
I've just heard from Paul that there will be another Quiz Bowl scheduled next month. This time, the fight will be IAS inter-departmental level(is that right? I'm not sure what term to use, so bear with me.), meaning there will be representatives from the different IAS courses - a pair from masscom, a pair from the english and so on. I will be the other half of PolSci's representative, being the other half of last sem's Political Science quiz bowl champions, with Paul as my partner. But Paul told me that he can't be my partner in the coming IAS quiz bowl because he was qualified from doing so, being a member of an org I beleve. He said that there will be an elimination round for prospective partners... I just hope he/she is as good as Paul... =D
errors of this entry will be fixed later, I'm in a hurry... thanks.
the skeleton key
[ movie reviews ]
had downloaded and watched two movies today, one is Herbie: Fully Loaded (starring Lindsay Lohan) and the other is The Skeleton Key which starred Kate Hudson (showing will start Aug. 12 in U.S, I don't know if it will be released here)
Well, Herbie Fully Loaded is a fun and entertaining movie, it's not that good, but it's OK. The Skeleton Key is my kind of horror flick. It doesn't feature montrous entities or walking skeletons (lolz). I just find the concept original and the story, unpredictable. The story progresses slowly, so if you're the type who wants instant action, you'll just probably doze off, but if you got the patience to wait for the big twist, sit tight and I promise, you'll be hooked as soon as you hit the last 30 minutes of the movie. here, I've provided you some scenes from the movie:
[ spoiler shots ]
had downloaded and watched two movies today, one is Herbie: Fully Loaded (starring Lindsay Lohan) and the other is The Skeleton Key which starred Kate Hudson (showing will start Aug. 12 in U.S, I don't know if it will be released here)
Well, Herbie Fully Loaded is a fun and entertaining movie, it's not that good, but it's OK. The Skeleton Key is my kind of horror flick. It doesn't feature montrous entities or walking skeletons (lolz). I just find the concept original and the story, unpredictable. The story progresses slowly, so if you're the type who wants instant action, you'll just probably doze off, but if you got the patience to wait for the big twist, sit tight and I promise, you'll be hooked as soon as you hit the last 30 minutes of the movie. here, I've provided you some scenes from the movie:
[ spoiler shots ]
a different kind of Irony
nakakatawa ako ngayon. hindi ako nakapag-exam sa stats, di ko rin naipasa ung ginawa kong assignment kasi nawawala. muntik na rin akong hindi nakapasok kasi wala akong baon, hindi pa kasi umuuwi si kuya. sa speech class naman namin, ako ung reason kaya natagalan kami matapos sa huling activity sa group dynamics, ayaw kasi kumapit ng papel sa foot ko. sa techwrite naman, ang hirap pala i-explain ng Facial Recognition System, yun pa ang pinili ko! haha! nakakatawa talaga! Medyo may pagkamalas lang talaga ang araw na ito... pero di bale, nakakatawa naman eh. eto pa, nung dini-discuss ko sa mga kagrupo ko sa speech kung ano ang gagawin namin this coming wednesday sa presentation namin, at paano namin gagawin ang mga yun, feeling ko, nagkakaroon kami ng clash of ideas nung leader namin. how ironic... kasi ang topic namin is all about teamwork, tapos we can't make our own team work. we only have three days left to practice, but as of now, we don't have anything yet to practice. haaay.
falling all over again...
[ senti! senti! ]
too much hating naman dito sa site na ito, konting love muna... *kilig* hehe.
It took
one look
and forever lay out in front of me
I often laugh at you, pointing out on your every little pretty imperfections. It makes me happy doing that, to be able to find even just a slight defect on you... because you seem so perfect to me. But I guess your faults only adds up to the reasons why I consider you perfect.
One smile
then I died
only to be revived by you
You may never know this, but in everything I do, you are part of the inspiration that drives me to work hard and give my best. It's hard to be something in this world, but I will try, and try again if ever I stumble and fall, just to let you know how much strength you've given me to go on.
There I was
thought I had everything
figured out
goes to show just how much I know
bout the way life plays out
i take one step away
and I find myself coming back
to you
my one and only
one and only
you..
You will never be history in my life, only an eternal present. If I can't make you stay, then I have no choice but to walk away with you. If you don't want me to go with you, then I have no choice but to just continue my life alone, feeling complete, knowing that I've found my purpose on earth by becoming a better person because of you. Thank you for touching my life, for letting me experience the magic of unconditional love.
Italicized text are lyrics from the song "Your Song", by Parokya ni Edgar
too much hating naman dito sa site na ito, konting love muna... *kilig* hehe.
It took
one look
and forever lay out in front of me
I often laugh at you, pointing out on your every little pretty imperfections. It makes me happy doing that, to be able to find even just a slight defect on you... because you seem so perfect to me. But I guess your faults only adds up to the reasons why I consider you perfect.
One smile
then I died
only to be revived by you
You may never know this, but in everything I do, you are part of the inspiration that drives me to work hard and give my best. It's hard to be something in this world, but I will try, and try again if ever I stumble and fall, just to let you know how much strength you've given me to go on.
There I was
thought I had everything
figured out
goes to show just how much I know
bout the way life plays out
i take one step away
and I find myself coming back
to you
my one and only
one and only
you..
You will never be history in my life, only an eternal present. If I can't make you stay, then I have no choice but to walk away with you. If you don't want me to go with you, then I have no choice but to just continue my life alone, feeling complete, knowing that I've found my purpose on earth by becoming a better person because of you. Thank you for touching my life, for letting me experience the magic of unconditional love.
Italicized text are lyrics from the song "Your Song", by Parokya ni Edgar
i wanna share this...
I spent the whole day in front of the PC (uh, ok, I guess there's nothing new with that.. lolz) but this time, I ain't just killing time, I was looking for websites that contain information on the topic we will be discussing on our speech class ( i think on tuesday), coz, yeah, it's our groups turn to report. Anyweiz, I found a feel-good article written by Ken Blanchard (the author of "One Minute Manager", which is part of our report) that I want to share here:
[ The Limitations of Perfection ]
The minute there is a right and wrong way of doing things, you start to fear failure.by Ken Blanchard
During the first week of January, our family goes to Aspen, Colorado, to participate in a week-long ski program titled "The Magic of Skiing," run by Tom Crum. Tom, an expert in aikido, a Japanese art of self-defense, is the author of The Magic of Conflict.
In aikido, if someone goes to punch you, you are taught not to block the punch. When you try to block a punch, you are using resistance -- your power and strength against the other person's power and strength. That sets up a win-lose confrontation. Instead, teachers recommend stepping aside with an accepting and pivoting movement. This will use the attacker's energy against him or her.
The key to all of this is to learn how to be centered mentally, with both mind and body relaxed and alert. It is in this state of heightened awareness and connectedness that thinking mechanics cease and the flow, or zone, begins.
You can let go of some of those interfering technical thoughts on the ski slopes by focusing on simple physiological responses like breathing, according to Tom. All great athletic movements are done fluidly, without tension. If your breathing is full and continuous, so is the body's state of movement and relaxation. If the breath is held or shallow, the body's movements will be correspondingly rigid and discontinuous. Smooth and powerful breathing will result in smooth tempo and graceful skiing.
Applying this principle to skiing, try "breathing in" as you approach a turn and "breathing out" as you make the turn, suggests Tom. In the process, visualize your breath and energy heading down the hill.
Tom's program shows how skiing is very much like other aspects of our lives. In most cases, you are not reacting to what someone else does but are focused on what you are doing. You are in charge. Tom teaches you to get out of your evaluative role in life and, instead, to experience, enjoy and learn.
One of the things that I have relearned from Tom is the limits of perfection vs. the power of discovery. Tom emphasizes this difference throughout his work.
When you get caught in the perfection trap, you evaluate your performance based on some model. In other words, there is a right and wrong way of doing things. The minute there is a right and wrong way of doing things, you start to fear failure. You don't want to be "wrong." As a result, you often become unwilling to take a risk. When that happens, your focus is on excessive control and judgment. You want to play it safe.
Tom works a lot with schools. When he works with youngsters in kindergarten, he never asks for volunteers. Why? The whole class would jump to their feet. Young children have not learned about perfection yet. They don't even think that there is a possibility of looking like a fool.
It's very different when children get to high school, says Tom. When you ask for volunteers, no one will step forward. They are afraid of being judged. They have learned that there is a right and wrong way to do things, and they should be careful about "sticking their neck out" and volunteering. Why the difference?
Young people understand the power of discovery. When you see a child learning to walk and they fall, when they look up, what do you see? A tremendous grin. They do not evaluate themselves. They just think learning to walk is fun. "I guess that didn't work. Maybe I ought to try something else." They do not evaluate their performance but are into experiencing the moment. They are spontaneous. They are willing to risk. Why? Because they have not learned about perfection. Judgment has not entered their life yet.
The limits of perfection and the power of discovery helped me to see that we need to relearn our spirit of discovery in organizations. If we are to be truly learning organizations, then all of us -- including managers -- need to drop our evaluative and judgmental sides. We should look at everything as an opportunity to learn and discover.
There are no rights and wrongs; there are just experiences. If people are free to learn from experience rather than being fearful of being judged and put down, the potential performance of your organization would amaze you.
[ mama's arrival ]
... will be on September 4, this year. Good Luck sakin. haha! Oi 4A, kung ako sa inyo, yayain nyo na ko ng lakwatsa dahil for sure, good girl na naman ako pagdating ni mama. hehe.
[ hurray for torrents! ]
I'm currently downloading the latest full albums of these artists:
alanis morisette - jagged little pill acoustic
jason mraz - mr. a-z
babyface - grown and sexy
will burn 'em as soon as the downloads turned 100% finished... ;)
[ The Limitations of Perfection ]
The minute there is a right and wrong way of doing things, you start to fear failure.by Ken Blanchard
During the first week of January, our family goes to Aspen, Colorado, to participate in a week-long ski program titled "The Magic of Skiing," run by Tom Crum. Tom, an expert in aikido, a Japanese art of self-defense, is the author of The Magic of Conflict.
In aikido, if someone goes to punch you, you are taught not to block the punch. When you try to block a punch, you are using resistance -- your power and strength against the other person's power and strength. That sets up a win-lose confrontation. Instead, teachers recommend stepping aside with an accepting and pivoting movement. This will use the attacker's energy against him or her.
The key to all of this is to learn how to be centered mentally, with both mind and body relaxed and alert. It is in this state of heightened awareness and connectedness that thinking mechanics cease and the flow, or zone, begins.
You can let go of some of those interfering technical thoughts on the ski slopes by focusing on simple physiological responses like breathing, according to Tom. All great athletic movements are done fluidly, without tension. If your breathing is full and continuous, so is the body's state of movement and relaxation. If the breath is held or shallow, the body's movements will be correspondingly rigid and discontinuous. Smooth and powerful breathing will result in smooth tempo and graceful skiing.
Applying this principle to skiing, try "breathing in" as you approach a turn and "breathing out" as you make the turn, suggests Tom. In the process, visualize your breath and energy heading down the hill.
Tom's program shows how skiing is very much like other aspects of our lives. In most cases, you are not reacting to what someone else does but are focused on what you are doing. You are in charge. Tom teaches you to get out of your evaluative role in life and, instead, to experience, enjoy and learn.
One of the things that I have relearned from Tom is the limits of perfection vs. the power of discovery. Tom emphasizes this difference throughout his work.
When you get caught in the perfection trap, you evaluate your performance based on some model. In other words, there is a right and wrong way of doing things. The minute there is a right and wrong way of doing things, you start to fear failure. You don't want to be "wrong." As a result, you often become unwilling to take a risk. When that happens, your focus is on excessive control and judgment. You want to play it safe.
Tom works a lot with schools. When he works with youngsters in kindergarten, he never asks for volunteers. Why? The whole class would jump to their feet. Young children have not learned about perfection yet. They don't even think that there is a possibility of looking like a fool.
It's very different when children get to high school, says Tom. When you ask for volunteers, no one will step forward. They are afraid of being judged. They have learned that there is a right and wrong way to do things, and they should be careful about "sticking their neck out" and volunteering. Why the difference?
Young people understand the power of discovery. When you see a child learning to walk and they fall, when they look up, what do you see? A tremendous grin. They do not evaluate themselves. They just think learning to walk is fun. "I guess that didn't work. Maybe I ought to try something else." They do not evaluate their performance but are into experiencing the moment. They are spontaneous. They are willing to risk. Why? Because they have not learned about perfection. Judgment has not entered their life yet.
The limits of perfection and the power of discovery helped me to see that we need to relearn our spirit of discovery in organizations. If we are to be truly learning organizations, then all of us -- including managers -- need to drop our evaluative and judgmental sides. We should look at everything as an opportunity to learn and discover.
There are no rights and wrongs; there are just experiences. If people are free to learn from experience rather than being fearful of being judged and put down, the potential performance of your organization would amaze you.
[ mama's arrival ]
... will be on September 4, this year. Good Luck sakin. haha! Oi 4A, kung ako sa inyo, yayain nyo na ko ng lakwatsa dahil for sure, good girl na naman ako pagdating ni mama. hehe.
[ hurray for torrents! ]
I'm currently downloading the latest full albums of these artists:
alanis morisette - jagged little pill acoustic
jason mraz - mr. a-z
babyface - grown and sexy
will burn 'em as soon as the downloads turned 100% finished... ;)
forum ba ito?!
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sa speech class...
a very timely open forum. nakakatuwa na nakakainis pa rin. nagkalabasan na ng sama ng loob, may nalinawan, may lalong nabulagan. may umiyak - may naawa, may sing-tigas pa rin ng bato ang puso. may mga mataas ang pride, meron din namang mga taong pinapayagang apakan lang ang kanilang pride. may mga nagbigay katwiran sa mali, meron namang ayaw ipagsigawan ang tama. differences, puro differences. haay... sana magkaayos na sila. kami naman ng kaaway ko, ITULOY ANG COLD WAR! haha, racquel.. haha.
*updates!* OK na sila rhia!! yehey! thanks to the organizers of the forum!!
on aug. 4
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MS. RIONALYN RADAM & MS. JAISY SANCHEZ
Inuman na!
OrgID: UMC
Address: 101 The City Drive
City: Orange
StateProv: CA
PostalCode: 92868
Country: US
NetRange: 160.87.0.0 - 160.87.255.255 ... this means that IP Addresses 160.87.65.221 and 160.87.65.211 belonged to this range.
sa speech class...
a very timely open forum. nakakatuwa na nakakainis pa rin. nagkalabasan na ng sama ng loob, may nalinawan, may lalong nabulagan. may umiyak - may naawa, may sing-tigas pa rin ng bato ang puso. may mga mataas ang pride, meron din namang mga taong pinapayagang apakan lang ang kanilang pride. may mga nagbigay katwiran sa mali, meron namang ayaw ipagsigawan ang tama. differences, puro differences. haay... sana magkaayos na sila. kami naman ng kaaway ko, ITULOY ANG COLD WAR! haha, racquel.. haha.
*updates!* OK na sila rhia!! yehey! thanks to the organizers of the forum!!
on aug. 4
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MS. RIONALYN RADAM & MS. JAISY SANCHEZ
Inuman na!
thank you..
[ angry? who's angry? ]
thanks for calling me smart... and really, I'm not angry at you. I'm learning from you. Well, that's how you see me, can't do anything about it. If you believe I think TOO highly of myself, I consider it an opinion... and I value the opinions of others, especially of my visitors. Thanks for the criticisms. I wish you didn't delete me on your friend's list on friendster, we could've known each other better.
Siguro nga tama ka, there's a part of me that I still can't accept.
Drop by again... =D
[ whhaaatt??! ]
bakit kaya nila ko pinapansin? hindi ko na alam tuloy kung anong dapat kong isipin. hmm.. sana si rhiane na lang pansinin nila. sana wag na rin silang magparinig kay rhia. sana mabasa nila to.
[ chwimming na! ]
yey! overnight swimming sa birthday ni bobbie! hala... malapit na rin pala b-day nila rio and jaisy! happy beerday! hehe... ay teka, kung aug. 19 ung alis para sa swimming, for sure aug. 20 pa ng gabi ang uwi... teka.. may klase ata ako nun!! friday and saturday un eh!! teka... baka hindi pala ako makasama. hmm.. pag may scheduled exam, di na lang ako sasama. pero pag wala naman, GO na! hehe...
thanks for calling me smart... and really, I'm not angry at you. I'm learning from you. Well, that's how you see me, can't do anything about it. If you believe I think TOO highly of myself, I consider it an opinion... and I value the opinions of others, especially of my visitors. Thanks for the criticisms. I wish you didn't delete me on your friend's list on friendster, we could've known each other better.
Siguro nga tama ka, there's a part of me that I still can't accept.
Drop by again... =D
[ whhaaatt??! ]
bakit kaya nila ko pinapansin? hindi ko na alam tuloy kung anong dapat kong isipin. hmm.. sana si rhiane na lang pansinin nila. sana wag na rin silang magparinig kay rhia. sana mabasa nila to.
[ chwimming na! ]
yey! overnight swimming sa birthday ni bobbie! hala... malapit na rin pala b-day nila rio and jaisy! happy beerday! hehe... ay teka, kung aug. 19 ung alis para sa swimming, for sure aug. 20 pa ng gabi ang uwi... teka.. may klase ata ako nun!! friday and saturday un eh!! teka... baka hindi pala ako makasama. hmm.. pag may scheduled exam, di na lang ako sasama. pero pag wala naman, GO na! hehe...
lakas ng loob!
An Open Letter to One Pathetic Bitch
Truthfully, this is an edited version of a blog entry from Theena's friendster blog (I don't know her personally but.. yeah, she's a ka-friendster. hehe). These are the exact words I've been wanting to tell to some fucktard (fuckin' retard) who had the nerve to stab me on the back though I've been so nice to her. Read on:
what makes ur life so perfect that u get to question mine?
between the 2 of us ,i am proud 2 say that I AM the lesser evil. You need to open ur eyes pare.. uv been hurting a lot of people unconsciously and u r puttin up a front na kawawa ka and peeps need to sympathize. Grow uP! i know wut uv been saying behind my back, "si rakel ay ganyan at ganito..." that i accept. thats fine with me, i never denied the fact that some peopLE dont like me, cant blame 'em, do i luk like a freakin people person? nah. pro wut if i spill out ur own beans, and tell everyone wut type of person u r huh? why dont we do that, lets clean each other's closet huh? I am not afraid.. and ul be surprised how much i am willing to spill... since pinocchio wud hav been embarrsed with ur fascinating lying capabilities.. haha! hmmm...tempting.
u know what i cud not take? its the fact that i was somehow nice to u. and ur aware of it. ang bait ko sayo, bigla kang naging monster. d ko lam kung ano reason..
u know wut? u brought back d old me. Ok naman tayo, bigla kang nagpalutang ng mga isyu tungkol sa'kin... naghanap ka pa ng karamay! tang-ina mo, nasira pa pagkakaibigan nila rhiane and her barkada dahil lang sa namamalimos ka ng atensyon. nanggamit ka ng mga nananahimik na tao para lang makamot mo yang nangangati mong dila! wala na akong magagawa sayo, patay na konsensya mo. Hayaan mo, Karma is doing her rounds na, baka malapit na sya sayo. I dont hav 2 roll out d red c for anyone anymore. i dont care if people wont like me. u made me numb and i am feeling fabulous about it.
remember, i WAS NICE TO U. past tense.
Underscores Mine.
Truthfully, this is an edited version of a blog entry from Theena's friendster blog (I don't know her personally but.. yeah, she's a ka-friendster. hehe). These are the exact words I've been wanting to tell to some fucktard (fuckin' retard) who had the nerve to stab me on the back though I've been so nice to her. Read on:
what makes ur life so perfect that u get to question mine?
between the 2 of us ,i am proud 2 say that I AM the lesser evil. You need to open ur eyes pare.. uv been hurting a lot of people unconsciously and u r puttin up a front na kawawa ka and peeps need to sympathize. Grow uP! i know wut uv been saying behind my back, "si rakel ay ganyan at ganito..." that i accept. thats fine with me, i never denied the fact that some peopLE dont like me, cant blame 'em, do i luk like a freakin people person? nah. pro wut if i spill out ur own beans, and tell everyone wut type of person u r huh? why dont we do that, lets clean each other's closet huh? I am not afraid.. and ul be surprised how much i am willing to spill... since pinocchio wud hav been embarrsed with ur fascinating lying capabilities.. haha! hmmm...tempting.
u know what i cud not take? its the fact that i was somehow nice to u. and ur aware of it. ang bait ko sayo, bigla kang naging monster. d ko lam kung ano reason..
u know wut? u brought back d old me. Ok naman tayo, bigla kang nagpalutang ng mga isyu tungkol sa'kin... naghanap ka pa ng karamay! tang-ina mo, nasira pa pagkakaibigan nila rhiane and her barkada dahil lang sa namamalimos ka ng atensyon. nanggamit ka ng mga nananahimik na tao para lang makamot mo yang nangangati mong dila! wala na akong magagawa sayo, patay na konsensya mo. Hayaan mo, Karma is doing her rounds na, baka malapit na sya sayo. I dont hav 2 roll out d red c for anyone anymore. i dont care if people wont like me. u made me numb and i am feeling fabulous about it.
remember, i WAS NICE TO U. past tense.
Underscores Mine.
